This cancer female and I have known each other for about 6 years now. When we first met she was working at this bar my girlfriend and I at the time used to frequent. One day I get a call from her best friend that said "HEY c'mon lets go to "the cancers" work I bought a bottle of 1800 etc I'm like YES!!" So excited I rush over there. I get over there and we start to hang out catch up and before you know it I'm talking shit to my cancer friend saying she can't give a lap dance and she gets excited and says do you want one. Naturally I'm a "gentleman" I guess you'd call it. lol I kindly declined and stated that I couldn't allow her to do that because she was my friend. She laughed it off and was like whatever. After a few more drinks I tell her to give me this lap dance that she claims to be so awesome at. Well SHE WAS. Shortly after she is sitting next to me and out of no where begins to talk to me about how she thought about dating me on more than one occasion, but that it wouldn't work out. Well I asked her why she thought we wouldn't be good for each other and she stated because I was a asshole. I was sweet but there was no in-between with me just either or. The night progressed I got more lap dances it got hotter. She was going to meet me at my house but when to check up on her grandmother that lives with her. She text and told me to come over since her grandmother was super sick. I told her that I was wayyy too drunk to drive and I was sorry lets try another night. She text back UGGHHH and then I passed out . Since then this woman has denied the fact this happened in front of our mutual friend. Then when pulled aside she admitted to being shy about me calling her out in front of our friend. She told me that she cared about me like crazy and no one could ever take the spot she has for me. Then she ignored me for a week. Then she's nice. Then she gets angry with me and disappears again. It is really frustrating bc she has never gotten to complete her story why we couldn't be together. When she gets drunk she slips up and calls me babe or thinks that I'm asking about her and I and she just says —ugh??_ we just couldn't be together shakes her head and looks down.?? I don't want to push anything so I leave it be. This NYE we are going to ATL I know she is talking to someone as of yesterday but they are not serious or coming along. I am crazy about this woman, but do not know where to begin. I want to be sure i do not push her away.
