Damned If You Do Or Don't

Do any of you other Virgos feel like no matter how hard you try, sh.it just keeps on happening? Yet, when you just ignore duties (as much as we CAN ignore them--I know that's something that will kill us, mentally, to just let important matters slide...) you have all the luck in the world?

There have been a few Saturday mornings I had so many things I needed to do, and found a way (sleep, lol) to close off my mind and say fukitall. Somehow, someway, all the things I needed to do worked themselves out without my help; I saved time, money, and effort. I was even around for great things to happen (friends I haven't spoken to in forever dropping by--visits I would have missed had I gone out. Having a friend happen to call me and offer to take me out to breakfast or lunch or surprise shopping sprees (because they came into sudden money: lotto), on them! Missing out on driving through a sudden HORRIBLE rain/snow storm that the weatherman didn't even see coming, etc.)

But those mornings where I set out to do tasks and had everything in order, categorized, money saved up for, etc., everything on God's green earth went wrong, just everything: I get stuck in traffic after some speeding tractor trailer decided a curve-roaded highway was the BEST place to re-inact Indy500 and sh.it, or I get told "oh yeah, this won't take long at all--maybe half-an-hour?" by the mechanic, and end up walking into work crazy late, 2 HOURS late (like this fu.cking morning); worst part? I went in for my inspection sticker last month, and SPECIFICALLY told those fuktards that I really needed the brakes to be looked over, and they assured me everything was fine (said I was being paranoid)--and even after I told them that I had the money at the time, and the TIME, and this was the TIME to get them done, they told me to come back later in the year. Well, here I am all of 1 month later, and they're like "oh yeah, your back cylinder's leakin', and the shoe's cracked, and the front tires are 90% worn..."

Co.cksucking piece of shi.its! I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT! WTF?! I could see if I neglected to check them, I could see if I was told "oh wow--yeah, miss, you need new brakes" and I was like "naaaaaah, fek em, just give me an oil change. Chop chop!" But I actually spoke up and practically begged for new brakes, only to be punished later as if I neglected them.

UGH, this is one sh.itty fu.cking Friday so far...

*Sorry, not front tires, front brakes 90% worn*

Honestly, it just sounds like you're having a rough week, and even then, I can assure you that something positive is going to come along; it all depends on how you view this change and how you decide to take it. It doesn't necessarily mean all things will go right; if that was life, we'd all be a fucking can of peaches. But, you have a roof over your shoulders, and every now and then, you're going to have a happier moment. I mean, I rarely pay attention to the swing of things now-a-days. When I do something in all ways right, I know that things are either going to go easier for me until the next task comes up, or something else will prove itself to be a challenge. I either face it head on or allow it to crush me. Usually the former after a few days of moping because the way my life goes, I don't necessarily get a "get out of jail" pass. When you've dealt with depression for a number of years, it all becomes the same after a while. So finding ways to say "fuck it" and keep moving on is usually how I approach things (at least 75% of the time).

Thanks, Candeh
I'm sitting here, trying to mellow down, looking at lolkitteh pics...it's working...slowly, but surely.

I mean, thank God that I'm able to afford this lil $ 400.00 "gift", I remember back when I wouldn't have known what to do...

It's not the end of the world, I know that, and thankfully I was "paranoid" enough to bring it back and tell them to check again and give me written proof that my brakes are fine, so that if I get into an accident because they give out, my family knows who to sue in order to pay for my funeral.

I can't wait until this retrograde is over. Not to say I think a "we can haz happy now" lightswitch is gonna flick on on the 13th, but sh.it, it's gotta make a diff.

Thankfully I'm spending tomorrow getting internal massages from Mr. Taurus.

Yes...I shall think on that...that helps.

*slowly smiles*

Thanks again--I just needed to vent.

It's okay, hun. Everyone needs to vent every now and then (I don't do it enough, unfortunately, lol). Just keep focusing on what you know you have coming for you instead of future occurrences; you're going to drive yourself crazy that way.

The whole car situation I spoke about earlier, when I broke down in heavy traffic at midnight on a highway, could have all been avoided had it not been for my mother's ex boyfriend. We may have been down almost $ 700 which could have been used for my tuition, but the way I see it now, my car is better than before, and I don't have to worry about breaking down in the middle of nowhere again on my own. lol there is a small bright side to almost everything, but it depends on how you view it lol (and I'm one hell of a realist, so coming from me, that's almost too optimistic).

You know--people always say that women are so negligent when it comes to vehicles, and I'm finding more and more that it's men's egos and their "naaaah, you'll be fine" attitudes that are putting people behind the wheel on the road at risk.

Daaaamn, $ 700?? Jeez.

I'm glad you're okay though--damn him to hell for putting you in that position. I hope ya'll contacted him to tell him what he helped cause, make his ass feel guilty. That's a scary ass situation, for a young girl to be in no less!

smfh.

I know what you mean about being a realist--I'm one as well (more pessimistic when it comes to myself, and more optimistic when it comes to others); if a friend had come to me and told me this story, I woulda smiled and said "well, you're all set on brakes now! You're lucky, so many other people need them and just can't afford 'em". But saying that to myself...it sucks monkeyballs, lmfao!

I can't take my own advice, I admit it.

Posted by PandorasBox
Hope things get better for ya CL!! *huggles* I can't wait for happyhour!!

aww, thx 🙂 They're looking up already

yay happy hour!!

Posted by wgamador
When I feel truly shitty for more than an hour....i think about how many other people woke up today without the ability to see or those who are confined to wheelchairs.....and I look at myself in the mirror and say....
"If this issue in front of me is the biggest thorn i have to face today....then Im on the winning side of life."

That was beautiful.

Yeah, it's just ranting on my end. I know I'm lucky, I really am thankful--just stressed.

Posted by PandorasBox
I have to remind myself to breath sometimes =/

Unacceptable.

Awww, lol.

3 DAY WEEKEND FTMFW!!!

holy sh.it...

yeah, I can't imagine how scary that is

and thanks, boo boo 🙂

LOL! What was wrong with it??

a couple weeks ago, i spent 2k to fix my car's a/c and have a couple fluid changes that were due. cars cost money. oh well. probably wouldn't have had to fix the a/c if i hadn't been in an accident a month earlier, when someone else ran a red light. at least the cosmetic stuff got covered. didn't notice the a/c problem til i got the car back from the shop and had signed insurance papers. oh well.

all in all though, i think i'm pretty lucky. things usually work out pretty well for me. though, i can say for a fact that they'd go better if i actually tried. except with work. i always make more money when i don't try as hard and i'm all chill.

read the bhagavad gita (i think sorti's mentioned eastern philosophy on many occasions as being good for virgos, and i agree). it's all about just doing what you're supposed to do and trusting that whatever happens is what's meant to happen, that you can't really control much of anything.