I'm addicted to male cancerians!!

I'm a female scorpio and I love this male cancer. I'm beginning to think I'm obsessed by him. I haven't seen him for about 2 years! Seriously. This has been going on for about 5 years already. Of course I meet guys in my daily life but I'm always attracted to guys who resemble the guy I love. These guys all have the same things in common:
1. They are all cancerians
2. They all physically look like the one I love even their personality are alike.

I think about him 24/7. When I wake up. When I cry myself to sleep. When I come home from school etc. But the worst part is that he also enters my dreams at night! In my dreams we don't really need to talk it's like we already understand each other. He walks beside me. We're holding hands. He usually just stares at me with his puppy eyes but doesn't speak. But lately the dreams keep getting weirder and weirder. For instance I dreamt that we were in a tropical jungle at night having sex!!! And that's weird since we never had sex in the first place.

I don't like datingsites. But on one datingsite I saw a guy who resembled him the most. I swear he could have been his twin (another cancer). I registered within one hour! Just to be able to say hi to him. What should I do to get over this cancerian-syndrome?

well... i think the most obvious thing is:

you could go find that cancer and tell him you want to see him again and see where that takes you. you've probably crossed his mind more than once since you're a scorp. can you describe your relationship?

also, why'd you stop seeing each other?

marry one then there won't be any more torment and searching. As a scorp woman, I'm certain you have the----ummm...."skills"...to keep him around.

I was never able to tell him I love you because I ?thought? he had something going on with one of my friends. Which in the end turned out not to be true. He had a crush on her but she turned him down. No one ever told me about it. Soo? for about 2/3 years I have tried to act as normal as possible. In other words hiding the fact I had feelings for him. That wasn't easy because the more I tried to stay away from him the more he tried to come closer. At that time I was willing to do everything for my friend and this guy. And hey if you really love someone you would want them to be happy. Even if that makes you unhappy.

I don't think he has any feelings for me. He made it perfectly clear to me that he only wants Asian girls. I don't look Asian. Ok, I do have a bit of Chinese blood running through my veins but he doesn't know that. It is possible that he knows about my feelings. Because I accidentally dropped my guard once in the train. If I hadn't left it is possible we would have kissed. We never talked about the train incident, like it never happened. He confuses me. He jokingly said he loved me. Then he's cold as ice. The next minute he's staring at me with puppy eyes. I feel a deep connection. We understand each other. We were quite close. He's the best thing that ever happened to me.

As much as I want to talk to him I can't contact him. I know how to reach him though. But I can't. I heard he's getting married. And moving to Asia. I don't want to ruin his relationship. I want him to be happy. Also I would like to know what it feels like to be happy for once as well.

We actually stopped seeing each other because everyone in the gang went on with their own lives. He graduated and found a job. I went to another school. He was friend of one of my friends. So when my friend didn't think I was good enough anymore (after all I did for her) of course I didn't see him anymore as well. We used to all hang out together on a regular basis.

jump his bones. we suck at making the first move. scorps... if you think we might like you, then we probably do.

and what, does he have some weird asian fetish or something?

About the asian thing. He added (his exact words): ?Asian girls. I just don't know what it is. There's just something really sexy about them.? He said that is why he mostly has Asian friends. My best friend suggested I should talk to him about it. Get closure. But I mean hello? The man is getting married. I can already see how the conversation will go:

Me: "I love you yada yada yada?"
Him: *swallows* "Oh, ok. I'm sorry for everything you went through. Well eh.. I'm about to get married with my girl. She's from Thailand by the way. So could you please.. beat it."

So you see maybe he won't use those exact words but I don't think he will suddenly drop little miss Thailand (his ultimate fantasy) and choose to be with someone like me.

"So you see maybe he won't use those exact words but I don't think he will suddenly drop little miss Thailand (his ultimate fantasy) and choose to be with someone like me"

no offense, but he seems a little creepy... maybe i just have something against people with asian fetishes.

I think the asian fetish is a little weird. Maybe you should talk to him and let him know your feelings one last time, but just for your own good. It will feel good to get a final answer on all this, rather than wondering endlessly.

If it makes you feel any better, I'm a Cancer male still in love with his first love, a Scorpio female. I've gone around trying to recreate that relationship with other Scorpios and girls who looked like her, the whole nine yards. I'm afraid to actually contact her again (it's been a few years) because I feel like she's traveled the world and volunteered while I've just sat at home and wasted my life depressed and sick. Even though I look better than I did when we were together (discoverd the gym a couple years ago) and am a much more mature person, I feel like I don't present the sort of package that will make her say, "I want him back!" And I couldn't take a rejection from her.

Every time I read about Cancers and Scorpios, I am reminded of my own experience. My sincerest hope is that she really does think about me as fondly as I think about her, even though she's doubtlessly had more distractions than I.