losing my mind

not literally but I'm doing too much thinking. I was supposed to hang out with this guy yesterday but he totally blew me off and ignored me! I'm mainly upset because I was so excited. I've been thinking, pondering all the things that could've came up and am trying to rationalize that maybe he got busy. or maybe he slept in. or maybe he didn't feel good. but he still has yet to reply to me! well two can play at that game. okay actually two cant play at that game because I know I'll be happy just to talk to him once he does come crawling out of his shell. but I sent him a little combative short text this morning to see if he'd respond. (he likes when I'm in a combative mood) still nothing. sigh. I tell myself every time "I'll just move on" and then he comes back and we are playful as ever. like two children never ready to grow up. then we delve into deep conversation about trivial matters and we become dull adults (though I think it's the best).

rant over. no one even needs to reply. I'm just feeling a little sad to be ignored and lonely and it's raining outside, but he's probably busy. we are both very busy individuals. the more I type, the more I know I should simmer down because I'm being irrational.

my world is one of many disappointments, but I rely too much on hope instead of reality it's true. he reached out today however I am not responding.

and @tiz, Neptune conj 7th? I am not sure what that means 😢 but I love learning from you! you are very knowledgable and I appreciate your feedback and teachings. please do elaborate 🙂 my Neptune is in the 3rd house. I'm assuming you mean Neptune being in the 7th? but I am not 100% sure if that's what you're referring to or not.

Posted by busyeyes88
Sorry "Alan" should read "man"!

it's ok atleast he have a name *alan* lol

Posted by degenerate_ingenue
not literally but I'm doing too much thinking. I was supposed to hang out with this guy yesterday but he totally blew me off and ignored me! I'm mainly upset because I was so excited. I've been thinking, pondering all the things that could've came up and am trying to rationalize that maybe he got busy. or maybe he slept in. or maybe he didn't feel good. but he still has yet to reply to me! well two can play at that game. okay actually two cant play at that game because I know I'll be happy just to talk to him once he does come crawling out of his shell. but I sent him a little combative short text this morning to see if he'd respond. (he likes when I'm in a combative mood) still nothing. sigh. I tell myself every time "I'll just move on" and then he comes back and we are playful as ever. like two children never ready to grow up. then we delve into deep conversation about trivial matters and we become dull adults (though I think it's the best).

rant over. no one even needs to reply. I'm just feeling a little sad to be ignored and lonely and it's raining outside, but he's probably busy. we are both very busy individuals. the more I type, the more I know I should simmer down because I'm being irrational.

It's ok lesson learned. If he invites you again. Don't allow your heart to beat faster as super excited.

lmao I will tell my heart to knock it right off, you got it 😄

the whole thing is entirely ridiculous. I took a class about natal charts online this summer. it was read I'm attracted to cruel men and then me. it's strange. it's kind of like walking blind through an empty hallway. you know nothing is there, but even if there was you wouldn't be able to see it because you're blinded. I blind myself with naivity and hope. it's factual. I find myself to be an embarrassment with such things, because I try to be logical, but it's almost like my psyche works against me 99.9% of the time.

oh well. live and learn.

them me*

Patience and Communication is everything.

degenerate, you have to be patient with him. SERIOUSLY PATIENT.

You simply cannot be a hurry.

Perhaps you should go see him. He may not be too up for texting and phone chat.

IF You start playing games with him, thinking that is what HE is doing and turn out to be wrong, then.... you're not
only going to feel stupid, you risk losing in the end.
Headgames are #1 no-no.

Oops, forgot to add "COMMITMENT".

lmao! I am the Scorpio, he is not. I guess posting on this board was misleading. I'm not one for playing mind games. I had someone play with my mind for years and allowed it. I would never do the same to another person. though I am built for commitment I run from it. it's a push/pull factor. I want it, I don't. if a man pursues me ardently, I run for the hills. when a man runs from me, it makes me run faster towards him but I never seem to catch up. I love the elusive man and the man who embraces his freedom fully and is adventurous. so maybe that is my downfall.

and @tiz ah I see! I was trying to figure out what you were trying to say and it went right over my head. I don't even have Venus square Neptune but sometimes I feel like I should at the rate my love life goes.

Posted by tiziani
You have Neptune conjunct 7th too? embrace it.

I have this aspect in my natal chart too. I get what she's saying. However, it sounds like you're dealing with it well. You've resigned to just deal with it...well, until you can't deal with it anymore. The beauty in that is that when you're done, you will have exhausted all of your options in how to deal and you'll just be done. You won't wonder and will move on brilliantly. Better than most. So while most people break up and brood about it for 2-6 months....you stick with the relationship for the whole 6 months and make a happy clean break. lol Well, maybe not happy, but at least clean. I make a happy clean break.