
Springmood
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13 Years
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Posted by starlover
(((illa) and (((dark)))
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Posted by caprigoral
Moon 3rd house sq. Pluto 12th house.
I was always single parented but it changed back and forth a bit.
I don't know if my childhood was emotionally tougher than anyone else's. Puberty started at 7, full on puberty at 9 and I always figured in my adult years that my sense of things having been emotionaly tough, were probably just hormonal changes.
Things have never been right between my mom and I. Dad and I are closer or at least speak regularly now. My dad has admitted that he wasn't a very good dad but as he says: "You were a tough kid, so it didn't affect you" or something to that effect. Uhuh...

Posted by IllaLupus
Moon conjunct Pluto in Scorpio.
Siblings and I grew up in an abusive household. Father abused, manipulated, and forced my mom to do sexual things. He was also on drugs. I was exposed to seeing sex and pornography at a very young age. He would force her to have sex with him in my bed as a child, and i had walked in and seen. I've witnessed him try to kill her multiple times I always stood between them protecting my mother. Had us cornered in the kitchen, i was in front of her and he jumped over the island counter with a butcher knife. When she was pregnant with me and my other siblings he'd abuse her and force her to sit in a chair while he screamed in her face.. Made her Urinate herself as she was not allowed to leave. After he'd go on his abuse spree he would pull out the video camera and video tape everyone as if nothing happened. Used my older brother as his puppet manipulated him into hating my mother for years. There was always violence in my house, always anger. My older brother grew up seeing my father his "idol" the one who can do no wrong abusing my mom so in turn he started beating the shit out of me. Even if I barely looked at him I'd get hit, but i would fight back. As they say scorpio moons have controlling mothers etc not in my case. My mother is my everything, i will always protect her. Not only that but he's a perverted nasty man.. Slapping my butt, making comments about my breasts growing.. telling my little sister that when she gets her first period that's when she can make babies.... It's disturbing to think he's my father.
Yeah, a felon raised by a his evil mother abandoned by his own father for not having blonde hair and blue eyes and his step dad was an ex con who was a racist biker guy who had done very bad things.. 🙂



Posted by auriqa
Scorpio Moon conjunct Scorpio
Experienced no kind of violence in childhood. I come from a strong, "model" family. Parents are still happily married to this day, also have many aunts, uncles and cousins who are very close as well. If I ever needed to hide a body, I know they'd all help me. My dad did work a lot and still does, but was always there emotionally and still spent plenty of time with me and my siblings on the weekend.
As for emotional hardships, yeah I guess. My grandmother died when I was 7, I was very close with her. I was bullied relentlessly through my school years and have suffered with anxiety and depression, even when I was very young there were signs of those. I refused to go to school between the ages of 7 and 10 because I got some feeling of terror as soon as I got close to the school gates. I know now it's the same feeling I get when I have an anxiety attack.
Aw, illalupus and darkfire, I just want to give you two a cuddle. 😢






Posted by starlover
((((Aesma)))) that is awful what you had to endure...i want to shake your mum and dad. Even the thought of my son having a step-father makes me shudder ~ adults are so damn selfish sometimes/blockquote>
Aww! Thanks, Star, but it's okay because I understand them. I'd really love for my mom to find a man that would treat her right. She has a big heart that people take advantage of. 😢
As for my bio dad, I wish for him to let go of the pain. It's like a ghost from the past that keeps haunting him. We're not close. I don't think I'd ever want him to be a part of my life since he never was but I still want him to find his own happiness. I just don't want anything to do with him.
Me and my stepdad are still close and we still talk even after him and mom split up.
@Dark it's great that you're open to having your dad in your life again. That's really something. I can't do it and I know this is something I won't regret.
@Star you're not open to having romantic relationships anymore?
It's great that you want to focus on taking care of your kid. You do seem happy, vibrant and enjoying being single!
I did tell my mom she should try that for a while, just looking after herself and maybe she'd gain a bit of clarity but she doesn't listen. Lol

Posted by starlover
The biggest pile of shit is when the parent is deluded enough to think the child is going to be a mini version of them in every way...lol....
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Did you have any of the below?
experience any kind violence (maybe from your parents) in childhood
Had only one parent, the other was missing in your life (missing emotionally can be the case too)
Had emotional hardships in your childhood
It's my personal observation with moon/pluto people lately..which I'd like to test.