I am a neurotic aquarian

Hi y'all. This is open to everyone. In recent months I have been facing up to just how neurotic an individual I am. I'm nearing 30. I wanna change. I wanna move, progress, stop being a rigid bridgid (yes I did mean rigid). But how? I possess all the typical aquarian traits including humanitarian, friendly, prone to outrageous imulses. Unfortunately too I subscribe to the less attractive qualities of spending too much time in my head, being more tolerant in theory than in practice, and sadly, after blowing a lot of steam, lacking confidence when and where it counts and being a walk over.

As I recall it being said about the aquarian personality somewhere, they can be a creature of contradiction. In my case, I have rigid tendencies and yet I can be scatty and inconsistent. For example I might decide on a sensible course action as regards work or life style and then a few days later I will do something that goes in complete opposition to any of my plans and for no patricular reason. This leads to me feeling undermined by myself and then at times to feeling almost shizoid, like there is another personality within myself that is thwarting all my efforts. This would fit in with the other aquarianism of there being a lot of lunatics in this zodiac bunch.

But I wanna break free. I dunno how. I have made a few bold attempts in the past that have fizzled out. But I wanna try again. Based on my my scanty intro any ideas how?

I say give yourself some more growing up time, as an Aquarian I find that most of us are late bloomers. There are also extervert and intervert Aquarians and makes a great difference in how you relate to people, situations, and making decisions. I'm an intervert, unlike what I've read about Aquarians I do not join groups with banners marching for pro/con issues, although I have strong opinions on issues. I tend not to like crowds, have few but loyal friends. I find that as I have gotten older I tend not to be so inconsistent, although being inconsistent can be a good thing, like not being a follower or a leader, but just being and individual and feeling good about it. I like to think that I'm an objective person, not just objective with other's ways of thinking but of my own thinking, as well. It has taken me some years to finally allow myself to change my mind about whatever, without beating myself up. I am not perfect and neither is anyone else. Its okay to make plans, but me flexible because you never know what like has in store.

That last sentence should read: "Its okay to make plans, but be flexible because you never know what life has in store." Also, don't be so hard on yourself.

I agree with waterbearer. It seems that I was like you in my 20-30's also. Around 30-35 I started to feel better and more confident of myself. I started feeling that what I did was for me and not for the rest of the world. And if I changed my mind that was ok too! I do that a lot! Around 40 I started to mature. Started to have more tolerance for the "lesser" group of people around me! Lawd, that doesn't sound right, I know. But sometimes I feel superior to other people. I have a good male friend that is Aquarian also and says he feels the same way! Oh well!! We don't mean to be. It just seems that whatever I do or say is just so much more "right" than what other people would do! It's a natural instinct, I think!

Got off on the wrong track there, but just know that it does get better!

mindy

msmindy, Hi

I find that when I'm around certain types of people and observe behavior and listen to conversations I do (tongue in cheek) think I operate on a higher plain. It doesn't matter if they are highly cultured, wealthy or educated. I may go totally against conventional or traditional action or make my decisions based on my needs and not what others think my needs are or should be, however I'm not selfish. I do give freely to those whose nature is honest and sincere my knowledge acquired from education and life experiences. I may never see that person again but I know I've touched them.

Thanks a lot for your comments. It's interesting to hear other aquarian's opinions. With regard to what you both said, isn't the aquarian catchphrase "I know"! Yeah I guess I share this trait in a way. Especially when I feel I grasp a situation, normally in a practical sense, faster than others who need it to be explained step by step. However in educational and academic matters I think I would be on a paar or even a little behind the pack. I'm like that when things need to be follwed in a mainstream way but I'm good at finding shortcuts for other matters in the practical day-today field.

waterbearer,

we sound so much alike! I have friends that are hardcore fishermen and others that are so high class most people can't stand them! I also have friends that are tobacco farmers and $ rich $ but don't give a hoot. It's all personality to me. And, I'll tell you something else, my friends are my family. My family has gone to hell in a handbasket since the death of my mother in 1999. They've hurt me and are no longer a part of my life. But my friends, now there I will always find the love and understanding that should come from a family. I will also find the kick in the rear when I need it too!!

MellowDee, I KNOW!!! I say it all the time!!! hehe And I agree on the academic side of things. I can do the work, but can I apply? Not really! I'm 46 and still going to college!!! Still haven't got even a 2 year degree. Get bored. So I stop. And yes! Must always find shortcuts for ways of doing things, but like you said, I can't keep my mind on one thing or another for too long! I keep thinking I need to see the Doc about ADD or something!!

Hi Ms mindy, ADD is a disorder. We naturaly show symtoms of it, no medicine can help the truth, we dont have ADD, we are ADD. To me, its more like complications of a wacky genius. We are make it or break it beings. We are perfectionists and if we dont get it right we DONT GIVE UP. ""New rules= Aquqrians are not to give up. In this age ( age of aquarius) we have a responcibility, and that is no option. An aquarian will be the savior of a major upcomming issue. I have a feeling it will be the aquarian who is most in tune with themself. Why, you ask. Because were a contagous sighn, no other sighn has the trait. He or she will give a logical reason but on top of that... spread the aquarian goodness to the opposing force, during the time of communication he or she will make THEM want what our goal is. Wich is what— The best for everybody or as most fair as possible. As close as to perfect as we can think. We are the goal tenders, the last position on the team, essential for the team. There is no I in we. Why are ants the strongest living thing on earth?

Love the way you put that sparrow.Aqurians are the sh!t and you for one actually know it.

Wow Sparrow! I loved your answer! So right on!! Thanks!
mindy