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Well, well, well....i just met up with Mr. Sag after 2 fckuing months apart, and i can tell you i was NOT impressed. I knew he?d been away with friends during that time...great for him, but did i really need to know the following details....

He says "so 9 of us went to — for a week and we split company between 3 bedrooms. There were only two girls and 7 of us boys, so I slept in a room with them"

Clearly exasperated at not getting the response he was looking for (ie, the typical weeping, woeful female) he tried to butter me up no end. Hahaha, it was a real comedy night, because he must have tried every trick in the book to no avail. A complete prick..so i got on the bus and came home (4 hours away).. and thats the least distance we?ll ever have between us again. So, there goes the Sag experience..cant say this Libra has been impressed.

But i will add this here on this thread to see if any of you understand me...i am so completely gutted and cut up. The fact that i had been looking forward to it so much, and apparantly him too judging by the messages etc in the in-between time, that i just feel completed spaced out and solitary today. Its like hurt pride takes over every other bodily function and wholly consumes me. I cant pinpoint any other emotion, im not angry, jealous, sad...but my pride feels like its just died on me. What can i do to stop this crap that keeps happeneing. I just cant seem to ever get things off the ground, but they?re already so messed up.

Yes...I think you are giving him a very real, much more poignant reaction by giving him "none" as you say. I agree that what he did was wrong, but as you can tell, you are now carrying the weight of that around and it's making you feel awful. Why not let him share this burden with you, after all, it belongs to him?

Because then he knows how to hurt me..i can bear it, i just wish it didnt have to be inflicted on me. He actually phoned today to see where i was and what i was up because i left the city without even saying anything..i couldnt think straight.

Thinktank...there?s nothing "mind-gamish" about whats happened..he was a prick and thats the end of it. Im sure he didnt mean to cause offense (being a sag and all)!! but he?ll need to learn to think before he speaks in future..if there?s to one of any kind. I mean in Barcelona earlier in the year, i shared a hostel room with 3 of my male friends..i was supposed to share with my female friend but she ended up dating one of the guys before we got there and they took the shared room. I could easily have mentioned that in retort, but why bother both being angry and upset. I?ll just shake this shit off, i just need to wallow for a day or so and then im ok.

Mentioning this to him would make me seem petty so early on, so im not going to take anyone up on that...but thanks all the same 🙂