I have been friends with an aqua guy for about 3 years of and on. We work at the same place and in the beginning we talked in passing nothing meaningful and then he moved out of state for a while. when he came back he resumed his job with the same company and we work together again. This time I didn't catch it right away but after a while I caught on he was watching me and observing me like I was some kind of science project. Eventually we started talking more and spending breaks and lunches talking. The conversations started to take on a more erotic tone and we were flirting all the time. I told him he could submit his resume and I would revue it which really seemed to spark his curiousity. He replied with a very erotic resume listing his skills if you know what I mean. Anyway I was in a very unhappy relationship at the time and I was honest with him that the only reason I was staying with him was for my daughter (which aqua didn't understand, said it would never work and he was right) The relationship with my ex got so bad I told him we were done and I was there for the kids only and wanted nothing more to do with him. Which kind of opened the door a little more concerning the aqua I was spending my time with. We eventually started fooling around, he is the most amazing lover I have ever had. When I eventually left my ex I bought a home and moved in, the following weekend my aqua guy was coming to stay the weekend with me. It was so amazing. It's been about 8 months and we both agreed we dont want a relationship and we're both free to see who we want its a friends w/benefits situation. He has been with two other women one being my sister, the other a woman we worked with and neither of them lasted more than a couple of weeks and he comes back to me. He says I am the only person he knows that is real and has sense. He says he respects me and he cares about me. I really enjoy hanging out with him and we are really good friends he has never lied to me which I respect him alot for. Although we are in this friends w/benefits thing it sometimes seems like more but I know better. I do have feelings for him and I dont think I am ready for a relationship either but I really don't know what to make of this guy. the longer I hang out with him the more attached I seem to feel. I dont' want to feel this way especially about someone that could never have feeling for me. We had talked about living together to share the expenses and it never seemed to pan out he would get scared and back out and I got to the point I just didn't believe him and it wasnt me bring up the idea any more it was him but he could never see it through. I made my mind up even if he did want to move in I wouldnt let him. One weekend he was at the house and brought up the subject i basically didnt even give it any consideration at all and told him I didnt care what he did because he never seen thing through on that subject anyway and it wasnt worth me talking about. The next thing I know he said he had to go to the store and run a couple of arrands he would be back later. Well when he came back he had all of his things loaded in the car. He moved in and has been there for almost 2 months now all the while talking about when he can move and where he's moving and in all honesty I didnt think he would stay as long as he has. He has went from i'm moving in a couple of months to beginning of next year back to two month from now. I am at my wits end trying to figure out what he's doing next because I dont think he does. I like him alot and I care for him deeply but I dont think he could ever feel anything for me. Am I being a fool for offering my unconditional friendship. He does so many nice things for me he pays his own way and we have fun together but I dont want to get attached to someone that will never feel anything for me. Am I fooling my self?
