
(Vent) It's pissing me off how this aqua is taking advantage of my kind nature. He's leading me on but has a gf? I'm not a one night stand or a back up when his cap goes rogue he wants someone to fill the gap just like my gem ex I hate men and I keep wanting to do the right thing but I feel like I don't want to anymore none of these me want a monogamous relationship as they have claimed & I always say that I wanna just turn the other cheek & just go "hoe crazy" and stop being lovable & dnt believe in luv anymore & just become emotionless but then something reminds me that I shouldn't & I continue to be nice and stay hurt & alone I've never been without anyone this long it's been almost a little over three years & haven't had a real relationship. I don't wanna waste my youth & not enjoy sex or doing fun things with someone I could truly luv...I only want 1 person I have no real friends no one I talk to on the daily but would prefer a man that's my bestfriend that I could screw that won't hurt me...guess I'm asking too much I just feel like I wanna give up









