Cancer men will be my downfall.

Me- Aries sun 1st house,Virgo moon, Taurus Venus 8th house.

Him-cancer sun 8th house, sag moon, cancer Venus 8th house.

We've been on and off, mostly on, for over two years. Super passionate, most intense love/hate relationship of my life. I have broken up with him and taken him back with open arms over a dozen times. He's 29 and I'm 37. He has told me that he has never loved anyone like me his whole life. I believe him. He tells me he wants to marry me all the time and have his child. I believe him. He also has been caught lying to me several times. Lied about a drug problem, which we worked through. Lied about talking to other women online, caught red handed every time. he has a way of manipulating the situation so that I look crazy and paranoid. I don't get over it and the trust is gone now. We are currently taking a break so that we can decide if we want this. I have kids that are attached and I'm attached. I'm just scared that I'm going to marry him and he's gonna do this for the rest of our lives. I know that it comes from a place of fear that he does this. I have run to other men when we break up and that makes him insecure. I should probably mention that he is a Scorpio rising with a close conjunction to his Scorpio Pluto. Lots of Plutonian energy there. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to who understands cancer men. Anyone out there have any insight? This isn't my first cancer rodeo, but me being an Aries, I can't seem to learn the lesson here.