Am I the only Aqua who. . .

Just feels so lonely,in the world?

I feel the only person that truly "gets" me,is my Taurus mother,with her Aqua moon & my Aqua father,with Pisces moon.Yet,they are withdrawn just like me.

So we only connect on a mental level.

I never really feel,like I am connecting to people on a emotional level.Even when I completely understand them and their nature.I only ever feel emotionally connected when I am high,YES on weed.
🙂

But even then,I know deep down inside it's just the drugs.

When I try to connect with people on an emotional level,it always blows up in my face.I either end up getting played for the fool or manipulated some how.Yet,I forgive these same people each time.When I try to be emotionally available,I confuse people,even to a point of scaring them sometimes,becoz I have weird emotional patterns when I let my guard down.

I tire of the mental plane that I live on,yet I love it becoz it's where I feel safe.At the same time,it gets to be cold being so emotionally distant from everyone around you.Sometimes,I cringe just little inside when I know I can never really be in "moments" that involve the more "warmer" types.Do any of you Aqua's feel what I am saying?

Know that you aren't alone. You know feeling alone along with how well we disconnect and become aloof? Well, it sort of holds us back from connecting. Judging by your pic you are a lightworker too. You are right that only you know you the best. It takes a special kind of person to let us emotionally connect.

I need to explain this too you, but I'm not sure you can understand since my descriptions can fly over peoples heads at times.
Anyway, we have a strict set of rules for ourselves, but lack boundaries and boarders to protect us.
The weird patterns should diminish as you give yourself a different set of rules and make it easier for you to shift.
Find methods that work for you, not because someone said so.
Learn to draw the line so-to speak.
Pay attention to yourself, to others, and recognize the red flags.
Listen to yourself and don't mistake the deep sinking feeling in your gut for gas.
Learn how to read yourself. Remember, Action not Reaction.
Learn how to "read" others - look at there body language, note their tone of voice, listen to their words, the word usage, the sentence structure, their stance. Close your eyes and feel the energy they give off (positive/negative)
Discover your love language.
If you find yourself asking questions about someone in the back of your head, something may not be right in the relationship.
Keep your friend circle small and special.
Maybe try being a friend to any date material first to see how it goes.
Don't be afraid to test them during that time.
Don't rush but take too long either because the friend zone tends to creep up.
Remember the reverse psychology your parents used on you when you were a kid? Learn to utilize it in a good way.
Weed takes the edge off a lot of things and helps you focus... just don't overdo it and remember it's only legal until you get caught =p

Posted by DeadRingerr
Aqua's, always answering their own questions..lol

yep, normally answer the question in our own question LOL but it's always nice to hear you aren't alone.

I would have to agree with Aquaquinn, especially learining to listen to yourself.

Have you considered practing Yoga?

I get what u mean dunce and ur not alone. I've felt like how u just explained for as long as i cant remember. I grew up feeling different, not special, just different (i cant explain it). As a child i used to be by myself reading comics, not into playing with other kids (had only 1 childhood friend). It got better in my teens, i made a handful of friends, only 2 i kept into adulthood. But now its worse, i want to be left alone most of the time. Tbh i kind of like it, less friends- less problems.

If you're taking weeds, you need to stop, it will change.
If you're taking cocain, you need to stop, it will change.

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Stop using things that you think will stimulate your senses and improves the life you think boring. Just get out. Do something. Whatever it is, just do it. Don't be afraid and hide just because you get hurt. Through all the pain, hurt and betrayals, you grow wiser and stronger. It gets easier and life becomes more interesting. It isn't about to find someone who know who you are and recognise you or to protect you and shelter you from life. Life is meant to be experienced and savoured. You need a purpose and you will see things differently. Just find one.

I don't think so: one astrologer (may have been Linda Goodman?) once said that Virgos and Aquarians both feel from an early age as though they are aliens exiled from another planet. I am a Virgo and I have always felt as though I am, and I recently started a conversation on the Virgo boards about feeling like an alien and have had some endorsement and confirmation from other Virgos. This is one thing that our two signs have in common. I admit though that Virgos and Aquarians cannot have come from the same planet as each other!

Perhaps my feelings of "alienation" are intensified by having the Moon in Aquarius!