On a break with my Scorp bf... Need advice pls!

Hey guys...

My Bf:
Sun/Mercury/Venus/Mars/Uranus in Scorpio.
Rising/Neptune in Sag.
Moon/Saturn in Virgo.
Pluto in Libra. Jupiter in Leo.

Me :
Rising/Neptune in Capri.
Sun in Pisces.
Moon in Libra.
Mercury/venus/Mars in Aries.
Saturn/Pluto in Scorpio.


My Scorpio bf asked me for a break up during a fight 3 days ago. I said —ok let's break up?? spontaneously cause I was furious. I didn't really want to, that's why I broke into tears after that. I was at his house at that time and I was so devastated that I cried and cried and cried. He looks so calm, but I know he's hurting really bad as well inside. I can tell because inside that cold exterior he is really vulnerable. Usually he would be very mad??_

He still loves me. He just needs to get away from the constant fighting and he told me he held on as long as he could that's why he wants a break up. So I asked him if we could take a break instead of breaking up. Give us time to cool down, to reflect on ourselves, to remind us how we fell in love with each other, to miss each other again.

He agreed but when I said until when? he said —I dunno I guess until we stop fighting, until we miss each other and until I want you again.?? Ouch again for the last one.. He told me before that when he's mad he often says mean things but he doesn't really mean that. But sound like real for me.. So, we have agreement we still keep contact, not dating or seeing anybody, but just not seeing each other for a while (until he wants to see me).

He said again, —If you want to take a break, don't change your mind and say break up 2 days later.. — I said, —I wont.. —. Then he said again, —I don't think you could stand it.. — -— wth?? Is he testing me? What does it mean?

I??ve been having suspicion over him for the last one month cause he's been acting diff, less affectionate, less communication with me although he always finds me every night (he used to chat me every morning, afternoon and night, until last month??_) Sometimes I think maybe he just needs space but I let my emotion took control over me. 2 weeks ago he was outta town and he never contacted me, whenever I contacted him during dinner he never picked up and ended up calling me every 11pm when he's home. So I was having trust issues that he might cheated on me, cause I felt really strong something??s not right. I was never jealous, during this whole 7 months he's been suspicious and jealous

I have hurt him cause I said break up 2 weeks ago and he called and texted me like crazy begging me to stay and I didn't leave. I said if we??re gonna be together he needs to compromise and listen to my needs as well. All these times it's been all about him. I complied to what he needs but when I tell my needs he would argue like hell. Then 1 week ago when we had argument, he disappeared all night. I went furious texted him if he's not happy with me, he can leave. The next morning he called me and texted me again like crazy but I was asleep until noon, he thought I was ignoring him.

I wrote another thread about the reason why I said break up and his complex behavior that makes me lose my patience. I??ve been patient and understanding this whole time. http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum10/HTML/004327.html

I know I was wrong. I wrote him an email yesterday apologizing for what I??ve done and I really expressed my feelings genuinely. It's been 4 days on our break:

Day 1: We chat a bit. He said sorry it has to be like this. He was ready to leave but it's hard for him cause he still loves me. But at the same time he wants to get away from this evil circle where we fight constantly. I tried to be understanding and gave him space. I know I was wrong. Ive hurt him blab la bla..

Day 2: I called him to say hi. At night he texted me and gave me short call just to check if im home.

Day 3: He texted me and we chat a bit in the afternoon and at night he texted me again wanting to know if im home. But that's it. I asked, he answered. He didn't ask or talk about anything else. I know he's still mad.

Day 4: We had a short chat in the afternoon and i just texted him, he didnt reply. I texted again, "I miss u babe. Im here if you wanna talk."

I love him so much despite everything we've been through and I??ve learned from my mistake. I wish he would stick around and forgive me, I know he doesn't forget and forgive easily so I feel like walking on thin ice now..

Is there anything I could do to change his mind during this break? What should I do to save our relationship?

I??ve heard a lot about cheating Scorpio. Could he be cheating on me? I asked him about this and he said no.

Im sorry for the long story.. I really appreciate it if u read it??_ I'm really desperate for advice. Thanks!

I think you need to give him space... If you're on a break, you don't need to be talking everyday. I know that it's he'd... But ease up on the contact you have with him *a lot* to give him an opportunity to MISS you.

And I'm confused, he wanted to break up first?

It's hard**