HELP ME with this F****G CANcer, breakdown coming!

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19 Years

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This guy just told me he was engaged!!!!! WTF!! Ya'll I am so so so hurt right now! For those that dont know, I had an earlier post about us "talking" via text these past couple of months..I thought he was LIKING ME!! in march he got upset when I told him some guy was hitting on me at the pool while I was on vacation! and we've had little hows everything going...then a couple of WEEKS ago, things went up then Down!! he was traveling away on business for his job and he texts me and asks me if I have been to Chez Marc lately, a french cuisine place we went to together when we were happy with eachother. IT was so romantic, our first time eating french food, and I couldnt believe he asked me about it or asked if Ive been there b/c it was last year and it was pretty far from both our houses! But I was excited about him asking anyways...
Here comes the tricky part...his b-day was on the 22nd....a few days before I kept sending him texts kind of late at night, like 1am, b/c I go out a lot, but I just would tell him things I did and how crazy it was. 2 nights before his b-day I went to a poetry open-mic club, and I sent him a quote I loved..at 1am..the next morning he tells me to stop texting him late at night b/c his "lady" doesnt like it!! Im like whaaaat?? I didnt know he had a lady and "if" he does, he is not the type of guy to let a woman tell him what to do. I made a joke back to him that I couldnt believe someone would want to date him, joking! BUT then later, I decided to be honest with him about how I felt. I sent him a long text about how I missed him and alawys think about him...(THEN kicker) I told him I was in a relationship as well and that I always thought he would be there for me if things didnt work out for me. I think that was bad on my part, right? he never responded. except today when I called him a jerk b/c he didnt tell me he got his b-day gift(I sent him one!). He told me he was engaged...and he had a lot on his plate thats why he didnt get back to me...
NOW..this very picky guy, likes to take it slow, kept telling me we had soo much time to get to know eachother there was no need to rush(when we were together), now hes engaged— and get this..he has a myspace account which he just signed up for in january and he put he was single!! now 6 months later hes engaged?? it just doesnt add up....we live in 2 diff cities, so I cant try to verify it! But I really think hes bullsh***g me!
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piscesgrl
@piscesgrl
19 Years

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DO you guys think cancer men will lie about things like this?? to make their life sound better..? I really think he's trying to say that because I told him I was with someone...I wouldnt care if I found out he was lying because I want him that much. but would he do that just to make it seem like hes moved on and he doesnt want me? we're both 24, and I cant seem him wanting to pick his life mate right now, especially since hes doesnt beleive in divorce!! I remember he was so worried about it when I told him, my parents got divorced!! haha! He even started talking to me about kobe bryant and how hes scared he would cheat on his wife....(of course I reassured him that all men are difft) BUT here's the text that started the whole, which I dont think he took very well..please let me know what you guys thinks...
"I hate doing this & I feel incredibly crazy, i dont want to disrespect you but i want you to know that i have thought about you so many times especially since graduation b/c i always thought i would share it with you. you made such an impression on me that i think about you when i shouldnt im trying to be with someone but he doesnt come close, its only right b/c of education hes not you and ignore every guy only b/c of you not respect i always thought you would be there if it didnt work & i would tell you everything but now its difft i dont think youll be here so i wanted to be honest i miss you"
I want to cringe now 😢
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I think I feel a little bad. Ok I had a few too many beers. I said all these really really horrible things to my crabby cuz he pissed me off and I used all the most horrible things to hurt him ok but he p'd me off so whatever ha ha ha no it's not funny. Then I'm such a wuss cuz I started crying cuz I was so mean ok and after a few beers to calm me down cuz I didn't want to do anything stupid b/c I've had it with doing stupi things in my outburst so I thought a couple of beers might get me back down to earth. Well instead I started bawling not sure why now... what a wuss and even worse cuz he felt bad... ok which is better for him because if he doesn't make me feel better he was gonna be sorry! oh that's mean 😢 geez... but anyway it's his fault! lol where was I at? I read the start again... so I felt bad b/c he felt bad but he did warn me about not talking so badly to him cuz he respects me so I should to... damn. ok see, that's why i felt bad 😢 What should I do now? I need more beer... I don't know if confusion really is better than anger? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm lol lol what a waste of day! and i had ppl to get back to! i can't call them like this! hmmm or why not? lol oh well it'll have to be tomorrow... they're MINE! mine I tell you... no one else can have my clients... ha ha ha ha this reminds me! I was trying to piss him off so he could piss me off more... this is how we bulls really are, once we're irritated we beg for you to make us angrier angrier angrier and if you don't we go into a RAGE! tha'ts it! he didn't make me angry like I asked him to! what a bastard dude! well i'm off to the liquor store now lol gotcha... my crabby's coming over now 🙂 yay! body massage for me massage for meeeee ha ha ha.. ha ha. ha ha. ha ha ha wait, you know what he said today? it was a true confession although i KNOW he didn't mean it like that... he said that i was mad because he hasn't paid enough attention to me (which i told him because i was mad that on his day off he didn't visit me! then turns out he went out with his stupid buddies! damn bastards.. day off man!) and he's going on and on that that's why i was mad and sometimes it was him because ?I? wasn't paying enough attention to him... HE NEVER TOLD ME THAT! I guess maybe i had hints but mostly if I ever so slightly ummmm rejected something he'd just say 'okkk' like you know, i read between the lines, like 'fine... fine... that's cool... but i might get tired of it' this is great insight... lol

he's here!