Aqua Woman Cap Male Second Chances—

Ok, I met a Cap male through a mutual friend 5 years ago. we are actually both from the same town but ran in different circles. While out on the west coast I needed someone to show me around and my bestie gave me his number. We hit it off and immediately connected. Things were pretty hot and heavy at first. But I have been hurt before and was going through my selfish bad girl stage. He always listened and tried to give me what I wanted. Long story short, he was in the military and got deployed shortly after we got serious and I ran into some problems at home. I moved in with some acquaintances, one who had been pursuing me since before I got with my Cap and it all went downhill from there. I had a lot of ppl pressuring me to be with my friend and saying negative things about my Cap.I felt an overwhelming need to not be under anybody's restrictions and i found comfort with someone else and cheated...
When I was finally able to write him I told him what happened, and how sorry I was. I was so upset with myself I just accepted it and tried to move on. Suprisingly over the years he has still kept in contact with me. As I got older I got myself together and realized what I wanted. I realized that he had the potential to be that man and he became "the one that got away."
Fast forward to this year. He has moved back to our home state and I am in the process of moving back too. I saw him for the 1st time since this all happened.And it was like...wow lol. He was so wise and mature and manly. Focused and sure of himself, I was attracted to him all over again, but now even more so. As I expected, he was kind of aloof with me. He acted like the past was done, but then made a couple of snide comments about the incident. At this point I explained to him again that I really was sorry for what happened, and its something I think about a lot. That he's my one regret. He got quiet and softened a bit after that. The next day he was aloof again so I left him alone. A couple months later he asked me when I was coming back to town and if he could see me. I said ok. That time we had an intense conversation about philosophy, after which he said that we had a connection. Now everytime I see him he grows increasingly affectionate. He tells me about his passions and projects he's working on. I have so much respect and admiration for him. I know i betrayed his trust and the guilt scares me, but do you think he could let me in again? I already feel like I'm falling for him...

Quit feeling guilty and just start over fresh! Its been FIVE years for goodness sakes. Looks like he has forgiven you and is willing to start over. Yes, he made some comments, etc. but it appears he believes you really are sorry and is willing to get to know you again. Now its time to forgive yourself! From what you've said, looks to me like he at least likes you and all you can do is build from there. It will be a slow process. Be patient.

@truecap thanks. I think my biggest issue has more to do with me forgiving myself, cause im usually not on the other side of the trust issue. But I know its time to move forward from it. I can be patient I'm sure he's worth the wait 🙂