On People and Feeeeeelings

How do you handle crowds or social settings? Do you find them energizing? Do they make you uncomfortable? Do you mingle or do you become a watching wallflower?

What about meeting new people? Nervous? Exciting?

i used to only be able to let go and enjoy big parties and stuff if i was three sheets to the wind, lol. cos i've had a lot of 'corporate' type things over the years, i've gotten used to meeting new people and mixing in big social groups for work. you just slap on the persona and work it. it's fun.

but then sometimes, i find big groups stifling and i just wanna go home. so i do. i can seem to be really rude like that. i've got to venues, taken one look inside and turned around and left. if you're not feeling it, those things are an absolute nightmare. it's horrible feeling out on a limb at a party. what's the point of being there.

when i was a kid i was chronically shy.

Posted by ScorpSuperior
How do you handle crowds or social settings? Do you find them energizing? Do they make you uncomfortable? Do you mingle or do you become a watching wallflower?

What about meeting new people? Nervous? Exciting?

Depends on the social event/gathering, but for the most part (9/10 times) I am a "watching wallflower". I'm always watching, reading, assessing people or a situation. Watching the way they interact with others, how they carry themselves, then I act accordingly. Sometimes I am just too caught up in my own thoughts and daydreaming about ravaging the sexy man standing on the other side of the room . This way I know how to manage a situation or person when confronted.

Meeting new people, depends on the mood. On the rare occasion I will introduce myself or initiate conversation with others. Most times, people will have to approach me. Why? Read above.

I can relate to you all.


A very good friend of mine swears that I don't like people, which is far from true. Strangers used to startle me to the point of appearing ridiculous. And don't even get me started on public speaking. I can do it now, but only because I've had to so many times throughout secondary school, my college career and graduate studies. When in large social gatherings, I do enjoy being a wallflower and assessing my surroundings. I think what bothers me most is that when I'm around others, I will no doubt take on whatever is going on with them. For instance, if we're all hanging out, and I notice you look or feel embarrassed, well, so will I. If you seem to have gotten your feelings hurt by something someone said, well then, my feelings will be hurt too. If you're sad, I'm going to be sad- so on and so forth. Who wants to bother with that all the time?