untitled/mini rant

I was seeing Aqua for about a year. He came on heavy at the beginning and I??ll admit I was quite na??ve when he told me certain things??_ towards the end of our relationship I asked him to be honest about where we were going and what he wanted??_he said he doesn't know what he wants right about now but he enjoys what we have etc.

I suggested to him we should be friends. I could see we weren't on the right page so kept it moving. He broke his ankle a few months ago??_I hadn't seen him for about 4/5 months??_we've spoken on and off over this time but haven't met since.

Roll on yesterday. I had a mini spat with a Sag who lives on my estate. About 6 months ago he ran me down to give me his BBM. He??d always change his pic but would never message me. I initiated conversation once and he responded very dryly. After that I gave him about 2 months??_nothing??_so I thought, —what's the point— and deleted him. Yesterday he ran me down again as I was coming back home, with his arms open wide like WTF??_you??ve abandoned me??_creating a big scene, which REALLY pissed me off so I gave him a piece of my mind.

I put a BC on BBM saying some men need a firm kick up the backside??_LOL (I was furious!)...on comes Aqua asking me what about the men who don't need a kicking??_ to which I said I'm not interested. Then he asked me what am I to him and I said a friend, why? Then he told me never mind I??ll leave you alone.

About half an hour later Aqua BC something along the lines of —It really annoys me when some people think they??re too nice??

He knows we are friends. I can't continue to emotionally commit to him if he doesn't know what he wants. I can't put in if there's no direction (Venus Cap). What was that all about?

I haven't heard from him since. Thoughts?

I appreciate your frustrations and struggles. They come on strong, get their fix, and disappear like a fart in the wind. It is truly mind-numbing if you allow them to get under your skin. They love mind games, if you play along the better for them, if not, you pay for no play.

When he says he doesn't know what he wants, he is actually telling you he knows what he doesn't want, which is a "real" commitment. On the other hand, he didn't want to lose what you two had either.

You two were incompatible. He wanted things to be casual. You wanted seriousness.

I think he still has feelings for you, but he may be thinking of moving on.

Posted by BlueSandCacoon
When he says he doesn't know what he wants, he is actually telling you he knows what he doesn't want, which is a "real" commitment. On the other hand, he didn't want to lose what you two had either.

You two were incompatible. He wanted things to be casual. You wanted seriousness.

I think he still has feelings for you, but he may be thinking of moving on.

This is exactly it...I can't keep doing this anymore. He texted me a couple days ago trying to engage in some sexy chat but I weren't having it...not that I don't want to but each and every time I go there with him it is an emotional investment, more than he may feel. I feel bad though, I don't want to be horrible to him. I haven't heard from him since. Part of me wishes he would move on but part of me doesn't want our thing to end so I guess we're both feeling the same thing.

I know it won't work long-term so I feel it's best to let this one go for my own sanity LOL.