Looking back at 2010-2011

Can someone explain to me what were the years 2010 and 2011 about? For the past 12 months my life has taken a 180 degree turn, and although I always embrace change with an optimistic attitute. These changes have been so challenging that I feel like all my energy has been drained, and I just continue to spiral down without being unable to do anything about it. What has been going on with the universe? 😢 Is there anybody here going through something similar?

April 3rd

Well, everything. Unexpectedly relocated to a new place, which translated into leaving all the good things I socially, emotionally, spiritually and finantially gained for the past few years, to having to start again from zero, in every aspect of my life. It's been really hard. I've always fought to be an independant person, and you can imagine how frustrating it is to have to ask your family for help. It literally feels like the universe pushed "reset" on my life and then went "oops, I hope she doesn't mind".

Thank you bluemoon! 🙂

I googled pluto square sun. I just read a couple of sites and it's unbelievable how things start making sense. Wow.

O_O

Ariesvita, you are not alone! I posted a thread a few months ago about my entire life reshaping and having to rebuild everything from scratch. Again. It was also a very very difficult time for me. Bluemoon also helped me gain some insight during the trauma of it all. Sitting where I am now, I am feeling a lot better and can say that what blue just posted about the personal identity transformation is true. Everything got broken down so I could start fixing it from inside myself. Introspection has definitely helped me and got me through. It's sort of meditative in a way and here's a lot of contemplation over yourself. I found the more introspection I did, the clearer I could see the bigger picture. The main thing is for you to have faith! In yourself or your creator or whatever. Just have faith that the universe is rearranging itself to give you better! Everything that's happened to me has been for the higher good. It's been a complete overhaul. It's a bit of a shock to the system but your going to adore yourself when you come out the otherside for bringing yourself through this. I too had to ask my family for help. Also something I don't dig doing but we're lucky to have family who are in a position to help us and we need to have an attitude of gratitude for all the support we have. Even from the peeps on here. I still don't have a new job but I have faith that it's coming to me. There are still things that have to happen first in order for other paths to come to light. Be patient though. The universe gives us the next step when we are ready for it not when we think we want it.
But chin ip! I promise you, everything is going to be better than fine. You're going through an upgrade. You'll see when you're on the other side looking back. How old are you btw?

I had a similar track record as you vita.

2010 I got rid of about 80% of my belongings if not more, moved to a place I never thought I would live, did the relationship thing, did the breakup thing, moved back to where I was before, did some big new shifts in what I do for work and how I operate at work.

Most of it was messy and chaotic but I definitely appreciate it more than the prior couple years where everything seemed to be stagnating and slipping away.

2010 was like a warming up phase, and 2011 for me was like: I have to learn new things and not rest on my laurels, I have to rely on the interconnected world of people rather than just show up and exert my power, and I had to find my inner self and inner strengths in order to reconnect with what I want out of life.

I totally live day by day with a little more reliance on faith and confidence coming from a more humbler sense of things.

Totally can see how this is somewhat sink or swim times, but all in all I guess a learning/growing phase.

@ blue: I feel that personal identity transformation applied directly to me too! Thanks for that. It was like my personal message for the day. Did it relate specifically to AV's chart? I wonder what aspects we have that are the same....

@ HG: Oh yes! I remember you also posted on mine when I was asking if anyone else was going through such a mindfuck of a time. How are you feeling now? Looking back, what is your perspective now?

I feel like I am in a boot camp with a drill sergeant who likes to give me hell once in a while. That is how I feel haha.

If I were to draw a graph of my days for the past year, it would show steady everything for 3 days here and there, then a lot of spikes of 'WTF' or 'okay....I guess I will have to adapt to this'.

Nothing seriously bad, maybe a lot of stressful stressful moments where I had to move on in a big way or cut losses, but a lot of the WTF moments were getting respect from people I didn't expect, or kind words from people I thought were jerks etc etc. I have had a lot of wakeup moments where I was ending doing and being capable of things I never thought I would be doing.

Mind you, each time I was thrown a curveball I was not all smiles, I usually didn't want it, I didn't know what the outcome would be and had to lose sleep here and there, but looking back I guess I grew from all that.

