pirophobia
@pirophobia
8 Years
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To my story: So, I met this Taurus three weeks ago now and we've hit things off insanely well. He's a Taurus with a Virgo moon (if I did his astrology chart correctly) and I'm an Aquarius with a Cancer moon. I am very easy to open up to for most people and tend to be very relaxed and non-judgmental usually so he began telling me about all the issues in his life. We texted for several days straight, him being very responsive and energetic initially but then slowed down as soon as I returned interest a bit. That isn't surprising, it's kind of a Taurus thing. However, I've held back certain flirtations and compliments because he has a girlfriend, but he doesn't seem to care. We ended up having sex and unfortunately, it was amazing. We were even able to joke and hang out after and he made it very clear that he didn't want it to seem like he was using me for just that.
Since, the first time, we have had sex on a handful of occasions, and the more we did the more conflicted I felt. It became this ritual of him kissing me and charming his way further. Me being lonely, would eventually give in. I've been honest with him that I don't really feel comfortable with the situation, and explained that I'm not asking him to dump his girlfriend to date me, because we've only known each other for a while; but that I didn't want to get hurt or hurt her. He's been not very responsive on that front, but when he is it's sincere. At first he said he wasn't the good type to date because he would be leaving the country after joining the military. Then he said he wanted to test the waters and didn't really know me well. I'm aware that Taurus' tend to not like exposing their emotions to someone so that they can have the upper hand in that kind of situation, but I also know I'm definitely being naive and blindly hopeful.
Regardless of his cheating actions and closed off personality, I still genuinely think he is really into me and is not using me for the sex or a form of escape from the crumbling relationship with his girlfriend. We've talked on the phone for hours at a time with him initiating the call just cause and never speaking sexually. I have caught him looking at me in a way that seems to be more than physical desire.
To top it off, we hung out two days ago and made plans to see each other as of tomorrow. He hasn't responded to me through text although I only tried to get in contact with him today just once. I'm thinking it's because of the fact that I told him I can't keep having sex with him or else I'll develop feelings which we both know I already have. Perhaps it's him needing space after me being emotional one too many times or he is just busy?
All in all, I know I'm making a mistake in a lot of ways, and I should simply stop this whole scenario based on principle but I can't quite seem to let him go yet.