Can you relate?

Hi, i have lurked DXP for, a really long time now. Like 2 years. I had an old acct but never posted and then forget the login info, so here we are now.

I am thinking this is a piscean trait, but also could be due to my overwhelming amount of placements in pisces {sun, moon, merc}, or even just my age {23}. Thought i'd ask ya'll if you could relate, and to see if anyone has any thoughts on what i'm dealing with as of late.

I pretty much have summed it up to that, I am losing grasp of who i think i am. Ive always thought i had a pretty good idea of my likes and dislikes, and how id like to be perceived by the world, and what i wanted from life. But i am feeling really confused lately. My identity feels much too fluid, like i can be any version of myself at any given time.
The expectations of others, of my parents and of my friends {who, i get the feeling, think i am weak and can, kindof, walk all over me} meshes in with what I want, and with my feelings, and its hard to decipher which is which. I want a clean slate, to understand me. I'm thinking dedication to meditation might help, but I have never done it before so i know it will take much effort. I am also a single mother of a 10 month old {father is in the army}, which may also be helping to create this identity crisis. This does seem very piscean to me though, as we are compared to sponges, soaking up the emotions of others, and me, even taking it as far as empathizing with these emotions so much that i let them really affect who i have become as a person.

Any thoughts? Thanks in advance.

Do you mean like talking to a professional?

You don't find the so called, shape shifting, uncomfortable? I guess my emotional unsettling about it could stem from me trying to box things in. People, ideas. Trying to make sense of my environment by giving everything a definition, a title, when really that is never completely possible anyways.

I don't know a lot about nodes, but i believe my south {representing past?} node is in virgo. Which maybe makes it difficult for me to be such a pisces. If anyone has any knowledge about the validity of nodes and cares to give me that info that'd be sweet too..

Thanks for your input lena. =)

I actually have been thinking about seeking out a psychologist. Id like to think im fairly mentally stable, haha, so really because im pretty sure they just ask you lots of questions and hopefully that will bring out my own realizations about things i may need help with. This is what i do when my friends ask me for advice, and kindof what im trying to achieve here asking ya'll for some advice myself.

APP, yes i am very gray, and for some reason i am all of a sudden wanting to be black or white. just seems easier and less confusing :\

Ugh lena, same here. I also came across that realization recently. And i think that's why my couple of LTR exes have over the last few years cont. to try and "get me back". I was always whatever i thought they wanted me to be, and in the end that was the reason i had to end it. Cause by then, i was no longer "me"

You sound like the classic pisces. Taking the time alone to hermitize is the best medicine for anyone, I think. Like a mental and physical self cleanse.