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P-Angel
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TriggerLily .. just from going off your post, I would think that what you are wanting, needing and thinking is the opposite of independence, rather dependence .. and being dependent is a good thing.

Here's what I mean .. right now you are in a situation where you are struggling and it's apparant from the way you talk that this is really bothering you, and you need to feel some sort of familiarity, so you can get back to sanity .. you want to move to your home town, back to where you grew up .. so you can feel safe and secure again.

This is a dependence .. you are counting on this move bringing you to a place where you can feel normal again .. likely near family and friends. That is somehting you've put in your head where you can rely on a familiar environment, where you won't have to struggle.

What the indepedence to which you are referring is actually an independence from a particular person(s) .. it's actually a "seperation" from a situation where you feel is not in your best interest.

"am finding it slightly difficult to convince others I can do this"

This is also a dependence .. you are depending on others to validate and help you justify why it is in your best interest to re-connect with your roots.

The only way a person can be completely free of dependence is to be dead. We rely on all kinds of things in our life that we are dependent on: job, friends, nourishment, family. And I think that you are focusing on the independence/dependence thing as a crutch to either make you or break you. In other words .. can a Pisces be independent? This is a question asked and if the answer is "no", then it might pursuade your decision, if the answer is "yes" then that also would slant your decision .. when in reality, it has nothing to do with dependence upon someone or something else .. it only has to do with what you believe is right for your life at this moment.

If what you believe will help you to feel sane is to make this move .. then, "that" is the decision at hand, NOT whether you have it built in your genetics to be independent, or not .. and not whether us in here, or your friends where you are, believe that you are capable of making this move. You don't have to convince anybody of anything .. you only have to listen to your heart and believe in it, for yourself.

I really hope you figure this out, and make the right decision for yourself.
Best of luck to you 🙂