moon square Venus/moon semi-square Venus

I have my moon semi-square Venus. I never paid attention to it really because I focused on other aspects of my chart. I read some articles on it a couple of days ago and I never realized how much I relate to it...

I don't know much about semi-squares. I'm assuming they are a slightly lesser version of the square? does it impact me? it surely feel like it does. it is a slightly tight orb. so strong in regards to being "semi-square" anyways.

despite what one article I read said, I had a good relationship with my mother however when talking about anything relationship wise or sex wise, I never went to her. I couldn't. she has always been the opposite of me mentally. my parents are very conservative. we grew up in Chicagoland for christs sake so obviously I am more liberal/more open. I have conservative beliefs but I am more of a solid mix. I think being a mix is better anyways. it makes you more well-rounded. anyways everything I did relationship wise was in secret. relationships are secret. it is almost like living an alternate life. it sucks but I'm 22 so at this point I don't care anymore. I've gone this long without parental advice regarding relationships so why would I care about getting it now? I don't. but I'm curious as to how it effects me.

especially since my Venus is Scorpio (water) and my moon is Virgo (earth). are they really at odds anyways? aspect wise apparently they are but earth and water...isn't it supposed to get along? I mean as a water sun I don't really vibe well with a lot of earth or water Suns but I do once in a blue moon. I just don't see how they can be in hard aspect when elementally they are supposed to work. I guess it's more of an angle thing. but at what point does the angle take more weight than the element/sign? I guess that's what I'm curious about. as I said, semi-squares are slightly new to me. I understand the implication in the name of the aspect, but how does earth/water semi-square work? logically I am trying to grasp it.

I'm going to post part of the article below in a separate comment. here is the description of the aspect generally speaking which is the same as the square according to my app (descriptions are exact same):

"This aspect gives you a somewhat difficult personality. You are kind and artistically gifted, but you may be hard to live with. You dislike having to act charming in social situations when you may not really feel it, and you have a reluctance to come forward into relationship with others, although you have a good deal of charm when you allow yourself to express it, and can be very popular socially. You may encounter sadness in your life as a result of close personal relationships that go astray. You also may spend your money unwisely, and may need to cultivate more respect for its value."

a piece of the article for the women's perspective. as stated, I feel like the mother portion is not applicable. unless you can apply completely disregarding relationship talks and sex talks period. because that was basically how I grew up. I learned from other parents along with my friends or online. nothing came from the home/my parents.

"Moon Square Venus Conflict

The Moon represents a woman’s security needs and relationship with her mother. Venus describes how she expresses herself as a woman. The square sets up a conflict between what she needs to feel comfortable, and how she relates to others. There is a core uncertainty about feeling attractive, and an amplified need to sooth this uncertainty.

The root of this insecurity can be traced back to competition with her mother. This may have flared up once she became a teenager, and her sexuality was perceived as a threat (by the mother). Alternatively, her mother may have resented being a nurturer. If she felt that she had sacrificed her role as a sexual being to be a caregiver, she projected this conflict onto her daughter. Either way, the daughter absorbs these messages, and is not comfortable (Moon) expressing her femininity (Venus)."

source: http://sasstrology.com/2012/08/moon-square-venus-in-a-womans-chart-conflicts-at-the-heart-of-being-a-woman.html

I also do relate to this. which is still weird since the two sons really aren't in true "square".

"On a more emotional level, there is a conflict between one’s emotional needs (Moon) and one’s needs for approval (Venus). A native with a Moon-Venus square may give up her emotional needs for sake of being treasured and valued. For example, she may enter into a sexual relationship, while giving up on having her feeling life satisfied by her lover. Or if she chooses a man with whom she can feel “at home,” the sex life is virtually nonexistent."

Posted by tiziani
From what little I know on modern aspects, a semi square is meant to show delay and frustration like sesquiquadrates rather than squares.

For example you could lack enough earth and too much water and drown any growth in the relationship, or vice versa and lack the water to grow something from vast earth. Either way the imbalance means the relationship doesn't really get off the ground in the way both people want.

But modern aapects seem nitpitcky.

there's my sensei.

ok that makes sense to me too. it doesn't seem like much of a dichotomy to me technically speaking since the elements agree with one another. I definitely feel like that would be the case. nothing leaves the ground or it leaves the ground in the wrong way. but my dominant Venus can be to thank for that 😉

and my Aries descendant. I dive into love/relationships in ways that don't make any logical sense. but if I'm interested, I dive in without really thinking about the consequences. granted I don't do a lot of thinking in regards to consequences anyways. impulsive til the end LOL. at least I manage to scrape by. luck is on my side. thank you Jupiter 😆

Posted by tiziani
The msn creeper smileys on this place lol

lmao I love the creeper smileys 😉

😉 😉 😉

and yes I feel a lot better this month. i stopped taking birth control which made me an emotional mess lmao. hormones...they're a horrible thing to mess with.

I'm also getting attention from the guy I like and I'm similar to a dog. if I get attention I am happy. no idea what I should attribute that to, but I live for love so I guess that's it. another guy I liked (yeah I'm a serial crusher but I can't help it) told me I was boring, but it all worked out in the end because the first guy I liked came creeping back into the picture with this weird gesture of friendship/....idk what. it's kind of on the fence but I like the attention. it's "pregnant" boy only now he has normal human conversations with me. and we hang out like (slightly) normal people. ironically enough he does have his moon square Venus. so maybe I am the emotional mess he has always been looking for all along. (joking)

he bought me food and filled my gas tank when we drove quite a ways out to look at cars (he got a new car). honestly. when he bought me food at a sit in small town diner I basically decided right then and there that he was the best, because I am rational like that. my heart and my stomach are one. and I like small town diners. that's an update on my life.

the only thing I obsess over in life is love. other events I don't always care about. like I said: a dog. give me a treat and I'll love you forever. I think I'm pretty blind in love. literally blind. I'd run straight into a brick wall and still think it's love at the end of the day.

but the moon and Venus thing came into play when I got disgusted by the guy I currently like. kind of like.....hmmm I can't remember what he did. but I remember I looked over at him when he said something, and I felt this strong resentment and saw him with different eyes. don't worry it didn't last though. I'm blind again. all is well. 😆

idk. I think there is some sort of dichotomy with me romantically/emotionally but idk what it is yet.

and my transit or progression (don't even know which anymore) IS in fact Saturn related. moon square Saturn and it'll be that way for awhile according to my TimePassages app.