
Still holding on to the cap ex and really can't help it he lives less than five feet away from my room. I can't wait to move out because it's an interference with potential relationships. He says I'm the only one for him but still has female friends that he conversates with. This situation that I am in is complicated because I have to refer to him as a next door neighbor even though he has access to the front part of the house. Treetrunking ridiculous it seems but we are friends I have to maintain peace within myself because in the past I let everything bother me. When I let go of the anger I had for him I realized I need to focus on myself and he ways manages to keep himself within my prescence. It seems kind of like a stalker life he lives for me but maybe he really does consider me to be the one. I just refuse to go backwards.




