For those w/air as one of their dominant energies,

I'm double Libra with two Gem placements. But I'm also earth dominant with a splash of water 😛 anyway, my question is do you ever feel the urge to love wholeheartedly, but then feel utterly conflicted and want to run? Or feel irked at a even a friend's adoration of you? I'm an Aries sun with Venus in Taurus, so I know deep love and going the distance when I truly have it. And don't shy away when it's real love. However, affection freaks me out a lot. Even from family, and when people try to comfort me, I want to hide. That could be my twelfth house moon as well. But, this conflict is something that has been weighing on my mind.

Posted by feby

Posted by retrogradexy
Sometimes I feel

acquaintance > friends

It's a safe zone.

I totally hear you on this. I'd prefer a million acquaintances with all of the luxuries that aquantaincing brings over people that get too close to me. The fear of getting hurt is too strong.

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I don't like this, though. I prefer deeper connections with few friends. I don't trust very many people, and don't like to be vulnerable often; the only time I am is with myself, in my own private space and also with my chosen people. Those are few and far between lol I'm a paradox. I love people and being social half the time, but there's no way in HELL they'll know my inner thoughts. I keep it on the surface for that.

This is a bizarre desire to feel and want things to be deeper than they appear, but that thought can freak me out at the same time. Because it's so raw and private. I confuse myself, dude lol

Friend affections are super awkward for me. I feel uncomfortable around friends that express excessive adoration for me. I only like to hug my husband and son. Even hugging my sister (who was my favorite person in the world until husb came along) is not great. Hugging my parents is largely a formality. Romantic love is not scary once my Scorpio parts get calmed.

I am water dominant, followed by air. Lib Sun, Asc, Mercury, Gemini Moon.

I have Aries Rising and I feel the same! I make a presence everywhere I go and people tend to admire me for some reason and I honestly don't get it. At work the other women would always copy my style and become really intrigued by me and that made me very uncomfortable. I also hate that the admiration then turns to jealousy and that's when everything goes down hill. I remember when I started working at my old job, the majority of the women didn't wear makeup and I wear a full face everyday. Little by little I started seeing the women wear makeup and start asking me what lipstick I think looks good on them etc. I didn't mind as I don't care to aspire people however when I wear something and you show up the next day with the exact same blouse in the same color, then yeah I become irked and that happens all the time. I guess deep down inside I really don't like being admired but feel I should appreciate it so I try to take it in stride.

As for romantic relationships, in the beginning affection makes me uncomfortable but once I know the person will go the distant I'm okay. However my Libra is not the affectionate type out in public. He'd rather show his affection in a one on one setting verses in front of people where as I tend to show affection whenever but I don't like heavy public displays of affection. I also get that he truly wants a deep love that will go the distance but at the same time I know he doesn't want to mess up or even worse get hurt.

You just have to find the person you deem is worth taking the risk for.

seraph, 😆