I know the transit isn't over at least for my Decan and this 2012 is fast approaching, and I will just be more creative and more self-reliant when something like a layoff or whatever happens to me.

I have had to be less whiny and self-centered when it came to getting my life in order but slowly but surely I have learned how to find my own way to stay on top of things. I still let things pile up all the time, but I do a better job of things and for that I guess I am thankful to see some growth and strength gained from this transit.

We shall see as it continues how I feel about it lol

Hope all the Aries in my life and on the boards get more of what they want and get through this transit with few scrapes.

Posted by ariesvita
Can someone explain to me what were the years 2010 and 2011 about? For the past 12 months my life has taken a 180 degree turn, and although I always embrace change with an optimistic attitute. These changes have been so challenging that I feel like all my energy has been drained, and I just continue to spiral down without being unable to do anything about it. What has been going on with the universe? 😢 Is there anybody here going through something similar?

I wouldn't say that my life has changed much and thats where my trouble lies. I feel stuck in my life right about now. I havent chosen a career and I havent had any successful relationships. Im grateful to have a good paying job at the moment, but I know that this isnt my career and I can't seem to pick one. I had bad break up in the summer and one late last year as well. I've been trying so hard not to be depressed and give up on myself, I have good days and then the bad ones but I do feel alone. I have alway been very self reliant and don't depend on people much for anything. I think what I have been going through has made me more interested in astrology.

In my mind i tell myself things will get better , I hope they will because I have never been this unsure of myself in my life, I had so much confidence before. I would love to get back to that.

Im sorry to hear what you have been going through and I know what you mean about asking family for help, it takes alot for me to ask my mom for help, I once cried when I had to ask her for money lol she thought it was so funny.

I hope it gets better for AriesVita 🙂

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Bluemoon if you have time can you give me a little insight on my chart?

It's so crazy to hear you say all that stuff HG. It sounds like a general learning template for us, with self reliance, creativity and faith. I've also had to let go/move on from something's I was really fond of having in my life and am highly annoyed that saying good-bye to some people is part of the shift to better replacements of the roles they played in my life. I get my good days and my bad days too. I've had to start freelancing as a means to get some cash in while I'm looking for something which will provide me a visa to get back to UAE, but it looks to be turning out that working for myself might be a viable option and result. It's all up to me on how successful I am and my biggest challenge in achieving that is myself!
I've also had to push myself and apply myself so much more, but the results have been amazing. I'm proud of what I'm putting out there and the feedback I get from publishers and Editors has been added motivation. I am definitely basking (humbly because I know that if I didn't have faith in the universe bringing this stuff to me) in the praise I'm receiving.
I've also found that the work that has been brought to me (it's all work where they've randomly come to me, I haven't gone out looking for it) is where my passion really lies. An added reinforcement of why I need to continue to have faith. What is best for me is coming to me, I haven't gone looking for it. It's like the universe is showing me what is actually true to me.
It's been a hella tough time but I'm so glad it's happened because it has shown me my strengths and revealed what I still need to work on. The current lesson I think being trying to be taught to me is about my selfishness. Lately, it's a word I keep hearing people direct at me and it's caused me to start evaluating how I'm selfish and what 'not being selfish' even means. It's a hard one to figure out for me because I've been living on my own and supporting myself emotionally, financially and mentally in other countries for three years now and I don't know how to look at things from another person's perspective. It's all been about me and now it seems I need to learn to be considerate of other people again. I kinda resent having to do that but I guess it's part of the growth that needs to happen. That and how to peacefully deal with other people instead of arguing or demanding has been the hardest thing to wrap my head around!

@Heroic_Guy & @Lotuslily>>
Thank you guys. It comforts me to know that I'm not the only one having a hard time going through this transit, and it makes me feels better to hear that there will be good things coming into our lives once this is over. I understand exactly what all you guys went through. The five years before this, life was so good to me. It felt like the universe was pampering me and spoiling me to no end. Until I found myself bored and felt like living stuck in a hole, craving for excitement in my life. Then, everything change. I changed. I found myself empty handed. Frustrated, and incapable of dealing with all my emotions. I became extremately insecure, scared, depressed, angry. I was so furious at not hearing from any job offers, that I decided to start my own business, be my own boss. And this, has shown me a different side of life, people and the community that I am living in, that had it been differently I would have never experienced. It is still very hard... very hard. Some days I feel like a total failure and defeated but if I'm still alive this means I still have a long way to go and I should make the best out of my current situation.


