Parents

Oh yes the parental joke that keeps me laughing

Oh yes it is a funny thing to laugh about when your bio mother and father involve other people into their own crap and use others and blame me for it and never counted on the fact that I could remember such things and have a heart to understand this and many other things.

Oh yes it is funny to have a biological mother who is hell bent on intentionally hurting others and will use anyone and everyone without understanding nor putting other peoples persons first in order to reck vengence upon those who do not listen to her let alone do what she wants them to do, nasty bitch this one, also she plays it so well that you do indeed get sucked in to her way of thinking and doing things and end up believing what she says and doing what she wants you to do, very manipulative and I feel sorry for anyone who is in this predicament and cant get themselves out or let alone see a way out.

I will tell you there is always a way out you just got to make the choice and go and never look back, its scary at first but then you realise just what a good thing you did by leaving in the first place it has made things rather interesting in that you will one day understand what she is truley like and she her for what she is and grow strong with that knowledge.

I have realised that despite what she has done to me, I have survived that and what ever else she has done and/or will continue to do to me. She will blame me for everything and I dont mind coz thats how it goes, and its best for everyone to blame me so they can go and be free and live their own lives away from her and people like that, very toxic and not to be listened to all. She is the one who uses others to hurt them so she can have power over them and get them to do what she wants them to do this is how she is and always has been. Now I dont like this and am aware of this and want nothing to do with this kind of behaviour I will not tolerate this behaviour from her or anyone else!

Now she never wanted me to begin with and despite her words which I call lies that flow from her mouth she has got noone to blame but herself for her own demise and that of others but she will blame me for it as she always has done, she can paint that picture so many times in a good beautiful light yet you can still see the stains shes produced whenever she touches anything so yeh its a joke in that I find it funny that someone such as her will blame me her biological daughter(not her

(not her real daughter mind you) for her ways and her life and her behaviour and everything else when she put me into the middle in the first place so she can rort money out of the system and not only that she can hurt people while shes at it too, and you call me crazy (its in the genes as they say), I got out a long time ago and am still out and despite this she stills is trying to suck me back in to her ways. Wont work. Its a steep learning curves I'lls say

Yeh and guess what shes a leo so even though I copped it from her I find out she a leo and lying one at that so dont like leos for that reason because I have seen and been through what leos is like and spot a liar like her from a mile away. Also she never wanted me as in she saw an opportunity to get some money and in order to do this both my biological mother and father donated the egg and sperm to produce me and so they can get the dough and now blaming me for what they cooked up together. They think they can do this to not only me but every other idiot too, I think not and I know not. They aint getting away with anyone or anything if I have something to do with it. No amount of magic will work, been there done that and what else you got that bag of tricks you seem to play so well, you imposter you, go find someone else to shame into submission to do your dirty work for you. I want for nothing from you and everyone else thats in on it. You never wanted me in the first place you never will yet you insist on pretending that you love me and I am your daughter blah blah blah etcetc. I know better now I know you dont love or like or anything like that also what make you think you could ever hope to achieve anything with someone the likes of me?

Go dig yourself a hole and bury yourself in it coz thats what you doing

I have not finshed yet, my biological father is also a dimwit in that he is still sucking up to my biological mother. Ehh makes me sick this does. I saw him once and have his eyes they say so maybe I am to be blamed for everything that prevails, gosh it is a windy day today as well. I dont like him at all as he is just like my mother in that he rorts the system albeit in a different way and still blames me for it this is to be expected and is much a behavioural thing as it is a escape route.

Mind you I dont mind the way in which he does it I find it amusing indeed but what they failed to realise is that little baby children grow up, eventually, and its when they do that even though they have been blamed for everything in their lifes by other people who should have been looking after them in the first place and its these children that will be the force of change to enable those who were unable to get out and live a free life, and god help those who get in their way because I will say this and tell you this that they are going to need god's help to help them coz noone else will. How funny indeed.

I laugh at this all the time. Just waiting for the time to be right for once. I laugh at the joke, I laugh with the joke and not only that I am the joke that I laugh at. It is hilarious I will say.

So to my biological father you are no worse nor no better than my biological mother both rort the system to please themselves and then blame me for it.If you both wanted a daughter where are yous now? I dont see you on the horizon anytime soon now or in the future. Never there when you said you would be do you know how much that hurts still to this day yet I kept forgiving you coz i wanted you and needed you to wake up to yourselves to see that you had a beautiful daughter the once loved you both and would have done anything for you to help you and make sure you were all right but.. those days are over you see I have now realised you will never see me as a beautiful daughter but only as a fat, lazy, no good, manipualtive, whore and god helps any man who get with me cos it will only end up in pain and misery just as you wanted it to have happened. I guess if you both make this happen for me of course this would be this way. Its a good thing I got out when I did sheeesh the amount of dicks coming thru those doors I knew then I had to get out lest I be of the same fate as my bio mother and there aint no way that would ever happen then now or in the future.

And god only knows what my biological father was thinking when he saw this happening, me shudders to think that, vengence is a dish best served cold, I may say if i were to be thinking like him hed be thinking this. Thats probably the only thing I got from him those words of wisdom however little he gave atleast I got his brains not that you would care for trial matters. His eyse and brains and abit of my own magic and I made myself get the fuck out of there coz I knew what was to be next and there aint no way i was going down that road and be just like my biological mother. Dirty whore that she is. Maybe she be getting some respect for herself and stop pimping for attention. Maybe take a leaf out of Grandma's book and say if you got a job to do then do it well. Stop harassing and manipulative men into boys for attention and blaming me for it. And by the way shut you hole while you at it. Just might get you somewhere too.

