
I'd love to post my mom's chart and ask you guys to have a look at it and tell me what you think, but I can't because the only Internet connection I have ATM is on my phone and I can't post harts on my phone. Her birthday is 17 march 1960. I'm 32, eldest of her four kids.. She had me when she was 19, married my dad and was great mother to us all while we were growing up. I have no idea what the fuck happened but around two years ago (when I was overseas) I started getting these phone calls from her at the most ungodly hours with her in tears telling me how she didn't want to be married anymore. Then she set herself up with a car of her own and left my dad last year. They got divorced this year in january. She has developed alcoholism over the last few years and it's getting progressively worse. She moved back in with my dad (he's Leo) about four months ago and things started to look a bit better, but now, we're on vacation and it's like she's just lost the plot. All she does is drink and pass out and come up with every reason under the sun to justify her drinking. She was pissed by about 11am today. Between about 4pm yesterday and this morning at 11am, she polished a brand new bottle of whiskey! And then passed out on her and my dad's bed. She cries all the time about how she hates my dad and how awful it is living with him. She takes a lot of abuse: from all of us who just don't like it when she's been drinking. My dad especially gets very judgmental and nasty with her. He doesn't drink at all. I feel terrible that I have said some hurtful things to her, but they have been the truth so I'm not going to take them back.... But it hasn't just been me. Like I said, she takes a lot of nastiness from us and I'm trying my hardest to be compassionate now because it can't be easy with everyone in your house telling you how shit you are almost every day. When she's sober she's so nice and we love her. She's the woman who raised us. But even now, when she's sober, I can see her spirit is broken and she has no self worth. I think hearing everyone you love slamming you all the time can really get to you and you can only fend it off for so long before it starts taking it's toll. but she does it to herself. She can't keep her shit together anymore and my heart is broken for her. She's so depressed and she just drowns herself in alcohol every second day pretty much. My dad sent her to rehab for 6 weeks which helped for a while but she just relapsed.




