aaahhhh aquarius

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funluvn
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20 Years

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I have been with this aqua guy in different aspects for almost two years now(friends,friends w/ benefits,roommates,and finally involved in a committed relationship) Our relationship actually turned into a committed serious relationship only 5 months ago though. He told me he had really deep feelings for me and cared about me alot. He had been living with me as roommates for 7 months prior (which took him almost a year to decide he even wanted to be roommates with me, several i'm going to move ins and backing outs prior) He's got your typical aquarian traits,it's his way or no way. Just like when he moved in it was his decsion, he asked me if i was still looking for a roommate and i said yes but not him because he couldn't make up his mind. He says if i wanted to though you would still be interested i said yes what ever. Next thing i knew he left to do errands and comes back with all his belongings. We never fight or argue, we are best friends and i care alot about him. I have never pushed him into anything being with him has always been enough for me, i've never needed a title to define what i feel when i'm with him. Being in a relationship with him was his doing his idea and totally his choice. I never hinted i wanted a relationship or acted salted because we had not entered into one. So this confuses me beyond belief. I've noticed a couple of things but have never said anything to him about it. first he changed his direct deposit (used to be put in my account because he didn't have one)which i didn't think much of he had gotten his own account I figured he would eventually change it, what striked me odd was he did it and never said anything to me that he was going to so it seemed sneaky. then i noticed boxes in the back seat of his car still i never thought much of it he's always doing something around the house, maybe he needed them for something. but the last thing put it all together. The phone rang and i answered it. the guy on the line said my number came up on his caller id, and wanted to know if someone called about a room. I said i didn't but maybe my boyfriend did so i gave him the phone and went outside (so i dont know what he said to him) we went to bed i never said anything about it. the next day we were talking and i asked what the guy wanted last night. he didn't answer me, i asked again still he didn't answer. so i just came out and said are you moving? he said yes he's looking for a room that it's not me it's him (the oldest lame line in the book) He said he has so much he wants to do and doesn't want to get married ———— which brought total confusion on my part considering it's never been mentioned i do not want to get married and never even thought of it. He says he's probably going to be moving out of state soon to be close to his dad because he's retiring and needs help. He also said that i am great to him, and that he will be in school and not be able to give me any time and cannot let me do what i do for him and be so good to him when he wont be there and all his attention will be focused on school. which to me are all excuses, he knows i would stand by him through anything, and help him anyway i could. i don't believe for one minute any of his reasons are true. He has lost his mind if he thinks i'm that stupid. anyway the conversation ended as quick as it began. I kept to my self all night and the next day decided i would leave him alone. if he's moving and doesn't want to be with me fine it's his loss. I care alot about him and he knows that but i cant make him care about me. we have been doing alot of renovation to the house and the previous night right after our conversation my dad comes over he was talking to my dad about what he was going to do to the kitchen like the conversation he just had with me about moving was nothing. IF YOUR MOVING HOW CAN YOU REMODEL THE KITCHEN—anyway i blew it off as he was just trying to talk with my dad and it meant nothing h
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funluvn
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Thank you so much for your input, I do try and talk to him but he closes up and won't talk. With him conversations about emotions have to be initiated by him or he feels smothered and cornered. No matter how gingerly I try and approach the subject so i suck it up and wait for him to open the subject. that was part of the problem, i pushed him to tell me he was moving. part of me thinks he was just testing the waters on his own to feel he had options. when i pushed him to tell me he had no choice but to be honest, which was he was looking for a place. Since our conversation he has made no attempt to move, he sleeps beside me every night, and acts like nothings changed. i can't help thinking he's just commitment phobic, i've been reading alot about it and it says any time they feel they are growing close to somoene they push them away by sabatoging what they have by doing stupid stuff (cheating, leaving without reason, starting arguements). He did this to me once before during the first 6 months we were hanging out. we got along great and were getting very close. he told me on a monday he wanted to move in with me and gave me money in advance to convince me because he had backed out many times before. by thursday he had went to the bar and took home this girl we both knew. he didn't show up to work the next day so i called her because i had this funny feeling he was with her and she tryed lying but finally came clean. he avoided me all weekend and then monday at work told me things got out of hand and because of what happened we couldn't be friends because things got weird. for two months he wanted nothing to do with me. as soon as i started getting my life together again and getting over the hurt he came back into my life wanting to be my friend again. which has lead to this.
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Wow funluvn!
your story with this aquarius seems to have the worst and the best of this sign in relationships. They do demand a lot of people without giving them much to work with. I have a post on the aquarius board (some advice please) and reading your post scared the hell out of me cause I don't think that I have so much strength to invest in liking someone: mostly because I can like too much and invest too much and end up worn out in the end.
But in your case, since he has done silly things as he is doing now, and you seem to know him quite well and to have been incredibly patient with him, I would say not to push him anymore, let him come and go as he pleases in the house and if he moves out and terminate with the relationship then so be it. But since he's gotten so far with you despite his "fears" chances are it's just a phase. Hope it is not too long...

Good luck,
Maia
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funluvn
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thanks you so much for the advice. Thats kind of where i'm at, the wait and see what happens thing. But i have to confess I have come to a whole new understanding of the word patients with him. He really is a great guy, alot of great qualities, but I see him pushing me away and it hurts. makes me wonder if im only fooling myself. i have given him everything i have. I have always been honest and truthful with him. he's my bestfriend which is what makes it really hard for me to just walk away. based on his silly actions i should have already walked away, but our friendship's always been solid. thanks again.