Astrology's role in the biggest decision of my life

Warning: Blog/long post.

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Last Friday, I got a call on my day off from my boss asking to meet. I asked him what was so urgent that it could not wait until Monday, and he responded telling me that it could not be discussed over the phone or text, and we needed to meet. I met with him for lunch, and he let me know that operations in the US are going to shut down and a big layoff was coming. Because I am the planner for operations, they cannot justify my overhead and salary with the amount of labor hours to remain. However, they place a great amount of value in me, and knowing I am not married, or have no kids, and am not a home owner, I was asked to move to Arizona to resume my position at the other facility where everything is going. The company has hundreds of hours in purchase orders back logged, and basically are saying, "I know you've been here 18 years, but there is nothing left for you here. Please help keep this ship from sinking at the other facility."

Here's the kicker:

Everything I know and love is here where I live now. Things, places, friends, and most importantly, family. I am a Cancer sun, but one still striving to build a dream home. But I've never been away from them. Not permanently. I'm a bit batty, and they've kept me knowing which direction faces up throughout the years. For four nights I sat up with my Gemini moon, analyzing emotion, strategy, risks, and going into a chaotic mental tug-o-war leading to a lot of anxiety, stress, and emotional instability.

I am also a Libra ascendant. I project these traits very loudly, which is not limited to but includes an ambition to fulfill the needs of others, and bringing about balance. When I thought about the opportunities and repercussions of each decision, it would be easy if the scales were tipped. But they were in fact even. Each choice involved venturing into the unknown where opportunity and failure lies, and each also came with disappointment and heartbreak. I have always said a win/lose situation is the worst to put a Libra in. And here I was, no way to manipulate this situation where everyone wins or everyone loses.

I met with my family, friends, and select colleagues from work for each to present their feelings, oppositions, and incentives; desperate to tip the scales to make the choice easier to no avail. The more thought I placed, the firmer they stood Then it struck me. A small, but fortuitous piece of advice telling me to do what is best for me. I realized that I have been sacrificing so much of myself for both my family and company. For years.

With a heavy heart, I informed my company that I would not be relocating and that we were going to have to part ways. I told them what ultimately lead to my decision was neither the pros or cons. I am 41 years old, no wife, no kids, no home ownership, and still have enough youth and spark along with a strong skillset. I can still set a goal, and set out to achieve it. I feel my talents are not optimally placed in helping others fulfill THEIR dreams. This brings gratification, but not happiness. For this first time ever, it's about me.

Is it the intention of the universe for me to selflessly give myself to others without recompense? Or perhaps this is the obstacle standing in the way? Am I denying my duty in this lifetime with my decision to turn my back on a company in need of my skills? I can't say for sure. What I do know is that I can't take THIS life for granted and cannot worry about karmic debt. I must pursue what am passionate about.

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If you read all of this, thank you! I typed it up more as a means to pop an emotional blood blister to let it drain. Friday couldn't have come sooner this week.

Posted by Black-Mamba

The questions i would ask are:

1) am i moving from a more expensive city to a less expensive city

2) Am I going to get paid the same salary

3) what are home prices in new location

sometimes you got to leave the old to get different types of rewards

Trust me, I asked myself these questions, and even researched cost of living, QoL, you name it.

AZ is less expensive than CO without question. I was insured that my living expenses would not exceed what they are currently. But I know how this company thinks and words their intentions, and it would be based on percentage, and I would actually get paid less than I am now. If I was to make my current income over there, this would have been a no brainer.

However, even if I was given the most generous offer in the world, I would still have to consider if I should forego my own dreams for the fruition of another. Again, no decision was without great risk, which is why no matter which I chose, I would be scared as hell about where it leads.

Posted by Impulsv

U will live like a king there

Move north Pheonix by Scottsdale

You’ll like

A family member moved n there years later same work offered her return to Cali

They turned it down why pay crazy for housing while can live like a king n get paid well

Yeah, no. I would be much further south, in Nogales and make a daily commute across the border.

Posted by Black-Mamba

Let's open a coffee shop together with screens for futbol and paninis and italian desserts

oh and lets have a child too

i can help you buy a home.



there i'm the solution to everything

Such generous offers. Ambition truly does breed success, and children apparently :p

Posted by Black-Mamba

Posted by Crabra

Posted by Black-Mamba

Let's open a coffee shop together with screens for futbol and paninis and italian desserts

oh and lets have a child too

i can help you buy a home.



there i'm the solution to everything

Such generous offers. Ambition truly does breed success, and children apparently :p

lol , good luck in your endeavors, i hope you get the opportunity to do something you like

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The opportunity is here and now. Only question is to seize it or let it go. Had I remained with my current company and relocated. That was pretty much it. I would live or die based on that company's success, and I would rather leave that dependency in my own hands since I have the opportunity to do so, and not the decision making of another.

Thanks a ton for your encouragement!

Posted by bumboklatt

saturn return dude

its time (arnold schwarzenegged voice)

Indeed. The time is now, I can just feel it. Heart and mind are as one. A VERY rare occurrence for me.

Wow 18 years of your life and they dispose of you that easily. These ho's ain't loyal.