@Bluemoon>>
thank you for your advice. It made me reflect on my relationship with my dad, with my family. Also the tips you posted on surviving the pluto transit are making me regain my confidence. There's a lot of useful info in that site. It actually mentions something about closing cycles between 2008 and 2009-2010. For me it was 2009, turning 33 was all about closing cycles, about going back to places and people I had meet before and finishing unfinished business, but specially about evaluating how much I had changed and grown up.

These days I have been feeling a bit better, more optimistic about the things that are to come 🙂. Thank you guys!

Bluemoon, you seem to know your stuff and what you're talking about. A lot of the things that are being said here are resonating with my life as well. The past year I've bombed out of interviews for no apparent reason ( i've done the work, made the grades, got the experience, volunteered) So I feel like I've hit a wall on the career front. I'm currently in a job working with children with special needs who are emotionally disturbed. I've been here for four years now and have tried to "escape" each year. I don't think I can take another year of the aggression and negativity. I need out. My lease is up in May with my boyfriend who has no idea if he is going to continue living with me or not ( pisces indeciveness) and when I'm on my own it's going to be even more rough. Am I going through this Pluto transit as well? could you analyze my chart and help me figure out what's been up this last year? I also have felt disconnected from everything. Kind of detached. I feel I've lost sense of who the old me was, and when i try to restore it when things from the past and things that are familiar it doesn't stick...
here is my chart:

My chart

Zodiac in degrees 0.00 Placidus Orb:0
Sun Aries 27.00 Ascendant Scorpio 17.16
Moon Pisces 22.42 II Sagittarius 17.06
Mercury Aries 6.44 III Capricorn 21.36
Venus Aries 7.17 R IV Aquarius 27.43
Mars Taurus 23.30 V Pisces 29.54
Jupiter Aquarius 13.26 VI Aries 26.02
Saturn Scorpio 26.50 R VII Taurus 17.16
Uranus Sagittarius 17.43 R VIII Gemini 17.06
Neptune Capricorn 3.35 R IX Cancer 21.36
Pluto Scorpio 3.32 R Midheaven Leo 27.43
Lilith Aries 24.51 XI Virgo 29.54

Any of your amazing insight would be greatly appreciated!
Asc node Taurus 18.24 XII Libra 26.02

My life turns 180 degree too.
I moved to other place. My family almost bankrupted. My aunt turns out to be a pure evil. My nephew has serious illness. I changed my job.

But all those things lead me to be wiser. And i'm sure I can get over those changes.

I were born in March 26

I have to admit a lot things were not how I wanted life to play out time and again this year:

Being down to my last dollar.

Feeling like nobody would look out for me.

Feeling like what somebody said to me was the worst thing ever to be told and uncalled for. I would spend a good hour or so at work steaming mad, and then each night for weeks pissed that so and so would act like that meanwhile feeling almost trapped to have to live with them in my life. Namely for me it was bosses that weren't pulling their weight, but were quick to spread the hate.

Feeling like I wasn't living my dream.

Feeling like I would never get to that point where I was comfortable in my own skin again. Like I was when I was 19 or whatever.

Feeling like my ex doesn't understand how much I was in love with them or would do anything and did anything for them to show them that.

Feeling like things were gonna stay stuck.

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A lot of what plagued me was negativity that was out of control. I was constantly thinking about how stupid this is or how this or that keeps happening. And wasn't stepping back and listening to my real self and my real heart and making decisions based on what I want. I was listening to myself talk about things that happened so long ago and keeping the negativity going on and on in my head.

I didn't know exactly how to be a humbler person. I knew how to give to others, how to share, and how to be fair, but not how to say to myself, "I am human, I have to work hard on finding the real meaning of my life, and I will start from scratch if I have to, to get back to being happy from the bottom of my heart without the need of approval from others or a perfect day in order to be happy."

A lot of what got me to recognize that I was capable of going from feeling stuck, to feeling at peace and ready to try each day was deep-down work on my thought process, and avoiding getting wrapped up with how I react to things around me. And I kept at it. It was like being in an exercise plan, having to stick with it and watch out for pitfalls. And pick myself up if I strayed here and there.

