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do you ever feel completely overwhelmed by negativity? when bad shit keeps happening like a mexican wave across all aspects of your life? i'm feeling so overly emotional it makes no sense. i don't feel like this. it isn't me but every time i try and sort things through in my mind, i can't see for the mist of confusion. i feel like this has been building and it's all within my control but i just can't seem to get a grip. i feel isolated, confused and empty.

Aww my little Jewish Jasmine...Yes I have been there. I would like to blame your emotions on the retrograde but Seraph might roar at me.

I have felt that way as I am sure have most people. There is saying..."when it rains, it poors". This is the one phenomenon that even Intellects and non-Intellects can agree on. The Intellects refer to it as Murphy's Law...that which can go wrong, will go wrong sooner or later. Hang in there. Hang around friends or family. People that make you smile.

Most importantly watch the alcohol consumption. Alcohol is a depressant and while it may seem like it is helping, it is not.

Ani Ohev Otach!

Posted by Nala13
Aww my little Jewish Jasmine...Yes I have been there. I would like to blame your emotions on the retrograde but Seraph might roar at me.

I have felt that way as I am sure have most people. There is saying..."when it rains, it poors". This is the one phenomenon that even Intellects and non-Intellects can agree on. The Intellects refer to it as Murphy's Law...that which can go wrong, will go wrong sooner or later. Hang in there. Hang around friends or family. People that make you smile.

Most importantly watch the alcohol consumption. Alcohol is a depressant and while it may seem like it is helping, it is not.

Ani Ohev Otach!

i don't drink actually. i mean on very rare occasions i do...it's not a policy but alcohol doesn't like me and i don't hang around people who drink heavily either..that IS a policy.

i think the key in what you said there was hanging around friends and family. i have no family in this country and my family isn't very large anyway and my friends live a long distance from where i now live in spain. i was talking to my cancerian bezzie yesterday on IM and she did really help cheer me up but i need a good night in the company of people who are close to me to feel like i belong a little...but sadly it's not logistically possible.

Posted by Let*It*Be
"do you ever feel completely overwhelmed by negativity? when bad shit keeps happening like a mexican wave across all aspects of your life?"


Nope..I always figure out a way to make things positive, no matter what situation comes up. Humor helps. Now...on the other hand, I ended a 15 year relationship with one of my best friends two years ago(Aries) due to the severe negativity that took her over (pain killer addiction). Right now I'm teetering on the edge of a very good male friend and thinking about walking away. Everything out of his mouth is negative and I've already warned him to either get help or STOP already. He hurt my feelings pretty hard a few days ago, (taking his negative shit out on me big time), and well, I'm at that point when I walk...I'm gone for good. So I've been avoiding him to avoid that from happening. ugh...everyone has to remember

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON...there's always light at the end of the tunnel. Each day is a new day ..you get my drift. Don't make the negative YOUR WORLD, it will suck you in and keep you there. Also...just know someone out there has it a lot worse than you do.

i think you're great LiB but you're preaching to the converted here and it sounds rather patronising to be honest. i ALWAYS turn negatives to positives and have an almost indestructable shell. i also believe that everything happens for a reason. i've been through cancer and divorce and laughed my head off through the entire experience virtually because i believe laughter is the greatest medicine.

but no matter how positive i am, at points i am also human. i need other people around me just like everyone else but i'm feeling isolated and alone as they're not close to me. i have to be positive on the surface as i have my 13 year old daughter to think about and she worries about me if i'm stressed cos she thinks i'm gonna get sick again.

this is all taking place inside my head. to the outside world, i'm titanium but i know that inside, i'm lonely, confused and feeling weak.

THAT is happening for a reason. i'm being told that i HAVE to deal with these things in order to move forward. i KNOW the way out but i just don't know where to begin right now. i guess i was using dxp as a way of getting my headstate out there. i admit weaknesses here that i would never in real because i know that i largely won't be judged f

Posted by Let*It*Be
"do you ever feel completely overwhelmed by negativity? when bad shit keeps happening like a mexican wave across all aspects of your life?"


Nope..I always figure out a way to make things positive, no matter what situation comes up. Humor helps. Now...on the other hand, I ended a 15 year relationship with one of my best friends two years ago(Aries) due to the severe negativity that took her over (pain killer addiction). Right now I'm teetering on the edge of a very good male friend and thinking about walking away. Everything out of his mouth is negative and I've already warned him to either get help or STOP already. He hurt my feelings pretty hard a few days ago, (taking his negative shit out on me big time), and well, I'm at that point when I walk...I'm gone for good. So I've been avoiding him to avoid that from happening. ugh...everyone has to remember

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON...there's always light at the end of the tunnel. Each day is a new day ..you get my drift. Don't make the negative YOUR WORLD, it will suck you in and keep you there. Also...just know someone out there has it a lot worse than you do.

i think you're great LiB but you're preaching to the converted here and it sounds rather patronising to be honest. i ALWAYS turn negatives to positives and have an almost indestructable shell. i also believe that everything happens for a reason. i've been through cancer and divorce and laughed my head off through the entire experience virtually because i believe laughter is the greatest medicine.

but no matter how positive i am, at points i am also human. i need other people around me just like everyone else but i'm feeling isolated and alone as they're not close to me. i have to be positive on the surface as i have my 13 year old daughter to think about and she worries about me if i'm stressed cos she thinks i'm gonna get sick again.

this is all taking place inside my head. to the outside world, i'm titanium but i know that inside, i'm lonely, confused and feeling weak.

