feelingfishy
@feelingfishy
19 Years
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My Aqua male friend and I used to see each other all the time last year. I moved away from him 6 months ago, so ever since he's been visiting me once a month.
Tomorrow he's moving away for the summer. Like really far, so our monthly visits will cease. He's been in my town for the past couple of days and I wanted to see him. I left him a message and he called me back. He called APOLOGIZING that he hadn't called me because he's been busy with the move, but could see me tonight. (I didn't expect an apology. I didn't think Aquas ever apologize for not calling someone.)
Anyway, he came over tonight. But I met him outside of my house, because it's been humid. We started talking and he stood like 8 feet away from me. Basically we spent 45 minutes playing "What's going on in your life?" and then he left because he had an early flight. However, he did give me the best hug ever, as in he initiated it, not me! (yay)
BUT I THINK I MISSED THE SIGNAL.
And of course I didn't think about it until after he left left.
In between the conversations, during the silence, I gave him one of my big smiles with big eyes look. I know it makes him uncomfortable, but I like doing it because sometimes it's the only emotions I get out him (hahaa). So he looks at me, looks away, and then says "What's so funny?" and I said "Nothing, nothing at all" mysteriously-Pisces-like of course. And then he suddenly said "Do you want us to go inside?".
And then I explain it's really hot inside blah blah. Our conversation continued and then he left.
BUT DAMN - I should have let him in my house! I think our night could have been a little longer. I feel real stupid about this now. I don't even know why I regret this (must be my fishy feelings).
So in the end, I still adore him so much, because he makes me sooooo happy. And I'm going to miss him sooooo much. I'll do my best to continue our friendship. I'll still wait to be maybe more than friends. I don't even care if I'm his "girlfriend" or not. Since, I know he's never had a serious relationship, I don't expect much. He does care for me. I just someday want to hold his hand and kiss his cheek. I haven't done any of that because I'm scared of him freaking out.
And don't tell me I'm mushy! I know this... I'm a Pisces, I can't help it!