my mother

yeah, i know she's mean and a cookiemonster but u know... so anyway i growl at her and tell her she had to take me to get a cd player. well taht was bad. i should have told to do such. she cookiemonstered to my dad and mom about it and was informed that and thus was badd.... and i shouldn't want to embbrass them and make them feel ashamed. and that's true... i hated that. but uknow i should have gone at far as growl and tell her she had to. but i should have done was let it go even though she did say yes. for i didn't cookiemonster that she didn't say no and i never told jo, sissy, dad, mom, or jon about any of it because it never happened she said. unitl that morning she woke up and decieded to be a cookiemonster. but u know what i have to not care and care yet. adn know that she is but respect out that she gave me life and she's an adult and that's it about i'll i can give whcich means i won't cuss her out or tell she has to but as to listen and do what she says all the time. i won't. that's isn't my job. but i will love and try my best to beat her at her job and not get mad at her rude dumbassness.

well life is going well uptill this point. where should i post to talk on her to a physhcolgist about there job and rate of hardness.

You know I come from a f--k uped background but you take the cake can't you find someplace to just go and act like you have no faimly. perhaps they will take you in you could say all your kin was killed in a mud slide or something.

How many years until you can move out, James (the 13th)?

Perhaps until then you could go to or-a-gun and live with the big feets.

i don't live with her i live with my dad. but i have 2 more years that i have to go some sort of vistation with her.

i upset my gemini sister by telling a friend of her had od at school. yeah i know. well what i should have done was tell mom her mom my mom anyway that and she would have done becuase she goes all insaine with such a thing she is told. next time i'll know. i'll go to funeral if he dies but i haven't know hime personal for 5 or 6 yrs. so u know... but... i hope he lives.

he really didn't hae a do. anyway that is just what was asummed so hastingly by mass of the pop. of the school. i'll be going to family runion this weekend my momther's side. and it's here in town. hope to see more of u al later.

i got my class ring it's great it's purple the amytstit birthsotone and has piseces on the top and my graduation time 2005 with choral people onthat side. and my first name and and endless horzion on that side. nad my name encrezed inside the ring and my end of intals jr. on the top becuse that's what my family calls me. hey email me at theorginalengimofbenjmainfranklin@hotmail.com add me to ur list!!!!!!!

now a recent note on my sister jo, she came home and wanted her cd player back.
i said i gave it back to her and haven't had it for a while.
in acutally about 2 weeks. And that's the truth. she said stuff like stop lookin in stupid palces and to give it to her and she's had enough borthers to now we steal. and she brought up that i stole from jon. the only thing was once not realizing a long time ago his socks. Socks god i gave them back. and then she's like not everyone has money. I'm like God. i learned that at the lastes the not everyone had money at lastest 3rd garde. and futher more why would i tell my mom and growl at her to go and get me one when i had a cd player that i don't have but must have even though i don't. God. i don't care but i fiquer i'll just pay for it and go on. She wated 4 yrs. okay for 1 yr. on and off u've had a job. u could have bought one. and i know for a litle bit of sure that she did work a little on the farm and got paid for it. I mean God. u wated 4 yrs. more around 2 yrs. u just didn't want to buy one enogh or u just wasted ur money on uselss convient store food, even though i never told her that. but u know that's what i eventually thought.



nother note my sister moved on campus due to fact that the drive every morning at 6 am. was to much.

ttul
take care
beacarful
rofl forever
until then

James the13th

another slight information to throw on the pot. my sister who did the dishes 2 nights before this didn't but up the dishes as usually no promblem. uknow. so i but up the dishes and apparently some no 4 of the glasses were dirty. i mean dirty. well not to noticable at first but if u got one down u would ahve noticed it. jon got upset w/ me about it and i said i didn't wash them jo did. And all jo had to say was check the dishes out of the dishwasher and make sure there clean all the time. i nor jon complanied to her about the dishes being dirty. So she knew saying anything would be hypcrtoical. i myself knew that from doing this for nealry 28 days she's suppose to done the dishes she's done them just about 4 days.

and that was it. i wasn't even really suppose even do the dishes. must less the landury and fold them. that i was told definltely i couldn't do then we i finally did i was told would be sorted never was instad thrown to the side. which was not what i was told would be done. well since then i have kept up the landury and given them too their owners. it's not to hard. it's funny though u know.
do u conisdier all this chit chat complaining.

James 13th re. your mama and mothers in general - we can cuss and huff and puff at them - hate them, love them but eventually one comes to the startling and frigthening (maybe for some) conclusuion re. their mothers..."They are those dear octopusses from whose tentacles we can never quite escape and in our innermost hearts...never quite want to".......She's doing the best she can for you at this particular moment in time.
Ax

that is true. i think there is a great mass lesson i'm suppose to learn. that if people really love u they will do what they can for u. even if it is wrong and tottally obvious that's all that they can do and there's a need to respect and expect that and not worry and evenutally i will not be care what she thinks or wants me to do. but i will learn from her and move on. but still care and respect and memmories and that is all that will remain.

i leanred something a time ago. about the girl i like's father. whom likes a ceartian order his food a certain way. and everyone know this at this crictitcally acclaimed icream eterary. and so this being so. he got mad at lura this stupid girl about putting a spoon in his icecream and made a huge ordeal about it. Great huh? i saw so for the fact that it proves even more the ass of the man.

Life is so different in kentucky than in kent very different

Oh my James 13th...people and their "quirks". That man (father) sure would have a hard time with me because I LOVE taking a gold spoon and gently lifting the cookie dough and brownies from the ice cream as that is my favorite part! (Half~Baked ice cream). Sounds like he might have my fingers cut off....

Life is so different in Kentucky than in North Carolina, so very different.

copy cat, copy cat.

yeah more then that. off with ur head.

Yikes!!!!!!!! So glad I am far away from you. That would not be a good thing having a headless woman strutting the streets.

rofl. oh i had a bad day today. God!!!!!!. whuuuu. in math we had a quiz were i wasn't done and this girl whittney kept on talking and she was close by so i told her to shhh. and she's said, no, everyone else is talking. it mad me mad. she didn't even care. then i told someone else during lunch, paige. she was rude when i told her my promblem and she told me to turn around because no one cares about it. so needless to say i feel deppressed and just amazed how uncaring people are tommrows the 11th. i'm so sad....