Yeh nice joke and I am still laughing all the way to the bank...

HAHAHAhahahahaha!!!!

Yes I have seen it all and been through it all but i prefer to say that I havent coz in reality I havent coz when you that as ego as that you bound to fall long way down and that aint how I am built to be. So yes i laugh all the time at the joke. i guess you could say I am the living breathing product of the joke hence that why I can laugh

at myself and the joke

I am

Also I laugh at this too that my biological mother and biological father sold me out a long times ago and it is funny coz i dont owe them anything yert they are the ones who owe me. I dont bother with this meaningless crap but no you hear them saying oh 'my' daughter is to blame for this get her and hurt because of this she owes us, time and time again. Abit boring I might say but its how they roll peopard dont change its spots thats for sure. So yes it is a trivalling matter that I laugh about because it is a joke that i wear so well day after day and night after night and as long as I can luagh at the joke myself i be cheering, yes?

Oh yes i have another to share with here on dxp

My biological father sold me out to a bunch of church going morons (the ol' catholic boys reunited from high of all places) (yes this is why i have a problem with 'catholic's churches') (however just coz these morons are like this not all churchies are like this I had to learn the 'hard way' the lesson to not paint everyone with the same brush, like not tar everyone with the same brush ok lets us begin it was a cold and windy day no sorry nit twas night time no that is not a good way either ok lets start again- my biological father had these people he knew from catholic church high school and were still friends with them and he told me I was a bad girl for not cleaning my room up or down which ever way and proceeded to tell them in a step by step dialogue that would fill the room up in 2 seconds he had a large piece of paper or two written down in specifics on what i had done so 'wrongly' and beautifully read to(this is because at that time I couldnt read words on the screen only hear them and write words I didnt understand how to read words though I still could understand what people were talking about and sometimes you wish you never did in the first place so I told them I was deaf i couldnt understand what it is they was saying and still to this day I dont, I prefer to remain deaf but i wish not that I was there is a vast difference here anyway they came he talked and I remained then they left and i found myself later having to go away for about a year to a church run place where they stay for however long and try to convert you into their way of thinking luckily I escaped their and found my way out. It was a big beautiful and mind you a prestigeous building and institution (hence my lack of love for such forgery) this was to begin my beginning of being converted into theor way of thinking and mind you they have done an exceptional job.

I can still remember it now the daily beatings the nightly rapings all for a year or so and all this by 'men of god' and I am thinking to myself wow how they be thinking they are men of god when god would not put up with such behaviour.

So i set about my daily and nightly routine as structured as it is and very rigerous too I made it so that I will take it upon myself and blame myself for their transgressions and not only that to learn about why it is they do the things that they do they kept telling i must understand so I was trying so hard to understand why 'men

hard to understand why 'men of god' would go about doing these things for this I had one priest intears I had asked him innocently why he does what he does and it was in that moment he realised what he was and still couldnt change himself 'oh I am a bad girk' he would say 'look what you do me' he says unrepentant though oh well didims to him he has to live with himself these days doesnt he heh? I got my way all right, I was let go without any harm. Boy I am glad I wasnt imagine what they do to little boys in there yuk anyway still to this day I havent said a word about that to anyone and am not going to coz its not about wording anything its about change and getting your way as I have learnt now I have them no my side to fight evil so if I have to go through that in order for them to be on my side then I have done my job. I blame my father for this coz i didnt clean my room up, I was doing double shifts at some place and was extremely tired and just exhausted from doing everything and being everything to everyone and I forgot to do my room and he hit the roof because of that literally teared the place up it was fun to get away from him get out of the way of his aggression and fists and whatever he could throw yet when he calmed down he was nice as pie and I helped him clean it up because as usual it was my fault I was to blame for he loss of control. I think he liked me didnt want to own up to that fact and resorted to violence and other measures to get his way which he never did and never will do now or in the future and that goes for everyone else.

Like I said i have a problem with religious people for this reason though I am aware that just because they are like this not all are like this. Same goes for any religion you see good and bad and the ugly you just have to stay out of the ugly(evil) and all is ok. I have done this and am continuing on with my journey towards who knows where, its very important to keep a level head at all times in these situations coz its people we are dealing with and I need as many people in my side to fight for the way of life on earth preservation of humanity and thats what it is all about, fight evil and preserve humanity. I need to understand and learn this and I have been through this many times so does that mean I can go to hell coz I have been a bad girk? So help me god I will do this.

Its funny too my love of god and humanity I must be a nutcase for putting myself in these positions as it so happens everytime I try to stop this from happening nupe it happens exactly as i dont want it to, I am bored of these games and wish to go now. I have been a bad girl and can now go to hell?

Now in saying this I still love my bio mother and father i see them how they are (they are 'sick' motherfuckers) and my mother likes little boys so thats why she doesnt like me I am a threat to her way of life and if self preservation is the order of the day then that is the reason for this.

Despite this I have the compassion to see and understand and do what I can to help them in a soul way to help me in the way I must go.

Now if that make me a manipulative bitch then I yes I am one and if it werent for me, being a goat or cap or cold (or any other names you would like to call me to make your self feel better), to bring this about then it wouldnt be done and not only that to all the people who have helped me in their own way it wouldnt have been achievable. Its when I sit back and think about what was is and will be I am florred, now insaying this it isnt over by any long shot but it is up to me now to end it. Like the old saying goes they start it I end it. Time to start ending it I thinks.

Yeh not only that, if it werent for my doggedness and my single handed vision and ultimately GOD I wouldnt be here today telling yet another story and that I am ready to go to hell and face the fact who I am yet once again and finally start to end what they begun in the first place.