I SUCK

Suck suck suck! I never really consider others feelings... I just think I do but I seem to stomp ahead anyway, I'm unreliable and terribly flaky, rarely am I ever on time, on a subconcious level I expect others to put up with all the above faults, I suspect that I sometimes take advantage always thinking I'll make it up... someday, if not asked directly I won't say, I think I sometimes lead people on... into a brick wall, I drink too much, when I'm stressed out I become grotesquely me-centered... disgustingly so, I never show my appreciation, I hate in others what I am cursed with myself, I make the same mistakes over and over and over and over, how many times can someone apologize for the same thing?! If I even apologize at all. I refuse to hear it, I shut off, I frustrate others, I am suspicious and sometimes paranoid... I'm sure there's more... a lot more... I am flaw-ridden, I pinpoint them all the time... at the very moment they make an appearance... and worse even, I can't change 'em... what a horrible week, what an ugly soul I have been... I'm going to sleep... sleeeeeeeeeeepppppppp sleep sleep

Thou shalt not wallow in self hatred Chica Taurina.. give it some time, it not the end of the world.. yet :-)

Take it from the model cancer that is myself.. if you don't love and respect yourself.. who will? Now where are those horns?

There is no point in blaming yourself over things that you do not understand. That happens to all of us. Move on and try to learn something.

Uh oh!!!! 😢 Now Now RP (aka TC, I know who you are 🙂) Calm down lady -- at least you are honest about your faults and not trying to sugarcoat them.

Why it that cappies and bull ladies are so hard on themselves :S We not that different really (contrary to what others may think 😛) -- one loves to work themselves until they are sick and they other likes to buy many pretty things 🙂

Well, I actually have a few rants about myself too but I can't do it at the moment ;-;

You feel like hell once you admit certain things about yourself but after reflecting alittle, you do and will feel better.

Also, some things about ourselves is just part of our personality (like it or not) but other areas can be improved.

People usually know what areas they need to work on, those that refuse to acknowledge their faults and those who refrain from improving "toxic" qualities are usually in deep denial -- these people often need a brick to the head in order for them to wake up and smell the coffee 😉

Luckly you're not like that 🙂 🙂 🙂

" Luckly you're not like that "

So, are you implying on that we suck more than she does?

Omg, you're Tauruschic?!!? Damn girl, why did you get rid of your other one? You know how us Tauruses don't like change.. ;P

Haha, but I'm just kidding.. RainingPeanuts is an adorable name.

But seriously, don't be so hard on yourself. To tell you the truth, you're one of my favorite people on here. And I don't usually like Tauruses, but you're such a perky little thing! I love people with energy, and you're definitely one of them.

Just promise me that you'll take care of yourself, sweetie, and start thinking positively. The best way to feel better is to forgive yourself; no one is being hard on yourself except for you. If you love yourself, nothing else in the world can bring you down. Everyone has faults; admitting them is a huge step closer to reaching ultimate understanding. Just keep your head up high and you'll be going down the right path. I believe in you, hun..

And looking not only on what you have but on what you might have, also gives you some perspective. Without perspective, no human being can live.

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All my favorite people on dxp said I don't suck! Woooooohoo!

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Thank you all for your sweet comments...

http://www.glitter-graphics.com title='Myspace Graphics'> ...... Ok this one's for you and you and you and YOU and then you and yes you too, come here... and even you! lol

Well this is about 4 days too late so I won't even try. Mush and hugs??

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHH RP 🙂

Thank yoouuuuuu!!!! ^_^. That means that I don't suck YAY!!!! 🙂

" 🙂 "

*pokes aguagi in the arm* 😛


"Well this is about 4 days too late so I won't even try. Mush and hugs??"

- Handshake and a hundred bucks— .... lol alright alright *gives purrrfect a quick hug* 😛


"Thank yoouuuuuu!!!! ^_^. That means that I don't suck YAY!!!!"

