Decaying Fountain of Youth

There was this invisible doorway, a rip in reality, that nobody in the room could see, or detect in any way. A group of people who's faces were strange, however, I recognized them anyway .. maybe 5 or 6 people, including me, were just sitting on couches. Suddenly, the density of the air changed, like as if it were a hot, humid day and you can actually "see" the air being thick .. through this thickness, a woman appeared .. young, gorgeous .. however, with her came a foul smell, the room was filled, we were all gagging .. she didn't seem to notice that there was an odour .. once she came through, with this smell, the whole room brightened up .. the unpainted walls looked fresh, all dust was gone, it was as though she brought forth with her a youth and vitality of everything, that is, except this horrible odour.

She spoke and her words came out like a song, a sweet melody .. however, I couldn't exactly hear the words, rather, they were an impression inprinted into my psyche .. she was saying that she was very, very old, had been trapped somewhere for ages, she didn't know where this "place" was, but, now she was free. She was thanking us for setting her free.

This rip in reality was still present, eventhough she walked away from the spot and I realized that this had always been there .. just human physical eyes just hadn't comprehended that not all shadows were actual shadows. I see a shadow, I assume that something is blocking the path of light .. there was always a shadow in this place and my conscious mind just never pondered further to realize that nothing was there to cause the shadow and at night, I couldn't see it anyway.

My dream skipped to later, I was somewhere else, and I saw a shadow that was not a natural occurance. I stepped near it and lingered in the invisible doorway. Finally, I got the courage to go through .. I ended up at another location. It was a big building, some sort of huge gathering of people were in there .. they were dressed funnily, clothing I didn't recognize .. I knew I was out of time. Everybody in the room was in awe of me .. I must have looked brilliantly spectacular, just like the lady .. only immediately, they all covered their noses and started fanning their hands and books in front of their faces .. I knew that I had this horrible smell with me .. that was a valid trade-off that I had previously considered in my brain. To be young again, I would trade anything.

However, what I didn't know, because with the lady that came into the room .. I had left while she still there, or rather, my dream shifted so I never knew what happened further with the lady .. that, once I left this building of gathered people and went outside into the sunlight .. I rapidly decayed .. I woke up frantic because in my dream, I was actually like a thousand years old and looked it.

Wow!! What a cool dream....I LOVE dreams like that. They go so deep. What do you think it meant P-Angel? Do you have an idea?

Not sure .. maybe my mind is warning me against dark unnatural shadows. Or, maybe I fear getting old .. maybe because when in this "false" youth everything seems beautiful but really isn't, that it's some kind of self-awareness issue .. or maybe it's a preminition about the sun, or a fear of it.

Not sure .. I keep coming back to it in my mind, thinking there's something in here that I'm suppose to know.

I wonder if we break it down we can come up with something that fits all together?
You have a "rip" in reality that a beautiful youthful woman comes through, and with her things become new, but she has an awful odor.Her voice was sing-song and melodic.Yet you didn't "hear" her you felt her when she said she had been trapped, but was now set free.She knew she was trapped but didn't know "WHERE".

"there was always a shadow in this place and my conscious mind just never pondered further to realize that nothing was there to cause the shadow and at night, I couldn't see it anyway." What is this SHADOW representing.?

Ok..hope you don't mind me flip flopping this around in my mind (nothing personal) I think it's cool.

I think the rip in reality where the beauty came out and the shadow always covered is in relationship to your spirit. You are obviously a spiritual woman. You could never see this shadow at night, and never questioned it in the light. Now the shadow is torn and what emerges is both beautifull AND repugnant at the same time. People gag even tho there is beauty. You would trade "anything" for the youth and beauty ...even to the point of decaying within (and when there is light that shines in on the darkness the decay is more apparant). The light maybe is the truth.

I don't think it's as simple as being afraid of age or aging. You may be afraid that your youth is slipping away, but "finding the courage" you go through the "rip" yourself.

I think YOU always were the lady in the dream. You didn't have to HEAR her because it was your spirit speaking to you. I think too maybe that you want things to be new again in your life, and maybe would risk all that you have to get it. But, there is something telling you, that risking all for a moments pleasure will leave you with a very foul aftertaste on life, and maybe there are a few people close to you that would be affected? I don't know PA but are you contemplating something that you know will bring you short time pleasure, but long term pain? The dream seems too complicated for this to be an "EASY" thing for you...

P.S. The doorway wasn't really "Invisible"...it was a passagway you had not contemplated or questioned being there.

Wow, Dr. J .. better than any couch I've ever laid on (professionally speaking, of course, lol).

I hadn't gone that deeply with it yet, I was still looking at the outside, like the age part. You're probably absolutely right .. I am getting ready to embark on a life-changing event that is frightening because I know that though, I'm not happy in some aspects .. in other ways, I feel (safe) where I am. Hhmmmmm, you've given me lots to think about here .. thanks.

Be careful PA that you don't jump from frying pan to the fire...Make sure you are at peace with your decision. An unrest is usually telling us something ia not right. (You are welcome). Don't burn any bridges. There is a great struggle between being in a "safe" place, and jumping out into the unknown, where by chance we may find greater happiness. There is also the danger that we will look back, and discover the happiness was there behind us, and there is no way back because we destroyed something or someone crucial to our return to it. Best of wishes.

I had a really weird dream last night. Some lady (i think I knew her but can't RECALL her) brought me into a hospital room, where this Dr. removed all the blood from my body and gave me NEW BLOOD. I remember them saying that if they didn't I would die. They said my blood was 5% cholesterol. That's kinda funny. They were removing that, and giving me fresh stuff. Dreams are nutz 😛

Maybe New Blood = equals a new person in your near future.

Hey PANGEL you have hit the nail on the head. I have just taken in my b/f's daughter under my roof. That's very good insight. I sure didn't think of it that way.