Relapse

After 2 weeks of no contact, I broke down blocked my number called and played this song. ugh Im so upset with myself. I was doing good. I hate being in love, its been a looonnngggg time since Ive felt the pain of being heartbroken. This shit hurts my soul. 😭

Posted by exoskeleton
so... do you need us to comfort you or summat?

Yesssss lol or tell me how foolish I was for breaking down. Im angry and hurt that he lured me in, I fell in love and he knew he had a whole other life. Smh people should go to jail for playing with someones heart like that. He showed the same passion and love as if it was natural and real. That damn Scorpio Sun/Ascendant Capricorn/Moon Aquarius/Mercury Sagittarius/Venus Scorpio deceived me. 😢 lol I dont even know what most of that means. Maybe someone can enlighten me as well. Thanks in advance.

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Posted by exoskeleton
so... do you need us to comfort you or summat?

Yesssss lol or tell me how foolish I was for breaking down. Im angry and hurt that he lured me in, I fell in love and he knew he had a whole other life. Smh people should go to jail for playing with someones heart like that. He showed the same passion and love as if it was natural and real. That damn Scorpio Sun/Ascendant Capricorn/Moon Aquarius/Mercury Sagittarius/Venus Scorpio deceived me. 😢 lol I dont even know what most of that means. Maybe someone can enlighten me as well. Thanks in advance.

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I was going to ask what exoskeleton asked, but she got there first. So you feel like he just used you and now you're not sure how to move on? Is that it?

Heres my story I posted 2weeks ago for those who missed it. I deleted it because just didnt want it as a constant reminder during my healing process......."Everything was going ok with my Scorpio man and I. After over 2 years of ups and downs, ins and outs he made our relationship official 2 months ago. Well we had a peculiar conversation, which wasnt the first time. One of those types of conversations where someone is indirectly telling you something so you need to read in between the lines. During this conversation, we spoke about people being honest and upfront about things to allow the other person to make a choice on whether or not they want to deal with whatever situation that is presented. We used examples such as, someone being married or a guy being with another guy and how some women are accepting of those things. We both agreed that it wasnt right, well at least I thought we both agreed, until he made this vague statement saying, "Some people have to make choices for you because they know what you will do." Anyway I asked him, is there something you need to tell me, and he goes "is there something you need to tell me". I said "No, you've met my family been to my house, Im pretty much an open book, but you on the other hand, not so much, considering Ive have yet to be invited to youre home. So again, is there something you need to tell me?" He then responded, "No, is there something you need to tell me?" Anyway to make a long story short, I went and did some research online, and found out not only is someone living with him, but this women is possibly his fiancee/wife. After that I became numb, hurt, I spoke highly of him, let him inside my home and I trusted his word. not only do I love this man but Im in love with him. I made a choice to leave him through text because I knew if I answered his call he would try an dominate the conversation. I showed him the evidence, I told him I dont break up happy homes. Shes a Cancer just like me, why would you mislead me and lie to me, when you have everything you need at home?? Of course he took no responsibility for it, blamed it all on me, called me disloyal, messy, silly, and a liar. Told me to never call or text him, I agreed and told him to do the same. He continued to text me mean things, I just responded with ok. Then he sent a text saying he set the whole thing up to keep people away that wouldnt let him be, and he never thought I was one of "those" people. Then he said he loves me, and take care. I

Then he said he loves me, and take care. I knew that he was lying about setting that up, and he probably said it to just save face. Him and I was suppose to be "forever" we had a spiritual, mental, and physical bond beyond belief."......Just wanna say many of you all gave good advice and was very supportive, and I thank you. Some days are good some days arent, Im just going thru the motions. Here I am on here again. :/

Lol so you all just gone leave me hanging—.....well anyway Im better today. 🙂 Falling out of love is a very looooonnnngggg trip down.:/

Posted by IrresistableScorp
He's a dipshit. You are better off without him. If he dares to come back after getting his shit together, make him beg for it. Otherwise, let him go to the great beyond. I mean really? He set this up to keep people away? What a load of complete bollocks. Remember that, he is full of bollocks. Good for you for not letting him get away with that BS. 🙂

If I was in front of you I would give you a big hug! 🙂 Gotta keep that in mind that at the end of the day he summed up how full of shit he is in a matter of a few minutes vs the camouflage he wore for 2 1/2 years.

What Pineapples said! Really, it sounds like you gave your all and the guy threw a curve ball that he should've told you about from the start. This is his problem and he needs to deal with it. I'm sorry you had to go through this.

Posted by lou.m
You need to change your thinking patterns.I think you need to find somewhere to put your passions. Trying doing what you really really love. Do you. Start dating. I think that is really important. If they are circumstances you can't control, then stop trying to fight life and focus on things that you can control. You deserve someone who is great and practical. You will find that person.

Play an association game. An association game is a fancy name for tricking your brain into lumping the person into a category that's bad, or a category you don't like. In the short term, it will help you think about the parts of the person that you don't like rather than those you do. The trick to the association game is just thinking of something bad whenever you think of the person. What's the first thing that pops into your mind when you think of the person you're obsessing over? Probably something good, right? Try thinking of something bad instead.
Whatever is worst about the person in your opinion, focus on it. Don't be mean about, but just drill it into your head, so that whenever you think of him/her, you think of something bad first.

It might not be a true picture of them at all. Infact it might be nothing like this but it will help you.

Create new opportunities and hobbies.Relish in freedom. Meet new people DATE new people.

Change your thoughts.

Sounds like a good solution. Im gonna try this out and see if it works! Thank you much. 🙂