Chiron Conjunct Moon

Anyone know what this could entail exactly? 🙂 It's all in Cancer 12th house.

I have this. difficult aspect.

When Chiron is attached to the Moon, either in the natal chart or via synastry, the Moon’s natural need to be fed, cherished and securely attached is never satisfied. We learn early on that the manifest world is not our refuge. It is replaced by an endless hunger that rarely abates until later life, and which can be easily re-stoked by circumstance. If we have the aspect in the natal chart, we are born with the sense that nothing is secure, but we make sad attempts to make ourselves secure anyway. These attempts are doomed to failure: any attempt at finding personal security in manifest reality, including ‘other’ is folly. And yet the hunger doesn’t go away. How we cope with the hunger defines our character. At first, this hunger represents our need for security, but as time goes on we become aware that something else is calling to us.

Chiron/Moon, more than any other aspect of Chiron, is prone to be the outsider, the ‘other.’ Chiron/Moon children, especially, are often the scapegoats on the block. We come into this world with the sense of not fitting in, something is ‘wrong’ with us. We may try to isolate ourselves from experience, but the hungry Moon keeps drawing us back into ordinary life again, only to tell us that we don’t belong (again). Attempts to try to fit in are also doomed. We know deep in our bones that we are not like ‘them,’ and yet are hard pressed to know why.

The Moon also represents our physical being, and Chiron/Moon people often have difficulties with the whole concept of being embodied. Again, there is the sense that something is wrong with them, something is preventing them from being ‘normal.’ Often, Chiron/Moon people have some kind of physical issue that stamps them as different, and often we feel it first when we are very young: too fat, too thin, limb deformities, skin markings, or something else that those little fascists otherwise known as children deem unusual and ripe for culling. Hair too curly, hair too straight, anything can cause a psychic wound with Chiron/Moon. This is only the beginning of a life long battle with the material/manifest world itself.

What Chiron/Moon eventually comes to understand is that the physical world is not the opposite of the divine world—the two are one. This awareness often comes after a lifetime of struggle with manifest reality and sometimes the body itself. Often, the breakthrough periods come when Chiron makes the squares and the opposition to itself. This can happen at different times for each of us, due to Chiron’s erratic orbit. These are the times that we realize that we are not the outsiders, but the ultimate insiders. We see things that others don’t see, hear things that others don’t hear, know things that others don’t know.

I had a post on it before. we are forever emotionally hungry/never satisfied emotionally. until we come to terms with it

That's actually amazing. What you've written basically sums up my life.. I've always felt safe at home, though, and actually prefer travel and inconsistency to permanent bases/places, but yes, I've always felt like the odd one out - even though I've been perfectly normal. I didn't connect with anyone as a child and barely started making real friendships at 16. Always felt there's something different about my feelings compared to others, and highly sensitive and intuitive compared to them. It's been so weird. That alien feelings has literally always stuck by me, and though I have a very rich inner life, and have grown more confident, I still feel "different."

I often experience strange sort of revelations about life, as if I can see our whole world so clearly, like a major perspective - but then it leaves and I'm left feeling there's something wrong with me for even feeling that! Gosh... And yes, I def had the feeling mom was tired of being a mother, and probably wanted more independence for herself. Thank you both for great answers