Fellow Caps i need your guidance

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Jhene
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M leo and I have has ups and alot of downs lately. We had an intense session recently where she highlighted the distance and she feels shes in a mode of search. Its like two friends trying to be together but we are just not compatible. In the beginning of our relationship I felt that way like we were friends trying to get together but she didnt but I still wanted to be with her but now the table it well here.

Since that last session which was highly intense we decided to have one last shot as we plan to test moving in together for 2 months and see what happens. but we really need the space so we will move in a week apart. Not sure if this will help but I really dont know where to start to address this or mend the wounds if they even can now but over time definitely.

I feel a total disconnect but I want to be there but you dont feel connected to my emotions or my partner. I guess its the constant hurt and heart string pulling but i feel very disconnected from my partner and I know she feels it too.

Once she communicated the relationship feels strained. Now i have this lingering guilt shes only here because of me and not necessarily because she wants to be and it truly bothers me. I dont like to fixate on anything I find it suffocating and straining and I feel thats what Im doing . my brain just wont shut off.

im a cancer mooner and shes Leo sun but with asc ,moon and most her other planets in cancer.

Its weird when im not around her i feel this detactment and calm , I can just talk to her but when im around her theres this intensity thats almost suffocating like a strain in my throat and pulling on my chest. its weird.

but thats lately
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Posted by SpiceNSugar
Sounds like you're both feeling a lot of anxiety around each other. When's the last time you actually had FUN together?
Fully without something popping up later for an argument . A longtime really
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May I suggest setting up a couple of FUN events? i.e. favorite haunts, a fair, or whatever you gals like to do. This creates an environment where you have some recent POSITIVE exchanges. Even if these exchanges are brief they can be helpful.

This may sound silly or maybe even too late, but give it a try a couple of times and see if it doesn't brighten the mood a bit.
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SpiceNSugar
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P.S. I sort of agree with Foreverloveme, but I suggest you avoid saying emotional stuff by phone. I recommend trying written communication.

For example, if I'm really sad or upset about something, its hard for me to talk without whimpering or being overly emotional. Immediate TURN OFF to an earth sign (esp. to a Cap)! Thus, writing the words down lifts that additional layer of emotionality and makes for better communication in the long run.
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Jhene
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13 Years

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Posted by Greentea
What do you want OP?

Deep down, do you think this relationship is salvagable?

Do you think you both are sticking around for the wrong reasons?

Sometimes, no matter what you do, nothing can make it feel right.
Thank you. I did write her a long letter and she gets me. I believe as she said so and was rather have and on the verge of tears after reading my letter . I do agree we need to have some fun times and I will plan for that. Im over the intense emotional bits as our lives ( work, goals etc) is stressing enough.
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Jhene
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13 Years

Comments: 100 · Posts: 420 · Topics: 53
Posted by Greentea
What do you want OP?

Deep down, do you think this relationship is salvagable?

Do you think you both are sticking around for the wrong reasons?

Sometimes, no matter what you do, nothing can make it feel right.
I believe it is but it's not up to me alone. I trying to be present as possible and let the cards fall as they may. But my gut tells me its won't because I feel her sights not here anymore. Not that she's seeking someone but she has a lot to deal with internally