scorpio/scorpio where art thou oh scorpio!

Hi all,
i am a scorpio and i have been in love with another scorpio for over a decade now. i don't know what to think about it. we have always been the closest friends. we could finish each other's sentences. i've never felt this close to another person in my entire life. it seems as if we were actually right next to each other when we were part of the eternal essence of creation! I remember when i first met him ( im a female) i felt like i was being swept into the eye of a powerful storm! What and UNDERSTATEMENT. As i said, we have been friends. Never did we ever explore the physical intimacy that lovers do. When we met, it was as if all of my soul cried out and lept to be with him. I know this sounds so crazy but, i am truly in love with this man. He is perhaps the most intense man i've ever known. being a scorpio myself, it is very hard for a man to hold my attention for long, unless he is as intense as i am. This man has held my attention for over 10 years and all without laying a finger against my skin. This is truly amazing as most scorpios would tell you. We have not lived near to each other geographically for over 7 years. Yet, we are as close and any pair of lovers on the planet. I have been with another partner due to this man's not staying with me, and basically letting me go. ( yep, i do have a sex drive. he he) But, whenever he would call my life would fall away and I was right back where i wanted to be. I know that sounds terrible. It is terrible. But, hey i'm selfish and I gave my partner everything i had to give. It is sad and unfortunate that my heart and soul already belonged to someone else. I truly wanted to love him but, sometimes we do not call the shots. Anyway, here i am still ever in love with my scorpio man. I heard from him the other day and he finally wants to admit that he has longed for the kind of relationship that I have longed for all these years. A decade in the making! Good God in heaven. He waited until the man I was with finally decided he was worth more than me wanting to love him and not doing it anyway. Now, i'm here and my scorpio is on the other side of the continent! We tried to get as far away from each other as we could. A lot of good it's done us. Now, we are faced with some deeply personal issues and a desire that we have not been able to subdue for over a decade. I am extatic, elated and scared to death. I've spent the last 10 years with him being the first person I wanted to share any new news with, the first person I thought about when I heard a love song...The one i wanted with me whenever i saw a new horizon... He is the one i love. Now, i am hearing that this was true for him as well. We are such a mess. I've never wanted anything so much in my life, and i am so scared that i will ruin it all. My heart is aching for how long we have kept ourselves apart. My heart is aching because we are apart still. My heart is aching because I don't know what the f*** i am doing! I don't even really know why i'm posting this. I a fuckin scorpio for Christ's sake, you aren't supposed to know s*** about me. I'm just confused and lonely and the love of my life has been beaten down and broken so badly that he couldn't even offer me his heart for over 10 years. I can't imagine having to keep my own feelings secret for that long. Believe me he was lousy at it. But, he never confirmed his actions until a few days ago. I want a crystal ball, tarot cards, and a magic charm! I want a f-ing guarantee that I won't lose him ultimately. F! If anyone has ever been insane like me, please post and let me know that i am not alone! Thanks.
Peace,
Scorpio

I'm right here by your side, a scorpio myself. Yeah, that's the way it goes. My advice is that if you really want this man you should go and GET him. You can do it, noone else can. It's about f*** time you step out of your comfort zone and make things happen. Surprise him, get yourself stuck in his head, seduce him, whatever it takes.
But maybe the mystery is so good that you would rather live in pain then get what you crave and end the search. Hey, life is a game, play it like you want,
ultimately you are the one who feels the effects of playing in it. Just don't kill yourself over him.tell me about it fieryfairy000@yahoo.com

Fierce scorpio

I'm right here by your side, a scorpio myself. Yeah, that's the way it goes. My advice is that if you really want this man you should go and GET him. You can do it, noone else can. It's about f*** time you step out of your comfort zone and make things happen. Surprise him, get yourself stuck in his head, seduce him, whatever it takes.
But maybe the mystery is so good that you would rather live in pain then get what you crave and end the search. Hey, life is a game, play it like you want,
ultimately you are the one who feels the effects of playing in it. Just don't kill yourself over him.

