cancer ex

where do I start.
So 5 years ago met him out and basically what started out as a one night stand turned into him wanting to date me. At first I wasn't really into the idea and kinda kept my space for a few months. After some dates and quality time we began to spend more time together. I really wasn't ready for a relationship and told him that! I also told him I liked him and wanted to be friends with benefits and see where it went. Mind you I wasn't seeing anyone else just wasn't wanting to be that close to anyone. He told me he wanted to take care of me, and all that I could think a the time was I can take of myself. Sounds horrible I know but I wasn't trying to get so serious with anyone at that time. Also I was real immature when it came to relationships with men, fun only was my thing for a while.
So we stopped seeing each other cos I could see he was wanting more and it stopped being fun for me. I would say we dated for about six months or so give or take. I forgot to mention that over the time we got to know each other we realized we had a ton of mutual friends. And well after we stopped seeing each other he started to tell everyone except me that he was in love with me. I at the time was like okay why isn't he telling me? and basically ignored it and continued to live my life date whatever.
So time went by and about a year and half later we see each other out one night and end up having drinks and that led to sex. Well then about a week later I see him out again and did not bring him home but hung out a bit. I receive a text from him later that night/morning like 4am saying I love you. I really didn't know what to say to a text like that cos I didn't feel the same way so I said nothing.
Speed up to this year. I since have seen him around we say hello to each other we have mutual friends bla bla. We had even gone to lunch once to catch up. But still he never really express anything in person so I'm thinking he's over it, we can be friends maybe he was just drunk texting then. So two months ago I see him out and we end up having drinks together. I tell him that I'm sorry if I was ever a bitch I was immature and didn't mean to ever hurt him. Well I end getting too drunk to drive home so he drives my friend and I home. Once he gets me home one thing leads to another and we end up having sex. About a week later he texts me asks me to lunch I tell him I'm busy how about another day. I then kinda forgot about having lunch and he doesn't ask again

well so now this week, I'm suppose to text him to meet up. But end up having a crazy week and hadn't texted him yet. So last night at 3am he send me text saying this

"I think it's safe to say you've never and still to this day give any sort a damn about me..And it's ok I hope the best of your life just don't come into my life anymore..I hope the best for you..Just leave me alone from now on. Thank you farewell"

So what to do now? The thing is he never once came to me in person and expressed any of his feelings towards me. And since he hadn't I figured all was well and he's gotten over me. I didn't plan on having sex with again it just happened. And since it has nothing has changed for me I still have just friendly feelings for him not love.
Am I a horrible person? I want to write him back but don't know if I should. thoughts?

Nope don't write back to him. You need to let this guy go. Your leading him on and hurting him. Everytime he comes back he thinks you will have change your mind, but you obviously haven't. Don't use someone for sex when the person actually has feelings for you. How would you feel if you loved someone and that person was just using you for satisfaction?

Posted by bakedbaby
So what to do now? The thing is he never once came to me in person and expressed any of his feelings towards me. And since he hadn't I figured all was well and he's gotten over me. I didn't plan on having sex with again it just happened. And since it has nothing has changed for me I still have just friendly feelings for him not love.
Am I a horrible person? I want to write him back but don't know if I should. thoughts?

You just like having sex with someone that makes you feel wanted. It's a good feeling but if you didn't give a shit, then why give a shit now. He'll be fine. You were pretty straight forward and extra kind about with letting it trail on for his sake. Let it die, it'll be okay.