Too emotional Scorpio with cancer guy..

Hi guys im scorpio woman have a little bit problem with myself (cos being too emotional, intense, low self esteem) and also with a special friend cancer guy.
so, i had a relationship with my cancer man back a year ago. it was an awful relationship, i dont know if i should call it relationship cos he never ever treat me as i supposed to be. so we break up, last year cos he has (until now) too MUCH GFS. but i have no idea why he keeps coming back no matter what happen, no matter how often we arguing. he always coming back to contact me. i dont know why he keeps coming, if matter of sex all his girls will be much better, not sure if he has feelings for me or not, but he easily get angry or jealous.

back at that time, after being cheated. i totally change, i become real scorpio perhaps lol , eally cold blooded girl lol, i no longer trust anyone and i have to admit i shut people out (afraid of being hurt again). when my ex contact me, sometimes i do ignore him cos im upset and the bad things of what he did comes again in my head, but after like 2 weeks or max a month. i tend to fight with my own feeling, logically i say ure stupid why u keep in touch with him after what he did even he himself say ure big stupid, why u need to response even tho u know wht i did, but heart say i really do miss him a lot. i want to points out, i may be such arrogant girl, i never ever send him a text first after he cheated on me.

this year on april, he try to help me organised things in my new apart and we end up having sex. and to be honest that feeling, longing of his touch makes me something. i know i should not do it but i do miss him, (just notes one night stand booty call not my thing but i did with him cos he used to be someone for me). so guys what should i do best for myself and with him? i leave alone, study abroad, and just a couple of friends. my friend call me weird, cos i do spend my time alone too much i'll turn 22 this year. i did everything alone, go to cinema alone, having dinner or lunch alone. i try to be strong and keep myself as busy as possible but still man! i want a company as well, im just human. when guys come to me, my heart has not been pumping for long time as i met him 2 years ago. like havent someone whos better than him. any advice guys? should i still be friends with him? and what's best things i should do for myself whos to emotional and longing for a company? i would be appreciated thanks

Hi thank you.. Hmm I'll try. Perhaps it's hard since. I haven't really met someone that I'm really connect with compare to him. Moon in Pisces 😐 sucks I know lol that's why I'm like this, Venus in libra and Mars in Scorpio.

Omg I'm oct 25 that's really close. Your gf could be my twins that excatly like me. I have a problem to express my feelings and I understand very well that she would not show it because for me I'm afraid if I get upset I will say something that u guys don't wanna hear. So better if I hide i not to make things worse, that's why I tend to blow up when I'm alone, all this emotions is overwhelming.I can put my smiley face when I'm outside meeting people but when I'm alone it will diff story, but so far I learn to be strong and make myself happy.

As a private person, it's a bit hard for me to share with my friends and family. Firstly I don't really want to show my 'weaknesses' and I'm afraid they will make a gossip spread my problems to anyone which I hate it lol. I need someone to talk with, but I don't know whom. But thank you, I'm glad I talk to u. Hope u will be long last with your lady. Best wishes

@ksamcancer, yeahhh thats why 😐 its tremendously hard for me to completely cut him off . i hope in the future ill get a man who really deserves me.

I am a cancer. If he cheated on you don't take him back because he will do it again. He keeps coming back for the sex not for anything serious. If you want something serious tell and see what he says. As far as being lonely that can be tough, I would say hang out with your friends more. Or go out and make some. Stay strong and good luck you will find someone eventually.