What might THIS mean. . . ?

Ok - so - this might be just a LITTLE too much TMI for some, so I apologize in advance if it is. The response I've gotten to this "situation" is just a bit baffling to me, so I thought I would ask for some insight. I'm not UPSET by this in the least. . . just kinda scratching my head and saying "Huh??"

So, "Mr-Aqua-I'm-Reconnecting-With-After-15-years", who I've been talking to several times a day for more than the last month, with whom I had a VERY physical relationship in the past, asked the other day if I would send him some "pictures." NOTHING NUDE - just some "nice" shots (tattoo on my back, ect) And so I happily oblidged, cuz frankly - I'm a fun-loving, and slightly bent, person. And because yes, I HAVE changed in the last 15 years, with a baby having been born, and want to make sure he's "all good" with what he's getting!

He HASN'T LOOKED AT THEM!!!! IT BEEN MORE THAN A WEEK!!! LMAO (So much for Cancers being PATIENT huh??)

Sooo. . . I'm sitting here asking myself, "Does he feel bad for asking and regrets it?" "Is he afriad to blow some mental image / fantasy image he has?" "Or afraid of undoing the great (well, hopefully great) memory that he has in his head?" He mentions all the time what a "good girl" I am, so maybe he's afraid of seeing me in some other light? (which is hard to believe with some of the filthy things that come out of the boys mouth!! Hahahaha) (It's not ALL filthy though - most of it is downright sweet, I should probably really claify that)! Maybe he's just rethinking the whole idea and would rather wait to actually SEE me? (that might be more of a romantic stretch than


I just don't get it!! Again, I'm not all "upset" by it - not in the least. I'm just confused as to what might be in his poor messed up head!! I said to him yesterday (playfully), "You know, I'm starting to think you don't want to actually LOOK at those pics you asked for," and his response was "No silly - of course I want to SEE you! I just keep getting locked out of my account, don't worry, I'll get to it." Now - I DO think that Aqua's in general tend to be pretty honest people, so I'm trying to totally believe on this one. . . but somehow I think it might be something stuck in his craw. . . feels like a rather weak "excuse."

Oh - and just as an update - we were planning to see eac other in Oct, but that has been moved up to HOPEFULLY the weekend of Aug 29. I'll be holding my breath til his cutie-patootie is ON the airplane!! Hahahahaha

Hmmm, i have no idea what that might mean. all i can say is that aquas are strange strange strange creatures lol

I think he really is being locked out of his account and honestly....they can only focus on one thing at a time, so more than likely that's not being a priority - but not in the sense that he doesnt' want to see them. They're curious by nature - trust me he wants to see them he just hasn't got round to getting his account sorted out yet.

"I'm just confused as to what might be in his poor messed up head!!"

"I think it might be something stuck in his craw. . . feels like a rather weak "excuse."



Question: Why did you two break up 15 years ago? What was the cause?

P-Angel : Our breakup. . . I'd call it more of a "fade-out." We were in high school. I was a senior, he was a junior. He was in a group home for kids with messed up families. We would steal kisses in the hallways, and skip classes for heavy petting under the bleachers and various other "secret" places of school (yes, we were both TOTAL trouble-makers, and nobody could keep us apart. We were always touching, always making eye contact, always inseperable). He got sent to another home just before my graduation. We continued to write to each other for about a year or so, what I guess you would call silly HS love-letters, with plans to run away and get married, and have children, and silly romantic dreams of such. Eventually, I went off to college (I waited a year after graduation to go to school). At the same time, he relocated again. We lost touch with each other. My life went down one path, his went down another. We both changed out circle of friends, and so therefore had none of the same contacts anymore. He contacted my family back then (which I actually found out from my younger sister a few months ago - just before he found me, actually,) but my family wouldn't tell him how to get in touch with me (I have a BAD relationship with my family).

Sooo. . . the years go by, and one day, low and behold, he finds me online. Gotta love myspace! I've looked for him in the past too, but never found him. His past has been crazy, lots of women, lots of partying, lots of trouble, but has calmed down in the past few years. Mine has been pretty boring and mundane. An unhappy marriage that died, and now have a child. We are 1800 miles apart. He says that he has always wondered about me through the years, - if I ended up being the "starving artist" (because I was really into art in HS)- always wondered if I was happy, if I was married, if I was a mom by now, ect ect. And through the years I've always wondered about him - whatever became of that crazy-a $ $ boy who had such a huge piece of my heart back then - wondered if he was ok, wondered if he was happy, wondered what he ever made of his life. As silly as it sounds, I've always felt like he knew me better than anyone, and having lost that, I felt I lost a piece of myself. This "re-connection" that we have going on, totally unexpected, intense, and yet, it feels SO natural.
Silly, romatic, crazy, . . . probably more crazy than anything else!!!! 🙂

UC - - you've said that before! 🙂 Care to elaborate on that? Or is it just a "feeling"? I've been in the "proceed with caution mode" since day 1, because - frankly - this boy could totally devestate my heart, I fear. I know MY reasons for feeling that way. . . just wondering what yours might be?? 🙂

your story is so similar to mine that its unreal..except i just finished high school noo kids for me lol! but me and my aqua dont talk for a few years then that curiousity kicks up again,mine is a trouble maker too...but like u said sometimes its like hes the only one who understands me!...anywho my advice on your situation is just see what happens ...dont worry about him seeing the pictures or not and dont bother him with the lil joke either they always get what u mean behind it anyways.But keep up the communication cuz even if the meeting ends up late im sure it will happen.

Thanks CL and Aqua-God. . . I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt - this time! *muah-ha-ha-ha* Things have been just going along, one day at a time. Lots and lots of great phone calls, with an official countdown to Aug. 29th going on. We shall see. . . only time will tell! 🙂

This is really strange my Aqua was a complete troublemaker aswell...like really bad...is it common? and is that part of wat makes them so sexy i wonder?!?!

This is really strange my Aqua was a complete troublemaker aswell...like really bad...is it common? and is that part of wat makes them so sexy i wonder?!?!

>>MINE WAS BAAAADDDD. hahahahahah maybe so maybe so..