My Mysterious Side

As some of you know I have been seeing a Taurus for almost 4 months know and let me say that the last 3 weeks have been the hardest for the both of us. Our stubbornest clashed so bad it was ridiculas but we made it through. His need for control was a constant battle, because I will not give him that type of control and it really fucks him up that I will stand toe to toe with him because I will only let him control but so much of this relationship. He does gets really happy when I take control and he gets this big as smile hugs me and says "Damn I love it when you take control" and I just look at him and smile.

I have manage to hurt his feelings because he said "give me a kiss cuz I am cute" and I fell out laughing never gave him a kiss yet blew him one and he was hot. I saw him that eveing and he said "you know you hurt my feelings" I said nothing

Well, I decided to tell him that we needed some space and he said why? I said "because I need some time to think about whether or not I want to try harder to make this work and I think you should think about it also, because right know this is not healthy and I don't want it" I had told him previous that I am not going to work that hard to keep a relationship going and if I have to do it alone then I will walk.

Well after saying that I started to see major changes in him, he has stop boosting his voice thinking that it scares, he hugs me and kisses me, hell we was on the train the other day and I said kiss me and he was like naw man that's to much, I am not into all that lovey dovey shit, so I said here let me kiss you on the cheek and he leaned in and I kissed him. But today we was on the train and he actually kissed me in the lips in front of everyone on the train and I was elated. The communications has gotten better the battles are very slim because I tell him that he is not going to spoil my joy and I just ignore his as and then he comes to me and say ok man am sorry I know you don't like it when I do that and he says come here and give me a hug and kisses and then I listen to him.

But the weirdest thing about it all is that he is constantly accusing me of doing shit getting out on him and said that I was sneaky, and something is up with me and that he is going to find out the real me and all I could do is laugh bacause I am not doing anything but apparently he is sensing a serious mystery with me and it is really fucking with him and I don't know what to do because I am just being me, it could be his insecurity that is fucking with him. I wish he could just sit back and enjoy what I have to offer in a relationship. I make him smile and laugh, and I make him think about shit and he give me my props when I am right.

I know he loves me way more than he says, but damn am I putting out that much of a mystery to him and it is tripping me out cuz I am like damn dude get a grip I can't believe you don't trust me but then he says I am gonna catch and and then I say well you will be looking like a damn fool when you do and then he gets upset.

Hell I told him if you don't trust me then I don't trust you and he gets mad says damn man I am not doing anything I tell you who I talk to where I been and how can I have time to fuck another women when I am with you I am not about all that so then I say so where do I get time if I am with you duh......

Hey EG

Thanks for thinking of me.

I never said I was gonna walk I just needed some time to think it was beginining to be to much bickering and it was not healthy at all. To be honest I was thinking about it once I got the space I was going to change my number my locks and he was never going to hear from me again. I have been through to much in my life and have to deal with a man thanks that he can control everything in a relationship was not sitting well with me.

All I want from him is to do his part in help keeping the relationship together and stop thinking cuz he is the man he got all the answer and I should do what he says when it is clear that he does not.

EG

"He is insecure about it though...and his mind is working it up to something it isn't. You are gonna have to settle him down and show him it's nothing."

Thats my question how?

I have told him time and time again that I am all about him.....

Not to mentions when he starts that bullshit about me doing shit I shut down and he gets even madder.

EG
Yea that sounds like an options of course I have to see what his mood is, that alone trips me out. He was in a good mood this morning, he tried to spoil my joy but cancelled his ass out and he fell out laughing.

He tells me all the time I am crazy as hell but he loves me.

EG

I am not suspicious of him perse but of the things he says and the promises he makes. He is very humble and he admits that GOD has brought him to me to teach him how to be humble...lol Whatever!!!!!

Anotherscrop

"I don't know why, but scorps and taurus love to bicker..I swear."


I don't like bickering with him, I know this may sound strange but it gets intense. I really wanted to fight him one day and he just stood there and was like why you keep spitting in my face....LOL...I just looked at him a walk away and he was the calm one wanting to talk about it.

You know anytime you have to almost fight it is time to take some space.

EG
So what is a scorpio to do. LOL

anotherscrop

I am trying to reframe from stiniging his ass. and that seems to be the only way that will probably calm the bull down or send him in a rage...LOL

"It is the Taurus that taught me that the stinger has no place in my life...that is after we went through the whole I sting him, he pokes me with his horns, I sting him, he pokes me with his horn, etc...thing."

LMAO I so agree hahahahahaha

Learn to just chill out..

EG
"I think you should just get real calm and explain how ridiculous it is that he is working himself up over nothing. I know you must be feeling hurt because you haven't done anything wrong. But try not to make the situation worse by going crazy on him."

Yea I have managed to stay calm and not get into a frenzy when his ass acts out. The communication and the affection has gotten much better especailly over the this past weekend. Although I did come home plastered and he was mad.

He was at my house waiting for me when I came from cook-out on Saturday and all I said was I know you are upset that I am drunk and then I passed the hell out. I woke up the next morning prepared for an argument and he said nothing. (He does not drink and don't like to see me drunk) LOL I don't get drunk often but hey when I go out I am subject to drink and I get a little carried away at times. I think he should get used to it. I told him I was a social drinker.

"I think a-scorp is right, bulls and scorps are a lot more sensitive than they let on."
I believe also if he could just open up a little more with his feelings I could possibley do the same but after all that we went through the last month I am not ready to express my undying love to him until I see more from him.