
scorpchi
@scorpchi
13 Years
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Posted by scorpchi
Recently I dont know whether it is or not and I dont like not knowing where my future will lead.


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I guess it started when I didnt get the grades I needed for university..and although they werent bad they werent good enough and I could have still got in somewhere, but it sunk in that I wasnt passionate about doing any of the courses. I cant put my heart into something I dont want 100% and it's it left me thinking, what the hell do I want then? I guess I want too much. I guess im too ambitious that I dont know where to start, I feel like ive lost myself and everything I once wanted.
In addition, this guy ive liked since the moment I met him in 2009, a summer romance I guess..we finally got close in 2012 and both of us had expectations - but it all happened so fast that it was a let down for the both of us. Seeing each other year after year waiting for the moment, when he always caught me unexpected and turned up one night explaining his feelings - something which was very rare for him to do, we kissed hidden at an italian festa and after two nights of intense passion it went downhill because neither of us knew where to begin and how to start something which would easily be over for another year because of the distance (However this story is far too long to explain)
None of this probably makes any sense but I just needed to let it out.. Are any other Scorpios having difficulty putting their finger on the way their feeling recently? I almost feel depressed at times and I dont know why, Im fed up of faking a smile yet dont see real reason not to smile. Im healthy, I have so many great family and friends and i know when i know what I want I can get it..but I guess not knowing right now has REALLY got to me and I cant handle the pressure anymore.