Scorpio moved w/ new GF one day after breakup...

Well obviously she isn't so new and hit bullbutter with them has been happening but since I need to get this off my chest and move on I decided to post my heartache here.

long story short...(if possible)

He's been with me 10 months off and on ..started trying to use me for money so I told his behind that he needed to support himself...throughout the time he has been with me he goes to technical college so that is why I have admired his wanting to "change" his life.

Everything that happens in our relationship that turns out bad is my fault. He has even became suddenly violent this week but to him it was no big deal because I deserved it. So when I told him that because of his tendancy to be physically abusive and not take responsibility in both trying to support himself financially and to own up that him hitting me this past week was wrong then he should pack his things and go. (I live in a complex housing system. Police calls or to many of them will get you evicted in certain matters . We have already had one dispute of him going into a drunken, angered fit in front of my kids.)

The same night of getting his things he came at 2 in the morning screaming and trying to kick down my door. Of course he had been drinking. I would not open the door. He eventually stopped when he knew I was about to call the police .

Days later he came by. Text my phone saying he wanted me to hear him out and wanted to talk things out . I didn't respond. He did the same with an alternative phone. No response on my end. SO...that when he decided to start coming to knock on my door he did so about 5 times the next day. Late that evening I found out that the thing he was kicking and screaming for was a tooth brush...wow!!! But in this text was " I don't know how to act..please bring my toothbrush to my cousin's house I'm not there." I did so and he wasn't but her father was there and he knew something was going on he told me they were fed up with him going in and out, bringing his stuff , etc...etc. We talked I explained to him what was happening. He apologized for what I was going through.

2 days later...Scorp calls me. I decide to answer. He's all apologetic something he usually NEVER does. He says he wants to see me in the middle of the night. I told him if he was sober we could talk but I wouldn't be comfortable with him ...he walked about 10 miles to get to my home. Came in kissed me (NEVER really ever does that).I pull away ..he seems upset that I did. Tear

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tears in his eyes now because he realizes that I really am trying to move on...(blah blah) feeling are still there we end up making love. Next morning things are clear to me I love him but something inside of me still wants to move on because I have not that long got over a previous abusive relationship that lasted 7 years..I'm running major signs in my heads that I overlooked or have completely missed. It hits me ...he see's it still that I don't want to be comfortable with him. I even told him I regret us keeping a connection physically he seemed heartbroken when I did so. I told him I did not want to play games...I'm hurting and confused. He said he understood.

My mom is on her way in the meanwhile to come to get me in the midst of all this she knows what is going on and my kids (not by him) want to go to her house on the weekend. I tell him that I want to think things over and he should too while I was gone. I let him stay in my apartment over the weekend when he ask to..something else he's never done. When I was packing to leave he's about to cry. Hugs me as I am about to walk out the door and starts trying to explain how he feels about the fact that he know he's been hard on me in the past with my anxiety issues..and he see that I have gotten better and have done things that he didn't notice to love him despite everything we've been through. He chokes up . I hug him because he's never done anything like this before and I know how hard it is for him to express his feelings. We decide that he will tell me later because it was getting late and my mom had a long way to drive...

...weekend comes and goes we have continue to talk somewhat on the issues on facebook with him dodging on the conclusion of our decision...arguement start on how his so called friends are trying to play him through me by giving me their phone number &talking about him in the street...and him taking relationship issues outside of the home. Even down the the point of him exaggerating on certain issues about me that he "believes is happening" (btw he's a Venus in Scorp)...mostly about my kids father and me wanting him back. He says he loves me though and wants a clean slate but I tell him he needs to work out a lot more issues with not only me but my kids. He agrees.

I'm getting ready to head back home and start packing I get a call from my kids father who said he wanted to have a talk with Mr. Scorp about previous incident but didn't and that he orignally came by to

see our kids...I asked him why he didn't just talk to him like he claim he would but not to be violent or anything because I couldn't have any problems. He said he wanted me to be at home to address the situation better on the fact he heard that Mr. Scorp had been acting up in front of the kids...(they had told him from the last time he picked them up he had been upset about it before). While he's on the phone, it rings. Mr. Scorp is on the other end letting me know that my kids father came by I told him I was on the phone with him. He says ok. We hang up. I agree to let my kids father to come over if he agree to not argue or get out of hand he agrees. I call Mr. Scorp back let him know that we are on the way home and my kids father wants to talk to him.

Finally get home. Tension is in the air. Mr. Scorp has brought things back to my house and is re-packing. He showers and get fidgets around ..finally until he realizes its almost time for my kids father to arrive. He then comes to me and tells me I sat this whole thing up...blah blah..but every time my kids father comes over he leaves even before we had problems . I tell him that he needs to clean this slate up too because I was in the middle of their issues hearing how they would F each other up and all that but nothing really get solved and numerous times my kids father would come and argue with me just to see if Mr. Scorpio would go off or try to fight but he was never there. He would always leave before pick up time and come right back. I try to explain to him that if we are going to also start out on a clean slate with each other he needs to talk to my kids father ...get issues out that he's had with him and visa versa so that a lot of things would be clear and the tension would ease.

He and my kids father have a little talk. Mr. Scorp comes in the house kisses my kids and walks out the door...My kids father tells me he says "He's done with me. He won't be coming back and he flipped everything on me like it was his fault". Typical. My kid's father also stated that he called him out on having another girl ...

Just so happen he did...he tells me he's now done with me through a text. He has a new girl and he is "playing his xbox on her big flat screen tv " I tell him he's making it all up ....he sends a text message with voice of her replying that "she loves him I dont' wow...so basically she knew about me she even called my name and stated hers...

I feel at a lose of words...

He physically assaualted you in front of your kids....enough said.

how could you let a man like that into the lives of your children......omg, i don't get it!! your duty is surely to them even above yourself. i kinda felt for you until i saw the casual mention of your kids further into your post. fuck it woman...you should've found somewhere else to vent this particular heartache.

if i were you, i would be ASHAMED of myself.