An Angel in Need....

Hey Moon Children....Um, I've been wondering about love...Personally I wish to love someone....but how will I be able to discriminate that it's love I'm feeing and not emotional dependency?....is that not love?....If I offer my heart....is it wrong to demand that it should be loved, and fed with the same emotional intensity and force I give....? How far is too far to make a relationship work? Am I just keeping them there for my benefit, or do I let them go for their sake?

I'm confused emotionally....aren't we all though 😛 I'd just like to know that NEEDING someone can be ok and at what point should I let go?....I've been trying to protect myself by withdawing into my head...but I'm starving myself emotionally....I do need love....but dammitt....How do you announce that you are willing to love someone beyond their flaws...if they only let you inside....? I've been an emotional orphan....fighting for what love was given....but now...I feel it more than ever.....that frustration of not being seen for the person I am....inside....How can I tell people 'yeah, every so often a hug would be nice' I'm ashamed of my feelings, yet without them....I wouldn't be the person I am....

Whether it be becuase I'm a Virgo or a Cancer moon.....I can't deny that I have emotional needs and when their not being met....I explode....This is hard to say...but crabs...what have you to say in return?

I'm just numb: to the point that someone touching me inspires no feeling at all but some tears: I feel like they're trying to destroy me....get to my heart and crush me.... and that hurts the most....the only way I know really to 'express' myself is through the anger and suspicion of everyone: I yell I scream and curse in my head....I cry inside: I can't let the tears break the surface....It's just....my pride won't let me get it out....I keep thinking: 'does the world REALLY care about how badly YOU hurt?' and I chuckle and don't bother to answer my own answer simply becuase it becomes rhetorical.....I'm really hoping that humanity isn't really like the way I think it is....people can change....right? I feel like I'm becoming a machine......I feel so deeply flawed....I guess I need someone to sort of guide me through this...

How Leo of me....😛 I've taken this and interjected my ego....lol, Let's keep this objective....emotionally, what should a person do when they really are 'too sensitive for reality?' I've amassed too much pain and before my heart becomes nothing but scar-tissue....I'm trying to reach out....I hate bearing my soul like this.....but really the VIrgo in me is telling me it's the best thing to do....gotta jump in the ocean to get wet right? I'm rather uncomfortable with people becuase this paranoia looms over me.....How could I share how deeply my feelings run with people who'd try to use that against me? How can my faith in humanity be restored?.....I wish I were in the past becuase then I had that love....that idealism that made me believe that people were good on the whole....

How do you crabs get along with it? *chuckles* suppress and deny right? lol

wanna two hugs?

*VE head smacks himself*

....c'mon....now I feel like an ass.... damned moon in cancer....can't turn off the pipes when they burst....😛 It was just the hormones guys!!! I'm almost out of puberty!!! THANK GOD!!! Then I can be as crotchety and cantankerous as I damned well please!!

*VE frowns while biting his lip*

how pathetic....why did I even open up my huge mouth?....you'd think I'd learn to shaddap....aw dammitt...*VE goes into cursing fit*....

I used to laugh at people like this....and look I went and became one....crying....that's it....today I'm gonna kick my ass in the gym....

lmao!!! I'd rather be a failure to communicate than be open with my feelings!! ROFLAMO!!!

same here, so true, i can never reveal my true feelings, i may drop a hint if the emotions are too intense but that is as far as i can go

I've been sitting on my deeper feelings since before I can remember....I always show people a mask to show proper functionality: I don't really care how I deal with people as long as I don't have to do damage control....hate talking....but spend the other half of my energy suppressing the emotions. Thank GOD for cerebrality...