- Well of course not, the only way you would ever suck... is on a lollipop 🙂 lol


"oh quit fishing for compliments"

- Not directly in response to your ogre-y attitude... First of all, I was venting in a way, and second, if anything... I actually started to wonder what kind of insulting responses were posted when I saw there had been responses, it's DXP after all! Nice to see that not everyone here is an ayholl...


"you've all lost your god damn minds"

-Outrageous! Are you implying that yours is intact?! ... who would have guessed...

" 🙂 "

*pokes aguagi in the arm* 😛


"Well this is about 4 days too late so I won't even try. Mush and hugs??"

- Handshake and a hundred bucks— .... lol alright alright *gives purrrfect a quick hug* 😛


"Thank yoouuuuuu!!!! ^_^. That means that I don't suck YAY!!!!"

- Well of course not, the only way you would ever suck... is on a lollipop 🙂 lol


"oh quit fishing for compliments"

- Not directly in response to your ogre-y attitude... First of all, I was venting in a way, and second, if anything... I actually started to wonder what kind of insulting responses were posted when I saw there had been responses, it's DXP after all! Nice to see that not everyone here is an ayholl...


"you've all lost your god damn minds"

-Outrageous! Are you implying that yours is intact?! ... who would have guessed...

*gives purrrfect a quick hug*

You MUST be feeling better lol! Aw *quick hug back*

::quietly reclaims stolen $ 100 bill out of tcs back pocket::

Raining Peanutz,

WHO'S NOT TERRIBLY FLAKY?!?!?! Name one person who is 'consistenly' reliable and dependable!....You can't can you? Well that's in part to the cards/circumstances that we are given; things come up, plans change, things generally just happen, and on the fly!!. You really sound like a ARIES....which is cool in it's own right....but you sound like me! I'm flaky, irresponsible at times, TARDY AS HELL!! lol 😉 impulsive, risk-taking, self-centered, and a Virgo, but ABOVE ALL.....human. You're just plain human RP, and why do you give yourself such a hard time about it? People can look past these mistakes, becuase nobody's shit smells like roses anyway, so why waste time gettin' down on your luck, when you already realize the issuses, and have the ability to change them? I look past the smart-mouth ass-hole people 'pretend' to be and look for the polished surface....the real person inside....flaws can be considered only in the face of the disharmonics/harmonics they may bring you, and what you may or may not need....face it RP, you're human!! 😉

"I look past the smart-mouth ass-hole people 'pretend' to be and look for the polished surface....the real person inside....flaws can be considered only in the face of the disharmonics/harmonics they may bring you"

- I got a little lost there but I like ya... you sound a lot like me 😉 I think I'm the same way as you about others as well, I'm not so bothered by ppls flaws either. Not huge ones atleast.

I don't know if I give myself such a hard time, I just feel bad when I hurt someone who doesn't deserve it... which is really what happened here... that is, until they annoyed me altogether! lol It's kinda like when you're sad, then all of a sudden you're sad about ALL the sad things you've gone through in your WHOLLLLLE life... that's kinda what happened here.

I like who I am, I enjoy being who I am. When I was younger I was bent on being an ideal person, I had an image of what I should be like and I was very rigid and restrictive with myself. I felt one way but thought I shouldn't feel that way, I thought that being a 'good' person was being a bigger person... which it is, but I battled too many demons... it's like I felt one way but I fought myself... As I got older I said to hell with that! Not altogether, but I did find acceptance and I became happier with myself... you can't fight your nature, it will make you unhappy... if anything, it's better to recognize your bad points and make some adjustments...

What I was talking about was mainly in my personal life. That is because I don't have a need to be around people and when others seek me out and make demands on me it stresses me out. I don't want to talk to them, I don't want to see them... my main thing is: Leave me alone! I'm a loner and I like it that way. Don't get me wrong, I'm there for a friend when they need me 24/7 if need be, I will push and shove and help someone until they get there if they let me... but other than that, if it's not important I don't want to be bothered... except on weekends... party time... trips or anything fun 😉 But don't call me, I'll call you lol

Anyway, thanx for your wonderful insight VE... you krazy human you *pats you on the back* heheeehhe

😉