why oh why did I think i wouldnt get attached?

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CancerLeoDynamite
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I'm always trying to deny my cancer side. or at the very least restrain it. I somehow convinced myself I'd be fine with a FWB situation and would not get attached.
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He's a cap.

6'2" broad shouldered, with a beard and rides a motor cycle.
We break onto roofs to fuck, drunk on blackmarket vodka and each others body.

If it was just that ^
I'd have been ok,
but the cuddling, the spooning at night the visits that turn into 2 days, spent cuddling in front of some show.
the long glances and soft touches on my face. Conversations in bed about family, and life.

I am sooo soo bad at this casual thing.

We had the best day today, the best day Ive had in years, just riding around on his motorcycle downtown running errands, visiting some friends of mine, and grabbing sushi for lunch. the lingering kiss and embrace when we said goodbye.

I know it might not sound like much but it was just amazing, I felt so great with him all day and then suddenly it hit me, that this isnt my boyfriend,and he isnt falling in love with me, and one day he will find someone to fall in love with.

To top it all off i got cum inside me last night,

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