Me and this Scorp have been involved kind of for about a year now. Moments of high intensity then always a fall out, getting into a fight this past fall that put us on not speaking terms for the better half of a year. The last year, looking back, I realize I was just a pawn in his need for attention. This year when we reconnected it felt much much different. We took MDMA and stayed up all night revealing our inner most secrets about how we each felt during the silence and social media blocks. he asked me to be his girlfriend in this state (when he soberly later took back) but also told me how much he likes me and that his fear of liking me runs deep. I believe him when he says these things but how can I when he took back his stance on the relationship? maybe I should be less wary but I've been stung before and it was literal heart break. we ended up blowing off all of our other friends that weekend and staying in, having sex and generally just being around one another. the last night I was there he revealed intimacies about his life and childhood that were really beautiful and moving. when I left that morning he sent me a text thanking me for my kindness and goodness as a person. we left things on amazing terms and agreed to see each other in 6 weeks (we live in separate states). While all of this sounds promising, he's fallen through on plans like this before. Not to mention there was some other girl messaging him the whole time we were together calling him a cheater even though he said they weren't together. I think he was trying to rile me up but I'm adept at paying attention to manipulation. if scorpios are so loyal why is he investing more in me than this other girl? why would she get the title of being his girlfriend so readily and not me? I refuse to ask him these questions in fear I'll read as needy and insecure and I wanted to leave this weekend with glowing positive energy, which I accomplished. I've been back home for a week and while he was texting a lot his communication is minimal although he is still around my social media. is he just taking time to process? will he change his mind again? is he as serious about me as he says on adulterants or is this really a game of master manipulation? they say you can trust a scorpios word but I'm a Leo/Cancer cusp and my distrust already runs deep. Can anyone shed some insight? My intuition tells me I really am a significant person to him and my loyalty and faith will be rewarded - but I'm apprehensive to look the fool yet again.
