What would you call this feeling?

I wrote about this in the cancer board, but it's really general, so I thought I would post it here too.

I wrote about a cancer guy earlier seeking advice, but at the time, I was dealing with a lot of things, so I was having a crisis of confidence and was beginning to doubt things. Needless to say, this cancer guy and I aren't really together anymore at this point, but that doesn't stop me from feeling a certain way about him. From the very beginning, I was intrigued by the cancer, but for reasons I didn't understand until much later. The best way to put it is that I truly care about this cancer beyond that of some melodramatic and drawn out romantic love; ironically, I don't think I had gotten to that point of love, but I can say I truly adored him for everything that he was/is as a person; and had things turned out differently, I'm sure we would have been something very special. Instead of feeling cheated and disappointed that things didn't exactly go as planned between us, I feel very content and comforted by the thought of him. I just enjoyed being in his presence, and I imagined I would feel the same about him whether we were friends or actually a couple. I felt like I grew up a little being with him, and not so much that he did anything, but that I was able to transcend misconceptions I had towards myself while with him, and I trusted him enough to not fear him so much while I allowed myself to grow. I haven't seen him in a few weeks, but instead of feeling upset, I'm content. I miss him and think about him all the time, but it isn't a desperate feeling that I need him, but one of if we came together again (and I'm sure we will), it could go right back to were we left it off. It's very rare I feel this way about someone, but he's very special to me. If I still really believed this, I would say he was epitome of the guy that I always wished I could have (and I did get him for a little), and ironically, I would have never thought he'd be that person. He is just a beautiful person.

So, have any of you ever felt this way about someone? What do you think of this?

You have a strong connection. You naturally go together.
If/when you two get back together, you'll fall for him, very hard and very strong.

I know the feeling completely. 🙂

Posted by BellaBulleautiful
That my dear is called real love.it may not be romantic love,it does not have to be.but what you describe,to me at least is real admiration and love. —
that kind of love never dies.
it seems few people get to experience this....and that's why most don't have a clue what love is.

agreed. 🙂

I didn't want to scare you with the "real love" word. But that's exactly what it is.

♥♥♥

Thanks for the input you guys. Although I hate to admit it a little, after reading this, I started crying; but I wasn't necessarily crying out of sadness. It was kind of the opposite. The thing is, I knew because I didn't have any other words to describe it. I was just afraid to say "love," especially since I didn't know what kind it was. But the more I dwell on it, the more it makes sense. And it is a feeling that is beyond most things I felt. Even more so, I feel no pain or apprehension realizing this. It makes me realize that even though I knew we couldn't have a long term thing because of his career, I still went for it because I felt he was someone I couldn't let slip through my fingers.

Also, do you think it would be fair to admit this to him? I just feel like he should know before he goes off at some point. He's a cancer, and he was usually pretty open with me.

Posted by Candeh15


So, have any of you ever felt this way about someone? What do you think of this?

Metaphorically...
The Ember vs. The Flame

It's a good thing.

(Okay my smart ass side is screaming to get out)

*Queues up Nelly*
— It's getting hot in here...—