I had to be thankful for the tiniest things again. Happy it was sunny, happy it wasn't as cold as it was last year, happy I am at least trying.

Thought I would share a quick honesty moment since I usually ramble on and on about how I made it out okay. Yeah it sucked a lot but I am trying to focus on the NOW and not predicting the future.

I have been "lurking" about, reading what you guys have been saying. I have to admit, I have had a very choppy year +. I can still see some serious obstacles, but the the overall picture is getting much, much better. What could have been real "Show Stoppers" were worked out, and with surprising ease. What a huge relief.


I have a series of things I could point to that relate to my "choppy year." I won't bore you. I truly think that it is time for things to start breaking my way. As I mention, as least one major obstacle just sort of melted away when I calmly, very calmly as a matter of fact, turned and faced that particular problem. Actually, the people who had the solution to this particular problem were rather impressed with my calmness, and my willingness to step up and admit that part of that whole scenario was my fault. Seems to have made it much easier for them to say something to the effect that they had played a part in this breakdown to.


I am ready for some good times, though. They have been a long time coming.....

"I didn't know exactly how to be a humbler person. I knew how to give to others, how to share, and how to be fair, but not how to say to myself, "I am human, I have to work hard on finding the real meaning of my life, and I will start from scratch if I have to, to get back to being happy from the bottom of my heart without the need of approval from others or a perfect day in order to be happy."

^^^^Yup, I gotta' agree with you Heroic, and what others have been saying about you. You seem to have nailed this one very, very well. In many ways I have "hit bottom," and I have essentially no where to go but up. Well, that or under a bridge. I also have to say, it has been very exhausting.

Posted by heroic_guy
I have to admit a lot things were not how I wanted life to play out time and again this year:

Being down to my last dollar.

Feeling like nobody would look out for me.

Feeling like what somebody said to me was the worst thing ever to be told and uncalled for.

Feeling like I wasn't living my dream.

Feeling like I would never get to that point where I was comfortable in my own skin again.

Feeling like my ex doesn't understand how much I was in love with them or would do anything and did anything for them to show them that.

Feeling like things were gonna stay stuck.

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A lot of what plagued me was negativity that was out of control. I was constantly thinking about how stupid this is or how this or that keeps happening. And wasn't stepping back and listening to my real self and my real heart and making decisions based on what I want. I was listening to myself talk about things that happened so long ago and keeping the negativity going on and on in my head.

(...)I had to be thankful for the tiniest things again. Happy it was sunny, happy it wasn't as cold as it was last year, happy I am at least trying.

That's exactly how I have been feeling. I went from being a very optimistic, happy-go-lucky person to turning into a black hole of negativity. I don't even recognize myself. Last week I was still in deep depression, crying my eyeballs out, wondering if I was ever going to be happy again. And as HG said, when I have given myself the chance to appreciate and value all those little things orbiting in my life, my day has become enlightened.

I'm so afraid to ask bluemoon when this will be over for me. But I think it will be better if I just go with the flow.

Posted by ariesvita

Posted by heroic_guy
I have to admit a lot things were not how I wanted life to play out time and again this year:

Being down to my last dollar.

Feeling like nobody would look out for me.

Feeling like what somebody said to me was the worst thing ever to be told and uncalled for.

Feeling like I wasn't living my dream.

Feeling like I would never get to that point where I was comfortable in my own skin again.

Feeling like my ex doesn't understand how much I was in love with them or would do anything and did anything for them to show them that.

Feeling like things were gonna stay stuck.

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A lot of what plagued me was negativity that was out of control. I was constantly thinking about how stupid this is or how this or that keeps happening. And wasn't stepping back and listening to my real self and my real heart and making decisions based on what I want. I was listening to myself talk about things that happened so long ago and keeping the negativity going on and on in my head.

(...)I had to be thankful for the tiniest things again. Happy it was sunny, happy it wasn't as cold as it was last year, happy I am at least trying.

That's exactly how I have been feeling. I went from being a very optimistic, happy-go-lucky person to turning into a black hole of negativity. I don't even recognize myself. Last week I was still in deep depression, crying my eyeballs out, wondering if I was ever going to be happy again. And as HG said, when I have given myself the chance to appreciate and value all those little things orbiting in my life, my day has become enlightened.