Fierce scorpio

Thanks, I needed someone to give me a push. Although, cautious scorpio, i did what I could. I invited him to come see me. He is not working right now and I am. OOPs. just another come here - go away game he was playing. I am done. I've avoided this for many many years but, it's time to just give the thing up. I do not want to know how his life is going without me in it anymore. My own actions have given me a measure of pain i had not anticipated but, I can stop doing what it is that is hurting me. I'm done. He knows my address if he wants to talk to me, he can make the 2500 mile trip to get my attention. Until then, I'm single and looking forward. Thanks again for replying.
S

No problem, you're welcome🙂 Wish you luck in the future.
Fierce Scorpio

Sweet dear!!!!!!!
I could have written your note, I was in shock to read it. My scorpio man was a mere 15 yr old in highschool (as was I) when we first met. Then we last saw each at 19 after being on/off high school sweethearts and taking up with others.
Same feeling, same scenario basically. Thought I lost him, etc. He thought he lost me. Had no idea where each other were even living.
Well, after 9 years or so, he tracked me down--all that time he was working on reuniting w/me someday if you can believe it.
I did not know he even had the exact same feeling about me that I had for him. Tthe true love feeling, the only one for you, etc, w/an even greater intensity.
And just as great a fear of loss that kept him paralyzed before he finally decided to take matters into his own hands--to reappear in my life.
We both dreamt of each other before we met and each had all sorts of mystical experiences as we were "apart." Like he would be suicidally depressed because he felt he was "faking it" w/his other women, then see my face very clearly in his mind's eye smiling at him.

He could not understand why an old high school flame from all this time ago still held his heart, he tried to fight it on the basis of logic. But lost.

If the Universe wants you two to be together, you will never lose him. But you will lose if you don't act on your feelings. Take a lesson from my experience, you never know when the Universe might want to teach you a lesson.

Hello fellow scorpios' and happy belated birthday to you all.
To speak on the subject about true love is the deepest emotion to feel and the hardest to express, if you are'nt sure that the love is as real to the other. I am now in a stage were I feel that, there is only one way to love and that is with freedom and grace. Love even it is never consumated. Love even it you are subject to lose. Love without expectation of being loved by the other. Love because it is the final commandment of God. Love those that are afraid of love and your courage may bring the truth of loves' glory to them. I have loved as Christ loved the Church and lost, my life to love and in the end I gained it all. The realization of the power of love. Love Always Another Scorpio

Hi dear you are not alone . This is a Scorpio man in love with a Scorpio woman for 4 years now , in the same situation like you . I am married to a wonderful woman and have a dream like life , two beautiful daugthers yet my heart , body and soul belong elsewere . Like you i have been close and far with this woman many times and our relatioship (platonic ) has had tremendous ups and downs , even statements of love ! I feel like she is my soulmate and my dream partner . I have had times when i cannot sleep eat , work , or do anything else because i am thinking of her .
I cannot tell you what to do , just make sure that he loves you as much as you do otherwise it's not worth to lose what you currently have. Especially if you are married and have children like me .

Thanks all of you for your insight! Well, love is love. I have loved for the sake of loving for more than 10 years and I must say, I have learned more about love than any hot steamy sexual encounter could have begun to teach me. I have searched and asked my god to direct me more times than i ever thought I would. The power of love, as you put it, is truly awsome. I brought me outside of myself and gave me the stregnth, hope and wisdom to continue this most precious relationship. I have remained the friend that I have always been to this man, and I just can not imagine not playing a part in his life. When it comes down to the bottom line..... I love him. It doesnt' matter what the circumstances are that surround that love. He is struggleing with his demons and he must quiet them in his own time and his own way. I know that he loves me dearly, and cherishes me as I do him. We talk for hours on the phone and that seems to be enough for both of us. We believe We are right here in each other's hearts always. Time will tell if there is more in store for us than we have already been blessed with. In spite of things not 'going my way' I have with him something that i have never had with any other. This alone is more than i could have imagined, let alone asked for. I am faithful that the universe has it's own plan and I ask my god to guide me to be the best part of that plan. I may not have the standard love affair type of relationship. What I do have is a love that will not end. Sometimes a burden? Yes. Mostly though it's been the most amazing thing I have ever done. so, for another day i am keepin the faith, the fire, and the love.
S.

To the note before the one right before mine:
So you are married to one woman but feel another is your soulmate?
I just can't understand living in the facade, nor making your children play a part of the role in that facade.

I know that the "soulmate" may not return her love, but I don't understand your attitude towards your wife. Surely she deserves a husband who is not thinking of and loving another woman.