I was a toxic child, what about you?

?? ?? ?? ?? As a child my mother says I was affectionate. she says that I was the sweetest thing that she ??has ever seen, that she would be in the kitchen and I would be playing outside, she says that every 15 minutes I would come to her embrace her legs cuz I was sooooo short and tell her " mom I love you, do you love me?" like clockwork. And then it all went away when I started middle school. She says that all that love vanished and I turn into this little evil monster, I wasn't mean to other kids but I wasn't warm either. She say that kids would come up to me and i would say something like " leave me alone, I don't like you. Just go away don talk to me again." this was in middle school. In high school my friend......Tom lets say his name was tom. My friend Tom would have people from class walk up to him and ask him what the flick was wrong with me. Why was i such an ass, i don't think i was. I remember people walking up to me and they would ask if i like them or want to be friends. I would say, " ah no thanks, i don't really like you. Your nice and all but i don't think we would get along," thats was when i was being nice, if not id just laugh at the and be like" hahahaha, did you just ask me that? No," .I didn't do it on purpose, well I did I just did not like that person, what I'm saying is. ??I was not being a jerk to people to get a rush out of it, it was school. Everyone that age was an utter ass. They would talk so much crap I could not bear it. You know what they say, we scorpios can see BS walking towards us 5 miles ??away even if she's dressed in white in the middle of a full blown blizzard. I was not up to it. How ever now I am more open to people, now in college I expose myself more ad actually talk to people, my anger has subsided and I can actually relate to others of my own age.

My question is. Did you guys go through something similar?
You were sweet as a child but then got bitter, is it a Scorpio thin or was that just me?

Oh and p.s. I did have friends in high school they just so happen to all be teachers and counselors. Thats how I got off P.E for a year. Me and this teacher would stay talking in a class room. I never had to walk or do whatever it is you do in that class. It was fun, we would talk about her ex-husband and shit. She was awesome I miss her lol.

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Posted by totem
That's interesting. I was never sweet but overly sensitive and empathetic. I remember picking out the ugliest doll on the shelf because I thought no one would want(adopt)her. The birthday girl I gave it to was tossing it around with her friends and laughing calling it ugly and I was horrified. Gotta assume that's my Cancer rising. I was also a little bitch too. 🙂

I too was like yourself, I would buy the ugliest or saddest looking animals. My mother would as why? And I would say because no one would ever want this. Or I would buy birds from some kid in my neighborhood and let the go. Now that I think on It i could have, I could have purchased the same bird in more than on occasion. Lol

Posted by chopstickcharmer
The child with Pluto conjunct Ascendant

Or the child with Pluto squaring the Moon. That's a heavy thing to carry throughout life.

Posted by AureliusCloric
?? ?? ?? ?? As a child my mother says I was affectionate. she says that I was the sweetest thing that she ??has ever seen, that she would be in the kitchen and I would be playing outside, she says that every 15 minutes I would come to her embrace her legs cuz I was sooooo short and tell her " mom I love you, do you love me?" like clockwork. And then it all went away when I started middle school. She says that all that love vanished and I turn into this little evil monster, I wasn't mean to other kids but I wasn't warm either. She say that kids would come up to me and i would say something like " leave me alone, I don't like you. Just go away don talk to me again." this was in middle school. In high school my friend......Tom lets say his name was tom. My friend Tom would have people from class walk up to him and ask him what the flick was wrong with me. Why was i such an ass, i don't think i was. I remember people walking up to me and they would ask if i like them or want to be friends. I would say, " ah no thanks, i don't really like you. Your nice and all but i don't think we would get along," thats was when i was being nice, if not id just laugh at the and be like" hahahaha, did you just ask me that? No," .I didn't do it on purpose, well I did I just did not like that person, what I'm saying is. ??I was not being a jerk to people to get a rush out of it, it was school. Everyone that age was an utter ass. They would talk so much crap I could not bear it. You know what they say, we scorpios can see BS walking towards us 5 miles ??away even if she's dressed in white in the middle of a full blown blizzard. I was not up to it. How ever now I am more open to people, now in college I expose myself more ad actually talk to people, my anger has subsided and I can actually relate to others of my own age.

Here the same (stupid, annoying colleagues, bullying, good relation with the tutors and people in charge); but minus the affection towards and from my mom.
But yeah, I'm still a loner and difficult. I have no idea why none of my planets in Gemini want to 'help' me in this respect.