I'm so afraid to ask bluemoon when this will be over for me. But I think it will be better if I just go with the flow.

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I'm witnessing 2 Aries personally who have been going through the same thing.

I'm not an Aries, but I can relate, since I have going through the same changes that started around Jan 2010. You wonder if you'll ever go back to the way you were before.

Posted by ariesvita
Can someone explain to me what were the years 2010 and 2011 about? For the past 12 months my life has taken a 180 degree turn, and although I always embrace change with an optimistic attitute.

Is there anybody here going through something similar?

Similar, I feel like the universe gave me a much needed enema and I flushed the bowl from years of build up in some cases. I feel better for it 😉

My year was bullshit too lol

what! what do you mean by "fatal attraction" ! am I going to be stalked? or what? how long is this deep and penetrating thinking going to last? is it directed at anything in particular!

No Offense taken! I was using the real sense of the word. Now I'm not much of an obsessive stalker, but could I turn into one? My boyfriend is away on a road trip for a month, but I feel no need to stalk him. Will there be a third party involved? JEEBUS PLUTO. I have been thinking more like a detective. Sorta paranoid and ultra on guard. Hoping my bright and sunny disposition comes back sometime soon.. seems to come in waves..

so Blue as 2011 is drawing to a close now, is there any light at the end of the tunnel?

When does this transit finish with us and move on?

I have been giving suff away (Goodwill shops must love this transit!) but have now reached the stage where I am not sure what it is safe to throw out as I don't know what the next stage in my life will be.
Do I throw away my office clothes because I will be working outdoors?
Will I ever need to wear a dress again?
Am I going to lose my job, go bankrupt and live under a bridge?

Like a few of the others have said - I share, I care, I help others. I can't do "big" things to help - I don't have the money (but I was planning to!)

It's so hard to keep thinking positive when bad stuff keeps happening😢

Hey Blue this is my chart


I have to agree with the rest of my aries peeps, the last two years have been hell mostly internally. I have lost so much confidence in myself, always second guessing, not able to stick to anything, not knowing where to turn, these things led me to DXP. Alot of failed relationships in my life and feeling like no one understands me, I have always felt that but the last two years it mattered to me so much more. Where as before I was content being alone.

Zodiac in degrees 0.00 Placidus Orb:0
Sun Aries 17.18 Ascendant Aries 0.24
Moon Pisces 26.12 II Taurus 12.25
Mercury Pisces 20.41 III Gemini 9.01
Venus Taurus 6.16 IV Cancer 0.12
Mars Capricorn 5.03 V Cancer 21.25
Jupiter Pisces 10.37 VI Leo 18.08
Saturn Sagittarius 9.24 R VII Libra 0.24
Uranus Sagittarius 22.19 R VIII Scorpio 12.25
Neptune Capricorn 5.49 R IX Sagittarius 9.01
Pluto Scorpio 6.30 R Midheaven Capricorn 0.12
Lilith Gemini 4.26 XI Capricorn 21.25
Asc node Aries 29.57 XII Aquarius 18.08

Posted by heroic_guy
2010 was like a warming up phase, and 2011 for me was like: I have to learn new things and not rest on my laurels, I have to rely on the interconnected world of people rather than just show up and exert my power, and I had to find my inner self and inner strengths in order to reconnect with what I want out of life.

I totally live day by day with a little more reliance on faith and confidence coming from a more humbler sense of things.

Totally can see how this is somewhat sink or swim times, but all in all I guess a learning/growing phase.

In total agreement. Not an Aries sun, but have a very prominent Mars in Aries (which I love), Venus in Aries, and have a Mars-dominant chart. The situation in my love life changed a lot (to reiterate, warming up to this point in 2010 and reaching a climax in 2011) and I moved around a lot. When someone had to be done, somehow I was able to get it done FAST. I never got more done in my life in a shorter period of time. I was definitely a person of action this year, but as much progress was accomplished, it was too chaotic for me (possibly because I'm Piscean?) I am hoping for some tranquility in 2012...

Same here man. Shit is just all over the walls.....Thanks fan!

Never thought of it that way, but i will now 🙂