Fall in love

I think I've been in love 3 or 4 times in my life. And everytime I knew the instance I took a glance at them. I could see that they were special people. It was people I never even knew, I just saw them and thought 'This person is special'. And later I got to know them, and fell in love, and started to date. But I just hate that it happens so seldom. I need those special people around to make me happy. The most recently guy I liked had a girlfriend so I knew it wouldn't work out, but he really fell for me, and I liked his attention and caring for me in the meantime. (Even though I wouldn't allow him to cheat, I just liked talking to him all day).
So today she found out that we'd been talking and seeing eachother a lot, and made him break all contact with me, so I feel like someone really special to me just died... It really sucks right now. I need to start all over again finding that special person. Which after the statistics doesn't come for another year.

Is it like this with you also, that you seldom fall in love with someone?

My Scorp exes admitted to me their reaction was love at first sight and were drawn to talk to me. Each of them I felt unexplainable intense love.
Life can be very puzzling, I believe part of our lives are 'fixed points' you can't avoid and must learn from it.

Yeah, it's like I'm just longing for some sort of "soul"-connection with someone. I had that with the three people I talked about, but I guess they are just here to teach me something, and then leave again. But I guess Mr. Right will come along eventually.

It's just the sudden break from my soulconnection guy that hurts like hell. I feel disconnected from the world now that he is gone. But that will eventually go over anyways.

Yeah, I know the feeling, that you just get this weird feeling when you see them for the first time, because you know they will be in your life later somehow.

I wonder if other signs get this.