
woundedangel25
@woundedangel25
12 YearsScorpio
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But the way I express my feelings to him, I guess it's just so wrong. I'm the type of girl who always needs to feel secured with my man. I always wanted to feel loved, and needed. I always want to hear those sweet words that will make me feel secure that he's never going to leave me. I demanded for a constant communication (texts.. calls..), even if we work for the same company and see each other 4 times a week. I wanted to be the center of his attention. I wanted to be his priority. I wanted to be his everything. Yes, I'm too needy and clingy, and I hate that about myself now. Because of that, the man that I love just walked out of my life.
Every time I say something, I'm expecting him to respond in a certain way. And if he answers differently, I'm gonna get mad. It's like I'm always looking for something to argue with. That's what he says. And I understand that. Though I didn't mean to. I just need to hear from him that he'll do anything for me.. That he will never do anything to hurt me.. I just put too much pressure on him. And now I keep blaming myself for doing that.
He's a very calm guy. He's just not into drama. Just wanna take life the easy way. And the way I acted as his girlfriend pushed him away. And now I don't know what to do to get him back. I know to myself that I'm willing to do anything for him. That I could be the girl that he ever wanted. I just don't know what to do. I'm so lost without him, I'm crying real hard everyday.
The last few days of our 3rd week in a relationship, I got no idea what was going on. He just started to get cold. Our last conversation through text was when I said that I'm going to pull myself back a little bit so he won't feel suffocated anymore. He got disappointed, I could say. But I just continued to try to pull back in my last few messages that day, and I thought everything was fine. Until we see each other at work that night. I smiled at him cause I thought everything was fine. Then he just smiled back. Like a cold smile. And I wondered w