Will cancer woman give another change when cheated(sort of)

I lived with a cancer woman, and everything was just a dream, good cemistry, understanding and so.

But i didnt end my last relationship right away, i tought if i distance myself from it, it will end itself and

so i dont have to be the badguy who ends it.

So there was some lies according to the thing and 1-2 times at least as i can remember was occurents of cheating, that was the very beginning of our relationship, we were dating 2 months i think, maybe three.

So now my stupid behavior has come out, i understand that its not good to lie, i even went to psyhiatric doctor because i think some times i cant tell the truth becuse im affraid that someone will think less of me.

Last week she found out, the girl who i didnt break up with search my gf up and told him.

She exaturated with many things but i didnt defend myself because i know i was wrong, only thing i said was im really sorry and forgive me.

Form that day we dont live together anymore.

We still communicate not a daily bases but maybe overday. She told me that she need to distance herself from me becuse she is a afraid that i will get him intothe same situation.

The other day i wrote to her that im really sorry and im looking help, becuase i cant give up on her. She is too special for me and all the lies end now. I didnt say that right away in the first time becuse i needed to be sure in myself that i can manage it. Thats why i went to the doctor and seeked help.

Her response was that she is glad i did that, and she is willing to help me by talking to me, but she feels like there is a big part of her missing and he thinks the lies took away the love.

How ever, i really dont belive that, i think this is her mask, and i diserve it.

Now the question how to i go from here, when i want to win her back, to i keep talking to her and show her that im working on myself for me, so i can be the best me there is, and that she can trust me or, sould i

really just give up?

Any advice ise wellcome, i know i messed up. And it was really hard to admit this not to her but to myself, it made me feel so small. Cant even imagine how she feels.

Funny, no responses.

Cansers hold a veeeeryy long crudge, if u can get throw to her, then she might or might not take u back.

The cold shoulder is deffencive behaviour.

I just found out myself, i actually feel a little bit sorry for them, becuase the loos lots of good people.

But if u talk to him head-to-head so she cant run away, then she will think about it

It sounds like you betrayed two people and you are just concerned about your wants instead of being remorseful to both women who trusted you with their feelings. You still don't see the whole picture and you are still making everything about you.

Im now on my own, is still tell her, that i miss her and think about her, sometimes when i have free time i bring her coffe to lunch.

There been 2 times when we just walked around the city and talked like friends.

I really mis her, one time i could not take it anymore and i asked, if she misses me at all.

Beacause i can see, she is heart broken, she looks like she hasnt been sleeping well on all the other stuff.

But i allso told her, im not giving up, so i have now suprised her, with small things, as if it was could day i ordered her a taxi so she can be warm, i walked with her, i asked about her bussines and all the little things.

Some times she till pulls the wall up, and is could. And tells that she will never take me back and that train is gone. And the other times, she is warm, i can talk with her long time.

She allso went to pshycology, to work out her problems.

First she tought that she has to distance from me. But i sitll talk with her.

If anyone have any good advice then i would love to here this.

How long will it take to change her mind back, and so she can see that i still love her and i want her.

Posted by saq-ar-ius
Funny, no responses.

It's just so hard not to judge

I don't think you're compatible. You'll do better with a woman who can shrug it off. Saying she's so special and that you miss her are just empty words. You don't sound loyal at all

Its not just words, i do every day something little for her, to make him feel little bit special.

And i really cant understand what you mean by shrug it off.

And i dont judge you for thinking im not loyal, because my reasent actions will talk that way.

I tottaly understand, but as for myself, i promissed myself that i will not give up.

I will trie as long as i get my second change, then i will give up if i would mess that up as well.

But as for now, i will be there for her every singel day.

Saying something nice or doing something nice.