THAT is happening for a reason. i'm being told that i HAVE to deal with these things in order to move forward. i KNOW the way out but i just don't know where to begin right now. i guess i was using dxp as a way of getting my headstate out there. i admit weaknesses here that i would never in real because i know that i largely won't be judged f

Rig, I am giving you a great big Cyber Hug. Do you want to call me? You can teach me Spanish or Hebrew! over the phone...you can be my Rosetta stone. Hey that rhymes 🙂 You know you are my buddy so cheer up. Even though you think you might be putting up a good front, children are pretty intuitive. Keep it Kool for the Kid. I'm on a roll!

See, I bet you laughed.

🙂 yeah...i hate being negative LiB. having no-one to talk to doesn't help. i know what you're saying is true but sometimes, there's a reason why we become self-indulgant and depressed and i know i still have positivity cos my mind is working overtime, compartmentalising stuff and trying to deal with things one step at a time...distracting myself with as much comedy as i can watch, etc.

the thing is that negative energy is just as powerful as positive energy and so there's like a battle going on between two really fearce forces inside my head. the negative energy i've noticed is more of a sick feeling in the gut...like a physical thing whereas the positive energy needs stimulus to create momentum and so you have to actively focus on building that yourself. do you know what i mean cos i can't really explain it.

it won't beat me though. sometimes you really have to go to the depths before you find the way out but i believe in putting up a fight and always looking up, no matter how far i fall.

thanks for the hug nala 🙂

This too shall pass. Rain clouds come, dumb a shit load of rain, but the sun is always hiding behind it.

THen they pass. And the sun shines. Its temporary, dearest Riggieeeeee...

Poor scorpios, feel SO much SO often....I love you to bits, ya know 🙂

Posted by Nemesis
"EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON..."

does it or does it?! who is to say anyhow?

everything happens based on an action/reaction or non-action. it's a consquence. not a fucking mantra.

action/reaction or non-action is the 'reasons' for things that happen but what is the motivation behind the action/reaction or non-action....well, i guess there'll be another whole set of reasons behind the motivation and so ultimately, the expression 'everything happens for a reason' is perfectly correct, just a succinct way of putting it.

yeah, it's a consequence but there are reasons behind each particular consequence and it's expressed that way cos it's important to understand WHY we are left with a particular set of consequences. otherwise, you'll go through life blindly accepting consequences as though you have no part in their making.

'everything happens for a reason'...more or less says that our lives follow the course we set it on...WE are the reason behind everything that happens...it means we should all OWN our destiny.

trouble is, expressions are used so much that they lose meaning and become cliches.

Yeah I get that way sometimes. Like there is no outlet, everything I look at in my life is either mediocre or shitty. And then something even worse happens and I'm just destroyed. I get really really depressed. Don't want to get out of bed, cry all the time. Have been going through this recently too (yes I blame the retrograde). And then usually, I just get fucking sick of it. And some friend mentally bitch slaps me out of it. And I get up and decide to live for today again. And whatever it was that was the problem, I find a way to fix. Because all the little problems, they pile up all the time, and I can take it. But when there's one that really really hurts, I can't. Thats the one I address.

sky: yeah, that sounds like me on occasion. usually when i have pms to be honest. i tend to indulge the mood for no more than a couple of days though and i do accept that i have control over it....nevertheless, it's good to plumb the depths sometimes and get it all out of your system.

i've felt much better today. my circumstances actually got a little worse but i feel better and stronger and more able to cope. i've been through so much shit in the past that i know we always find a way through it and at the very least, we live to see another day and what more could we ask for 🙂

yay!!!! my black mood completely dissipated last night after a phone conversation with an aqua guy from work i usually find extremely irritating. i was ranting on and on about shit that's happened (poor guy) and he reminded me of a plan i had to get some extra work that i had been really excited about before the funk set in but wasn't sure how to proceed.

anyway, it all came to me in a lightbulb moment during the convo and now i'm happy as a sandboy again. still deeply in the shit but i can smell roses.

there really is a positive side to everything negative....we just have to find it, reach out to it and own it 🙂

thank fuck!! i wasn't liking miserable me much.